Sunday 1st March 2015(21 weeks, 4 days) Monday 2nd March 2015 (21 weeks, 5 days)

*Alexie's POV*

"You need to talk to James" Barclay smiled as he was playing with Jess' hair. Her head placed on his lap, her legs extended on the sofa.

"Why? He beat up Jason" I replied as I sipped on my cold water.

"He beat him up because you didn't say anything" Barclay added.

"I didn't want to tell him because he's got other priorities" I added.

"This baby is my priority, I'd drop gigs to be with Jess and the baby" Barclay stated, as his large hand covered Jess' stomach.

"You too are engaged, you've got a support system" I shot back, these bloody hormones.

"James loves you" Barclay said clearly.

"And you love James, it's obvious" Jess added.

"No I don't" I shot back.

Jess and Barclay both rolled their eyes.

"Oh, okay then" Jess laughed as she adjusted herself on Barclay's lap.

I glanced at the clock, it was half 7 at night and I was shattered.

"Barc, couldn't help me up could you?" I laughed as he stood up. He supported me and helped me up.

"Jesus Christ Lex, she's gonna be a whooper" Jess burst out laughing.

"No she isn't, I won't let her!" I said quickly.

"Your only 23 weeks and your barely able to get up, wait until your 40 weeks" she giggled again.

"Do you guys know what you want?" I asked curiously.

"Twin boys" Barclay blurted out quickly. Jess' reaction was priceless.

"You can push them out then Barc" she added, her facial reaction barely changed.

"A little girl would be amazing, or a little boy, just not twins" Jess said sternly.

"Us Beales have super sperm" Barclay beamed proudly.

"Barclay Edward Beales!" Jess shouted horrified, "I don't want to know about your brother like that!"

"And with that, I'm going to bed" I said slightly embarrassed.

Barclay chuckled lightly in the background.

I admired Barclay and Jess from the doorway. The way they interacted made me wish I had that with James, but he's with Shannon and I was stubborn enough to push him away.

Barclay kept talking to the baby and James did that once, but never again.

~ later that night; Jess' POV ~

"Stand up and let me take a picture!" Barclay called out. I followed his instructions and stood at the end of the bed.

I pulled my Tshirt up and beamed brightly as Barc pulled out his phone. He smiled as he took the photograph.

I jumped on the bed beside him as he began rubbing my stomach.

"I'm really looking forward to this, our future and our baby" Barclay smiled. I nodded in agreement.

"So twin boys?" I laughed, raising an eyebrow.

"Yeah, two little troublesome Beales will be great, well after this one" he smiled.

"No twins" I demanded jokily, pressing my finger into his chest.

Barclay pouted "What about a boy and a girl?"

"Then I'll consider it" I laughed. "Right, I'm shattered I need some sleep" I laughed before lying down and feeling barclay's strong arms around my waist. He kissed my shoulder.

"Goodnight princess, and night baby, daddy loves you"

I smile as I switched off the light and falling into a deep slumber.

~ 1.47am ~

I opened my eyes wide, I felt fluid inbetween my legs. I knew what it was. I bolted upright.

I reached over to shake Barclay awake. He groaned loudly before fluttering his eyes.

"Barc, Barc I'm bleeding" I panicked, peeling the duvet away from me.

Barclay shot up and began collecting his clothes and throwing them on.

"Should I leave a note for Alexie?" I asked as I began cleaning myself up.

"I'll text her, we need to get you to the hospital quickly" Barc said shakily.

I threw on my comfiest clothes and leant on Barclay as he assisted me out of the flat.

Barclay checked on her before we left but all I could think of was our baby, and hoping they were okay and safe.

The car was filled with silence the entire way. Barclay was concentrating on the road but you could see the vacancy in his eyes.

My hands fell to my stomach. What had I done to our baby? What did I do wrong?

The heavy rain began pelting against the windscreen. The journey seemed so much longer than it normally did.

Barclay parked up in the hospital car park and my face drained of all emotion and colour. Barclay began looking pale too.

