This is my interview with TheGirlWhoDiedWolf

They have 215 followers at the moment and 5 published works including their newest book You belong to the Night which is a Frerard and Dead in the Scene which is another Frerard that has 3k reads.

1. You mostly write Frerard, so how did you first get into that ship?

I first got into Frerard a while after I first got into MCR. I was never one for reading fanfiction, I stayed well away from it all. Like wouldn't touch it with a ten-foot-pole kinda distance away. And when I first saw the members of MCR, I thought they were fucking beautiful but at the time, this whole shipping people with each other thing wasn't a big deal to me. And then, I remember I was following this fan account on instagram and they posted screenshots of fics they were reading and it intrigued me because I'm naturally a very curious person.

So I searched it up and I don't even remember how, but I fell into the void very quickly. I researched all the Frerard masterposts and then I fell hook, line and sinker for reading stories about the ship. I don't ship them in real life, but I love reading fics about them and now, I love writing it.

What a wild journey. I now write gay smut (occasionally). Brilliant.

2. Do you have a favorite character you've written so far?

Hmm, this one's a toughie. I guess the character I've gotten most attached to writing about would probably be Gerard from my first fic (Dead in the Scene). But if I had to pick a favourite, out of all the one's I've written so far, then it would probably be Ryan in Teach Me How to Feel because he's just adorable and sweet and lovely. Oh, and also probably Frank in my oneshot Baby, I'm Only a Voyeur for You because he is a sweet little *kinky* cupcake and I just wanna squish him.

Oh...or actually, I really did enjoy writing Gerard in my latest oneshot The Thrill of the Kill. That was a fun time because it was the first time I wrote a character like that. A gun-wielding sociopath with a gun kink. Fun times.

God, I'm indecisive as fuck.

3. Do you have any pet peeves concerning Wattpad or things you dislike about posting on here?

Something that has really been grating on me about Wattpad recently is the fact that it has been glitching like a motherfucker and so notifications and things get fucked around with and it frustrates me to no end. Honestly, I am starting to lose my patience a bit, and it takes a lot to get me going lol.

I don't really have any quarrels about posting on WP other than that though. WP is pretty rad, despite its flaws. It's like a dysfunctional sibling relationship. You love it and hate it all the same but you always come back to it.

It sucks you in, like a void.

4. If you could go back in time and do something differently on Wattpad what would it be?

Something I would change would be that I would try and be more active with keeping up to date with fics. I kept doing that thing where I added stuff to my library and I was like 'yep, I'll read this' and this went on for months and months and it all piled up and now I'm in the predicament of 'there's so much in my library I wanna read but idk where the ever living fuck to start' and now it's become more difficult to try and keep up to date with stuff, even though I really really want to, because I spend a lot of time writing and if I'm not writing then I'm working on assignments and if not that, then I'm attempting to keep myself sane.

I promised myself I would read more this year, but I haven't kept up to that as much as I'd hoped I would. But I know that 100% during summer I will be free 24/7 and have no assignment stress on my head so I'll be reading a shit lot then for sure.

It just sucks because I have this thing where I get emotionally invested in whatever I'm reading and I never want it to end, so then I end up reading multiple things at a time and everything becomes a jumbled mess in my head because I don't remember where one fic starts and another ends. But then if I read one fic at a time, I leave things unfinished. It is not good.

I really wanna support writers and stuff and I love leaving comments, but I get this terrible anxiety about reading things and I honestly have no clue why and when it started. I used to love reading and spamming comments on chapters but idk. I just don't now. I'm working on it, though, because I love reading and I want to be able to read without that weird, irrational anxiety holding me back.

5. Would you like to one day work on getting a book published or do you write more for fun?

I used to, when I was younger aspire to want to be a writer someday. It was one of those flitting aspirations, though. Like when you're a kid and kind of lost so you weigh out your options and keep going from this aspiration to that aspiration, but at some point I wanted to be a writer.

That never really lasted long, though, because a couple years ago I finally got to the realisation of what I actually want to do with my life, which is Vet Nursing. It's something I've always thought about in the back of my head. A sort of constant in my life really. But I did love reading so much as a young teenager and I dabbled in writing, too.

