Alec seems to be coming and going a lot recently, but whenever he shows up i almost want to cry, i have no idea why and i dont like it. it mostly seems to revolve around this one friend, and theyre a great friend, and i think it may come from me wanting to impress them? or make them happy? i have no clue but if they ever read this i hope they dont realize its them because i dont want them to feel bad for my brain being annoying..

also sorry if this made no sense im just ranting while kinda crying lol anyways bye