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You might be like "Why?" 

The main problem is... My grandma. 

My mom's mom. Yeah, her. 

She's depressed and bipolar. I have nothing against people like this, but she takes it out mostly on me and my mom. 

She started living alone since last year. Last year her mom, my grandgrandmother died, and my grandpa died a few years ago when I was 8 from COVID. (It's January 2025, this was written technically last year so I guess 2 years since she died in 2023 but it was October when that happened). My uncle, my mom's brother, died a long time ago, when my mom was still a child (He was 9 years older than her). So she lives alone now. 

She still has friends. But literally all they talk about is death, who died when, what they were like Etc. Even when she brings me with her to some friend, I just sit there, bored, playing with the dog, while they talk about death. 

I wrote more detailly about her in my other book, it's called "Big vent about a bipolar bitch" if you want more info. 

Now in that book I mentioned how my dad and I have a shared hatred for her right? That never changed. 

But one day it like was mentioned? 

Once my dad and I were arguing and I mentioned wanting to kill myself since I was 9 (Which is true btw), and he didn't take me seriously and told me to get out and kill myself. 

After that we were going back from a trip, just him and I in the car and we were talking, he decided to spend the whole trip with me just talking. 

It was fucking hell. 

All because I said I wanted to kill myself. 

Anyways

Yeah, he mentioned her, how her and my grandpa (R.I.P.) spoiled my mom, how now my mom's a whiny bitch... 

And, as much as I hate my dad, I have to agree with him. 

The fact that she's a spoiled piece of shit and that my grandma drives my dad insane led him to telling me this word to word. (Translation is right under the quote just so yk) 

"Nemoj da se naljutiš na ovo što ću sada da ti kažem, ali, da sam znao kako bi se tvoja majka ponašala pre nego što smo krenuli da se zabavljamo, mislim da je ne bih uzeo." 

Translation: "Don't get angry at what I'm about to tell you, but, if I knew how your mother would act before we started dating, I don't think I'd marry her." 

When he told me that, I completely understood what he was saying and understood his reasons for saying that. Now, I still do, considering this was only a few months ago, but... 

WHAT THE FUCK, DAD?! 

I am actually so tempted to tell my mom. I hope they get a divorce. I hope they get a fucking divorce. I don't care if I sound spoiled. I am so fucking tired of being in the middle of a relationship with a spoiled whiny bitch who is too tired to do anything with her family and a nerd guy who yells at his only child everytime work pisses him off. Add my grandma on top of that? This family is messed up. 

That car ride was 3 and a half hours long. He told me so much about my whole family, especially his side. They were either mentally fucked, alcoholics or dead. Not to mention the fact that his mom, aka my other grandma, was a single mom. She married a guy, he cheated on her, they divorced, she made a child with another guy who she never married, then left him and raised the child aka my dad by herself. Like respect but that fucked up my family so much. During the car ride my dad blamed everything happening on the "Poor times without money" and the strictness of his grandpa. He loved them but still was very strict. 

At the end of the car ride, he made a promise to never yell at me again. "That wouldn't solve any problems," he said. 

...Do you think he kept that promise? I'll let you figure that one out by yourself. 

Last things last, remember when I said that I want them to get a divorce? I am 90% sure that they would anyways in like 5~10 years. The fact that my dad basically doesn't wanna be with my mom anymore, despite the fact that he'd deny it and say he didn't mean it that way, would lead to the divorce. Especially considering the fact that he told me that he was gonna tell my mom about what he thinks should change, just very very very sugar~coated. 

I know that they will get a divorce one day. When that day comes, I won't hesitate to to stuff I promised you people that I'd never do.