Hi everyone! I'm back! Exams are finally over! Thank you for your messages, I appreciated them❣️ Happy Birthday to Yuta! I love you so much💚 Also, congratulations to NCT 127 for getting their 4th win! I'm so proud of you, boys! #Regular4thWin

My Regular-Irregular Album also arrived today! I got Johnny's poster & postcard, and Jaehyun's photocard!

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Chapter 42

"Explain. Tell us what you want to tell." Mark said, sighing. Taeyong had convinced him to listen to Jaemin. Since Taeyong's the hyung, he had no choice.

Jaemin looked down, "First of all, Mark-hyung I'm sorry... But everything's not what you think, I promised." He sighed. Then he continued, "Hyung, I know I broke your trust, especially Haejin's. But hyung, believe me if I say that I am not cheating on her, and definitely not in a relationship with Sohyun." Jaemin just cringed at the thought. If that happens, it would seem like he's dating his little sister.

Because Sohyun really is just a friend. Like a dongsaeng.

"Jaemin-ah, you don't have to explain Sohyun's side." Mark said, getting irritated.

"No, Mark-hyung you need to listen to me." Jaemin said, standing up. His hyungs looked at him.

Jaemin sighed, "Do you guys know 'Tell Me'?" He asked.

Everyone was in deep thoughts. Especially Mark, whose eyes widened upon realizing what Jaemin was referring to.

"T-Tell Me? That's—" Jaemin cut Mark off.

"Sohyun's film." Jaemin finished.

"Sohyun was memorizing her lines. And I was reading her script. I was helping her because she was so nervous. Hyung, you know how much I love Haejin. I could never do that to her. And Sohyun? You know what she is to me." Jaemin said, smiling weakly.

Jaemin sat on the couch once again, now looking at Mark. "Mark-hyung, I know you can't forget what happened before... but please, believe me.."

Mark sighed and stood up, "You know, Jaemin-ah? I want to hate you. I really do, but I've been working with you for a long time. There's no way that I could be mad at you that long." He said. Then he continued, "Please forgive me too."

"Hyung, why are you apologizing? I should be the one doing that." Jaemin laughed. "Thank you for understanding, Mark-hyung."

"I can't hate you. Too bad Haejin hates you now." Mark said, sighing. He shook his head and look at Jaemin, "You didn't break up... right?"

Did we? Jaemin shook his head. "No. We didn't— yet..." He was about to tear up but Jisung patted his back.

"It's okay, hyung. It's going to be okay. We'll help you. That's what you got us, right?" He smiled at his hyung who seems worried. "I'm also sorry for how I acted, hyung. I shouldn't have acted like that.."

"It's fine, Jisung-ah... I understand." Jaemin said, smiling weakly.

"Now, what do we do?" Chenle asked.

Mark stood up, "I'll talk to her. Then we plan, because I definitely don't want these two to break up."

"That's right. We'll save your relationship, okay?" Jaehyun said, patting Jaemin's back.

"Thank you, guys! You're the best!"

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"Haejin-ah..." Mark slowly approached his sister who was looking at nowhere.

She was looking outside, watching the rain fall on the window. Mark sighed, he never dreamt to see his sister like this.

She was lying on her back, her two hands on her stomach. Her room was quiet. To the point that you could only hear the monitor beeping beside her.

"Hi, Haejin-ah.." Mark sat beside her. Haejin didn't respond.

She was listening, but she was too broken and devastated to even talk.

"How are you feeling, my dongsaeng?" Mark asked.

Haejin sighed, "Good."

Bad, she wanted to say, though it's already too obvious to say.

She wanted to hate everyone around her. She sighed, as another tear dropped on her cheek.

Mark did noticed that she was sniffling silently, her tears were rolling continuously.

Mark sighed and wiped her tears away. He sat on her bed and hugged her. It's the least he could do.

"Shhh.... stop crying, it will make your condition worse... please stop..." Mark said, trying to calm her down.

"If it's the fastest way for me to die then... hurt me... just hurt me... heck, just kill me..." Haejin just sobbed.

"Y-Yah, why are you like this?! Haejin-ah, if Jaemin were here, he wouldn't like that.."

"Oppa, who gives a damn about it right now? Definitely not me... a-after all..." Haejin didn't had the chance to continue what she's saying. She's having a hard time breathing.

"A-After all... what happened to.. th-the four years... oppa... I wanna die... I want to die, just kill me!" She keeps on saying those words and it's hard for Mark to see his sister like that.

She was punching herself hard, Mark stopped her by holding his hand. She was clenching her fists hard, her knuckles were white. He could clearly see that his sister is having a really hard time.

The other members were outside, and they could clearly see what's happening inside. Jaemin felt weak, he feels like his world is crumbling down.

"Shh, H-Haejin-ah, stop... jebal... stop..." Mark basically pleaded her to stop. She did, but she did not stop crying.

"Talk to him, please?" Mark said.

He looked at Haejin. She looks— bad.

"O-Oppa... I... I want to tell him... thank you... for everything.... for the love... but I guess I wasn't enough?" She chuckled bitterly.

Just then, Jaemin opened the door. He was shocked to see Haejin looking like a total mess.

Mark separated but Haejin was clutching onto him for dear life. "You need to talk..."

Haejin let go. Mark left the room and let the two be alone.

Silence.

"H-Haejin-ah—"

"Y-You know, I have a lot of things to tell you..." Haejin started.

"Thank you... Thank you because once in my life, I met someone like you... Y-You came into my life... You were once my dream... but as th-they say.. dreams turning to reality is scary... but w-we met.. and we almost did it... almost..." she was crying while uttering those words.

"Th-Thank you... because once in my l-life, I... I felt loved... Thank you for loving me in a short period of time... Thank you for staying with me in all those years... but the past will always remain in the past... Love— I mean, Jaemin-oppa, thank you... but I guess we're better off without each other..." She said, and she could feel her heart breaking into pieces.

Jaemin's tears were also falling without stop. "Haejin, please don't say these... p-please, I-I'm begging you..."

"D-Don't cry because of me, oppa... I-I don't... deserve those tears..." She said, chuckling bitterly as she wiped her tears away. "But please, can I-I tell you this one... l-last time?"

"I-I... I love you.... forever and always. Thank you for the memories... Th-Thank you for everything... Thank you for breaking my heart." She said, bursting into tears once more.

Jaemin couldn't utter a single word once he left her room. Everything happened too quickly.

"Thank you for breaking my heart." Those words kept on repeating inside his head.

It all went fast.

They're over.

Jaemin and Haejin are over.