Hanon

"Hanon" He breathed out. He walked in smiling but as soon as he saw me that smile was gone.

"Where were you?" I asked once again.

I was losing my mind over this. I had a panic attack when I woke up and didn't find him after knowing about Isaac.

"Have you been crying?" He asked, coming closer.

"Where were you?" I asked again, more firmly.

"I was-I thought I heard something-"

"Stop lying"

"Hanon, please can we talk about it later?"

"So you can have time to find a new ridiculous excuse? No"

He paused for a few seconds, never taking his eyes off me, "I was trying to fix it"

"Fix what?"

"I told you to trust me. I was trying  to find out more-"

"Kai, what did you do?" I asked, terrified of what the answer could be.

My mind was making up scenarios that I couldn't even explain.

"I asked you to trust me. Don't you trust me, Hanon?"

The truth was no, I couldn't trust him because he didn't know better. He didn't know because I had kept him in the dark about the world just like all the other people in his life.

Maybe I am the same as them.

But I only did it because I didn't want him to get hurt anymore. He needed a break.

"Please, trust me. I didn't do anything dangerous"

His eyes were pleading for me to trust him. He looked desperate, but as much as I wanted to, I couldn't. I was scared.

"Please" He mumbled one last time.

With a face so desperate, I had no choice but to let it go. I didn't want to be mad at him either.

"Okay"

He let out a sigh of relief and his lips formed a subtle smile, "Thank you. I will go take a shower and I'll be right back. You can go to bed"

I nodded, "I'll wait for you"

He rushed to the bathroom and I went back to the bed worried to death.

What was he doing that late at night? Behind my back? What could he possibly do that could "fix it"? We were alone in the world, so if I wasn't involved then who was? Did he think he could do this alone?

Why, Kai?

I frowned and felt tears coming to my eyes, but I held them back. I was so worried that he was overestimating his abilities or that he was underestimating the problem.

What if something happens to him?

Before I could think of anything else, he came inside and got under the covers with me.

"Hi" He whispered as he looked at me. It was dark, the only light was the moonlight that was coming through the window.

I realized I usually get scared in the dark when I'm alone, but this time I didn't. I was more scared of what could happen to Kai.

"Hi" I said back.

"I'm sorry"

"Please, tell me what you were doing" I tried one last time.

"Hanon, you don't need to worry" He pushed a stray strand of hair behind my ear. 

"But I do worry"

"Then stop. Think of something else"

"How can I think of anything else?"

My whole world revolves around you.

His eyes held tension. They were half closed, but he didn't seem tired or sleepy. His lips were slightly parted and his thumb was touching my bottom lip.

"You think too much. Let me think about everything for once. Don't think of anything"

I was convinced he still had no clue about the world, but why did he seem so reliable in that moment? Had something changed? I had no idea.

"Okay" I murmured and nodded as if I was hypnotized. 

He smiled happily. His smile was so cute. Out of all the actors on TV and all the handsome celebrities, he seemed even more handsome.

The urge took over me and for the first time, I leaned in and kissed him. I didn't just peck his lips, I really kissed him this time. I could tell he was taken aback because he let out a sound and grabbed my hands in surprise. 

I pulled away and he looked very flustered. Even in the dark, I knew his face was red and he seemed bewildered.

"Why?" He mumbled.

"Sorry, I-"

He didn't care enough for the answer and just kissed me way more passionately that I had kissed him. He buried his hands in my hair and got on top of me. I could barely keep up with what was happening.

He pulled away and just stared at me, "Hanon" he called my name and brushed my hair away for my face.

"Yes?"

"My Hanon"

It didn't seem like he wanted to say something specific, so I just smiled at him, wondering what he was thinking about.

"Hanon"

The way he kept calling my name made me giggle, "What is it?"

"How can I answer you when you keep looking at me and smiling like that?"

"What do you mean? Is my face funny?"

"No, it's beautiful"

Huh?

"Your face feels so precious. Like I shouldn't even be touching it" He mumbled, his hand ghosting over my face.

I took his hand and pressed it against my cheek, "Even if it was precious, I trust you to touch it"

He gave me a relieved smile and stroked my cheek, "Thank you", his expression slowly changed to a serious one, "Where you crying? Before I cane back, I mean"

I hesitated at first, but it was probably obvious I was, "Yes"

"Why?" His tone sounded pained. As if my answer had hurt him.

"I had a panic attack when I woke up and couldn't find you. I thought something happened. You know after figuring out what Isaac might be trying to do"

He sighed and then hugged me, tightly, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry" He kept saying.

"It's okay. You're here now. That's all that matters"

He pulled away and looked at me, making sure I really am alright and then kissed my swollen eyes, "You trust me?"