But when I started writing on this account, I realised it was something I really fucking enjoy. It was about time, too, because last year was a bit of a hell-ride for me. Just lost in a terrible daze and things I used to love doing, I no longer enjoyed. My brain was just mush and I fell into this weird spiral where I couldn't watch movies or even catch up on my favourite TV shows or even read at all, or draw or listen to music all that much (and those were the things that made me most happy) but then I started writing and it was just like a sort of epiphany.

Writing sort of brought me back from that. I realised I'd been just, like, ghosting through life and now I'm starting to feel myself come back to the real world, ever so slowly but surely. I don't even know what happened to me from around September 2015 - the end of 2016, and honestly, I don't even want to think about it anymore because I'm finally in a place where I'm quite content with life.

So yeah, I guess writing keeps me somewhat sane, but as much as I find it is some sort of therapy for me, I also really fucking enjoy it. But I don't think I have these delusions of grandeur about having my works published someday. God, no, I don't think I could qualify to publish legit pieces of work, but I love writing and I'm happy with where I am at the moment and I want to keep writing just for the fun of it and well, if people wanna come along for that ride, then by all means - I sure as hell won't stop you.

6. You tend to write very long chapters. Do you struggle with that at all or are you used to producing things of that length?

Haha...oh god yeah. I think the longest chapter I ever wrote was somewhere around 17,000 words long, just for some context. And that was a single chapter, in my first fic.

Honestly, I have no idea why I write so much or why I feel the need to. I don't even know how it ends up being so long. I just sit down and let it flow and then I get to the end and I look at the word count and I'm just like 'fuck I did it again'.

I don't think I struggle with it, really. If anything, I prefer writing longer chapters. I sit down for long periods of time to write, when I do, and I think a lot while doing it so it takes me so long to put pen to paper, or text to screen in this case. I'll go over things in my head and I'll just keep typing and somehow I've written too much again.

Also, I know a lot of oneshots tend to be porn without plot or whatever, and like 90% of my oneshots include smut, but for some reason, I can't bring myself to not have a little plot. I feel like, for myself, it's just cheap smut if there's no plot to go with it and I love the idea of giving people character even if all they're going to do in the end is fuck lol.

Don't get me wrong, I love a little PWP just like the next person and at least one of my oneshots is just that, and I have a few chapters of PWP in my fic tbfh. Maybe that's why I'm a bit of a word-count hoe. Who knows.

7. What is the hardest part about writing for you?

The hardest part, for me personally, would be editing things. I'm a proper dick for not editing my stuff. It's just that I dislike reading over my own works because I end up making myself cringe, especially if it's my older works oh god.

Another difficult thing would be the fact I write so goddamn much and I get so easily distracted, too. My brain tends to wander an awful lot so I spend hours at a time just writing up a thousand or so words. I find it hard to concentrate at times because my brain has the tendency to stop working on me sometimes at like random spurts. And I'll catch myself just sat there staring into an abyss lmao. Really, the only struggles I have come from my own self.

However, despite all that, I still love writing and I feel like I'm majorly improving. So advice to anyone who also gets distracted af when writing; just keep going, Keep practising and pushing yourself to write if you really want to write. I know out of anybody how frustrating it can be when you have ideas spinning through your brain and you want to get them written down but the wording is wrong, or your brain is just having a fart. Honestly, just keep practising and you will improve. It won't seem like it at first, but I swear to god practise makes perfect.

Honestly, if you compare my older works to my newer stuff, my writing has definitely changed. Not drastically improved but definitely gotten better. I had my ups and downs, all documented in my first fic in cringe as fuck ANs, and I seriously considered deleting it off the face of the earth but I finished it.

But I still don't properly edit my stuff. That really needs to change lol.

8. If you could be one of the characters you have written for a day who would you choose and why?

Oh man, good question. That's a toughie.