Barclay found a wheelchair and I climbed aboard. Staring at the white, clean walls as I was wheeled quickly down the never ending corridors. The strong clinical smell felt like it punched me in the face.

I was in a bed awaiting a doctor to tell me what's happened. The scan and all the checks went past in a blur. I managed to hold back the tears the entire time.

Until loud, clear footsteps could be audible. His shoes clicked against the titles.

It was only Barc and I in the area and this made it worse, the doctor was about to tell me what happened. It wasn't anyone else's news, it was Barclay and my news.

Barclay bolted upright in the chair beside my bed and he extended his arm and grabbed my hand. The other was propping his head up against his knee.

"Good morning Miss Croft" the doctor spoke softly.

"What's up?" I blurted.

"Well, it seems that you have suffered a miscarriage" he said calmly.

Barclay instantly removed his hand from mine and stood up, pulling me into a tight embrace.

I finally allowed myself to burst into tears.

"Barclay I'm so so sorry" I sobbed, burying my face into my hands.

"Shh Jess, it's okay" he reassured me as he ran his hands through my hair and keeping me tight.

"I'm so sorry for you loss, I'll leave you to gather your thoughts and we will let you go in the morning" he spoke quietly before leaving Barclay and I alone, both of our worlds shattered.

And it was all my fault.

~ Alexie's POV - in the morning ~

I woke up to the strong aroma of toast filling Jess' flat.

I instantly assumed it was Barclay as he loved getting up and making Jess breakfast, and of course me.

I sat up and stretched out. My baby kicking inside of me because I awoke her from her sleep.

I kicked my legs off the bed and stood up as I pulled my Tshirt down. I pulling on a dressing gown.

I swung open the door and walked into the kitchen.

"Morning Bar" I was cut off by Shannon stood in our kitchen in her underwear.

"Morning Lex" she chirped. I rolled my eyes, drop the act princess.

"Where's Barclay and Jess?" I questioned as I sat down at the table and began scrolling through my twitter.

"Hospital" James said as he began buttering the toast.

"Why?" I asked.

"Don't know ask them" Shannon bit back.

"Erm, what's this?" I asked as I pointed to a little pink bag on the table.

"It's for my daughter" James chirped.

I leant over and pulled out a little dress, it was cute. But I wasn't keeping her. I admired the little outfit, the material was soft. It was white with baby pink spots all over it.

"Thank you" I weakly smiled before pushing it back inside the bag, acting as if it wasn't even there.

"James what the fuck?" I roared as I turned around and flashed my phone towards him.

Shannon jumped slightly and James raised an eyebrow.

"You tweeted the following 'I've got some amazing news, I'm having a daughter! She's due 8th July 2015. Cannot wait to meet baby Graham!" I shouted.

"I'm letting the fans know" James smiled.

"Well thanks, you've ruined everything" I screamed as I picked up the bag and launched it at him.

I huffed loudly past them. "Take me to the hospital" I demanded and James agreed.

I slammed my door shut and saw the adoption books. I needed to decided what's best for my daughter.

I began flicking through the pages admiring all the amazing qualities families could offer my daughter. I heard James knock at the door and I pushed the books out of sight.

"Coming" I called as I pulled on a hoodie and some leggings for comfort.

"She's coming?" I snorted.

"Yes, Jamesy needs me" she pouted.

"Jamesy needs you to fuck off" I sarcastically smiled.

"I have some information for you darling" she shrieked.

"Save it" James smiled as he took Shannon's hand and escorted her out of the flat.

The drive was horrendous. Shannon's winey voice was ringing in my ears. James and Shannon where acting all couply and I couldn't help thinking I was the reason this was happening.

I pushed James away right into that sluts grasp.

As soon as James parked, I began running as fast as I could to reach Jess. I was receiving some looks as I was running with my bump. She was moving around in there, hold on baby girl, it's for your aunty Jess.

I rushed up to the reception and I was told where to go. I turned around to see James and Shannon casually strolling behind me.

I located Jess' room and knocked loudly. Barclay opened the door, his eyes where blood shot.

"What happened?" I asked as I sat down beside Jess.