I smiled, "Yes, of course"

________

"What is that sign? Why do we need more people working here?" I asked Cameron when I saw him hanging up a sign.

"Isaac got fired" He answered with an awkward smile. Cameron had been suspiciously nice to me for a few days now, but I decided not to question it.

"Fired!?" I was shocked and almost dropped the tray I was holding, but I kept myself together.

"Yep, he was fired two days ago"

"What? Why?"

"Oh I don't know" He brushed it off and went behind the counter. I followed him wanting to know more.

"What do you mean? Aren't you two friends?"

"Eh. I wouldn't say friends"

"Are you sure you don't know? You love gossip" I looked at him suspiciously. 

He gave me a glare, "I don't and no, I don't know why he got fired"

I raised an eyebrow expecting more.

"But, rumor has it-"

"I knew it"

"Stop. Rumor has it he was rude to many customers. I heard he even spat at a lady's coffee"

"What!?"

To think I was hanging out with such a person. What if he did something to my drink while I wasn't paying attention?

"It's not confirmed. It's between him and the owner"

I was kind of relieved when I heard he was fired because it would be awkward to have him around me after what I'd discovered.

But as I mopped up the place, I suddenly remembered something.

'I was trying to fix it'

_______

"Kai what the heck did you do?"

"What do you mean?"

"Isaac got fired a couple days after you left because you were "trying to fix the situation". Do I look dumb?"

His face was tense at first, but slowly his lips stretched into a smile that he tried to hide by lowering his head.

"What's so funny!?" I yelled at him feeling frustrated.

"No, Hanon. I know you're very smart so I was expecting this"

He stood up from the couch and came closer to where I was standing.

"How did you do it?"

"Does that matter?"

"Yes, tell me"

He now stood in front of me, a few inches away, "Secret"

I sighed, "Since when do we keep secrets from each other?"

"Since you decided to lie to me about your aunt and about your job"

What?

I gasped and took a step back.

"Do you think I am dumb, Hanon?"

I was utterly speechless. I didn't know what to say, how to act. I didn't even know what he felt about it. Was he really angry?

"When did you find out?" I asked after a couple seconds. 

"About a few months after you got the job"

I looked down in shame, "I'm sorry"

"No, I am sorry"

"Why? You did nothing wrong"

"And you did?"

"I lied-"

"I know you lied because you wanted to keep me happy, but it's enough. Actually, it's too much. All this time I felt terrible knowing I was useless. I felt terrible knowing you were struggling because of me"

I sighed and shut my eyes, "This is why I didn't want you to know. I would never blame you. Even if I could turn back time and choose to leave you behind, I would never"

He looked at me with eyes glistening and a very tense face, "I wish you would"

"You don't wish that" I smiled at him.

He sighed and leaned his head back, "I don't, but I wish I could be useful. I wish things weren't like this"

I leaned in and hugged him. I didn't want him to feel like a burden, that's why I had lied to him. I didn't want him to feel useless. 

"I'm selfish. If you didn't leave with me that day I would've probably stayed no matter the consequences just to be where you are" He mumbled.

I giggled at his words, "I'm sorry for lying, Kai"

"It's okay"

"But this conversation has strayed too much. What did you do?" I raised an eyebrow.

He sighed, "Hanon" He took a hold of my shoulders and looked into my eyes, "Leave it to me for once"

"But what if it was better to have him working? That way he has a schedule that we know about-"

"I've also got this under control, in fact, he came to the café right after your shift ended"

My jaw almost dropped to the floor, "How do you know that?"

"You underestimate my abilities"

"Kai!" I smacked his chest.

"When all this is over I will tell you"

"Promise?" I held out my pinky.

"Promise"

His smile was so charming, it made me automatically trust him as he wrapped his pinky around mine.

"But-I'm tired of pinky promises, Hanon"

"What?"

"Can we do something else?"

"What else?"

"Kiss?"

I could feel my face becoming hot as I took in his words.

"No"

"Why?"

"I've already given you a kiss too many times"

"Do you hate it?"

He asked frowning. He looked genuinely hurt.

Oh, no. Actually, it's the opposite. 

"No"

"Then?" He looked slightly hopeful,  but still sad.

"I just-It's complicated. No kiss"

"Okay" He mumbled dropping his head.

He looked so pitiful and disappointed that it hurt to see. As if he had done something wrong.

"Fine"

He lifted his head with wide eyes, immediately held my face and kissed me.

"Easy" I tried to say against his lips.

We kissed for a long time, until we were both breathless. I stopped him when he tried to kiss my neck and my body.

I can't let this get even more complicated.  What are we even doing? Does he know what he's doing?

Too much thinking.

Like he had told me, I decided to stop thinking about it so much.