Oh, well, I'm not actually a materialistic person irl, but just for a day I would love to be Frank from Teach Me How to Feel because he's rich and gets waited on hand and foot by robots. Also, he doesn't even have to interact with humans and nobody bats an eyelid #LivingTheLife

But like, I would love to explore his house and get into a deep conversation with Ryan-bot or just sit with the pantry open so they can all access coke and watch them as they all lose their shit (in my fic robots have a weird addiction to coke - not the drug, the drink smh don't do drugs kids).

Oh! Or maybe Frank in my oneshot Soulmates because, honestly, get you a man like Gerard. Just, minus the sex stuff because as much as I love reading/writing about it, it's not my forte irl *cough*asexual*cough*

Or who knows, maybe if I was a dude I wouldn't be asexual. Maybe having a dick would make me more sexually inclined honestly I would just love to know what it's like to have a dick for a day. Let's be real.

Alright let's move on.

9. I know as an author sometimes I write a line or a paragraph that I'm especially fond of. Do you have one of those?

Hmm... I'm not really sure if there's anything I'm particularly fond of, to be quite honest.

Like, anything specific, really, I can't think off the top of my head. I don't think I've written anything that particularly made me think 'wow I really fucking love this line', but I've definitely had that moment with completed works. So like, I'll say what my favourite work is, out of all of them so far. Completed, it would be The Thrill of the Kill because I love Gerard's character in that and the gun kink thing still makes me giggle tbfh. But from my uncompleted works, it would be You Belong to the Night because it's been my most enjoyable writing experience so far. I love coming up with lore and creating this whole universe and stuff it's just a fun time.

I never really answered the question to be fair. But I'd love to know, if there are any writers reading this, what your personal favourite lines have been when writing seeing as I don't have one for myself.

10. Has your experience with Wattpad helped you grow or change at all as a person?

As I answered in previous questions, writing has become my hobby and honestly, I think it has changed me as a person. I don't know if it has helped me grow, per se. Actually, maybe it has. I've learned a lot through writing. A lot of words and shit because I'm always referring to the use of synonyms haha. I'm sure other writers can relate but here's another tip if you're ever stuck writing something particularly descriptive and you feel like you're repeating yourself; look up synonyms. It is my personal lifeline.

Writing is something I cannot see myself without anymore. Storytime (as if this isn't already long enough lmao): Recently I accidentally sent a snapchat of a passage from one of my works to my best irl friend who has zero idea about my Wattpad. I had a mini heart attack because the passage I sent was a smut scene and I literally lay on the floor contemplating life and wanting to just drop into a hole.

At the time it wasn't so funny because I thought that if she found out, then everyone else would and I'd have to delete my account and wipe myself off the face of the earth. In the end, it turns out she never even received it and now I look back at it and I laugh my tits off because I was freaking out like there was no tomorrow.

Ciah and Embla, I'm laughing so much because I literally freaked out to you guys and every time I think about it I laugh and I die a little inside.

Anyway, that fucked me up because it made me realise that I don't ever want to not write. It's something that's become a part of my life now and if I stopped then I don't know what tf I would do with my spare time.

But yeah, writing has taught me things, definitely made me more confident in myself because I always doubted myself, still do - but I doubt myself less now. Just from the support of the wonderful people on this site.

Honestly, thanks from the bottom of my heart to anyone who reads my stuff, and especially those people who leave really heartwarming (and amusing) comments because they give me so much confidence, something I've lacked for most of my life, as well as motivation. You're the real MVPs so much love to you guys. Like honestly, I feel like I don't even deserve the response that I get but you guys are just the fucking sweetest people in the world and so damn supportive it hurts.

And not just people who read my stuff - the friends I've made too; Ciah and Embla I'm looking at you gorgeous boobs.

I wanna thank you too, Starr, because you're legit the loveliest bean ever. You're too sweet for this world and your writing is just top quality stuff. Also thanks for taking time out to think up these questions that's really appreciated, and for the interview in general. This was a fun experience and I'm honoured that I got a chance to do it (again haha).

I hope you enjoyed my interview with the lovely TheGirlWhoDiedWolf

Update: TheGirlWhoDiedWolf has deleted their account.

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Love you all xxx

- starr