Jess was blank and emotionless. She barely even acknowledged the fact I was even in the room.

"She lost the baby" Barclay croaked out. My facial expression drained quickly.

A sudden rush of guilt covered me, I was having a baby I didn't want, whilst Jess just lost the baby she wanted.

I pulled Jess close to me and she didn't even move or cry, it was if she wasn't able to cry anymore.

Shannon appeared in the doorway beaming broadly. She was bubbly as usual and it was beyond annoying.

"Guess what!" She shrieked.

"Your leaving?" I shrieked back.

"No I'm pregnant" She beamed.

Jess burst out crying and Barclay stormed out, and James looked like he was going to faint.

"Get out" I demanded and I stood up and tried to get her to leave. She refused to move unless James got her to leave.

"Jess I'm so so sorry" I began to explain " I didn't want her to come but she didn't and I didn't even know she was going to say what she did"

"It's okay, I just want to go home and stay in my bed" Jess muttered as she got up and hugged me. She then placed a hand on my bump.

"This little princess is special Lex, you need to look after her, maybe adoption isn't best" Jess muttered.

"This baby is having a half sibling" I said as I pointed to my bump.

"I know but James loves her, I saw his tweet" Jess smiled faintly.

"Just because he tweeted it doesn't mind he won't leave me for Shannon and his other baby"

"Lex, she doesn't matter, it's about your daughter now" Jess smiled as she linked arms with me and we walked out to the car.

Barclay was leaning against the car.

"I'm coming with you, I'm not staying with that venomous cow" I spat as Jess nodded.

James' car followed us all the way home. Jess sighed quietly.

"James is only coming to grab some clothes" I smiled weakly.

He followed Barclay upstairs and I helped Jess up the stairs. She was still sore from last night.

Jess picked up the gift bag.

"What's this?" She enquired.

"James brought it" I replied bluntly before James come running into the room in a hurry.

"Lexi, what the bloody hell are these?" He roared loudly.

I just looked at him, Barclay looked shocked when he picked up a book and read the title out aloud.

"Adoption Book; Ryan & Olivia" Barclay called out. "Wait your giving her up for adoption?"

"Yes Barclay, the girl who used to be my best friend is giving our daughter up for adoption" James shouted as he began throwing the books around the room.

"You know what Lexi, you give her away because I'm having a new baby with Shannon, I love her and not you, you worthless liar" he yelled before slamming the doors.

"We just lost our baby and now your giving yours away" Barclay whispered disappointedly.

I felt my eyes burn up with tears.

"It's disgusting" he finally added before leaving Jess and I sat on the sofa.

Today has been the worst day of my life.

A/N - the miscarriage scene is from one of my favourite movies of all time - What To Expect When Your Expecting. It's between Marco & Rosie. The video I was going to attach is on YouTube - it's by someone called EvaBubble & it's called - what to expect when your expecting - Rosie's miscarriage.

So Jess lost the baby, it's sad but it's going to affect Alexie as much as it does for Jess & Barclay.

Shannon's pregnant, she's got what she wanted and now James has a big decision ahead of him. Alexie? Or Shannon?

Sorry for delayed chapter, I had a few hard days but I'm back on a roll now and I have lots of ideas for the next one!

Baby Jexie still doesn't have a name, I haven't decided on adoption or not yet.

The tweets I made on a tweet generator, I couldn't get photos tho!

Next chapter is mainly based on James! He's going to find out more about the adoption and Shannon ect.

Lastly, I've still been reading the story whose been using my ideas, I'm still upset and I'm really debating telling someone only because it takes me hours and days to research my work and that's what upsets me the most. You know who you are & darling, you might want to re-read your description because your story has NOTHING to do with it.

So I've decided I'm going to stop helping people with ideas because I'm sick of my ideas getting used and no credit for it. If I see it again, I will stop writing this story because I've had enough.

But to end this on a happier note, I'm beyond excited for my James Video Message, also it's only a month until The X Factor Tour, Barclay's friends and family are coming to my date so hopefully I can meet them!