Here is a pic of Kai's bedroom ^^

Raziel's POV

I messed up. By the angels, I messed up. I don't even know how things got so messed up.

Kai said that if I kissed him he would forgive me for making a mess of his kitchen. I was so shocked that I just blurted out if he was serious and I let my contempt for the human race seep into my voice.

The problem isn't Kai, it's his inferior race and him asking me to kiss him is the equivalent of asking me to spend the rest of my life with him. So of course I was shocked! If he wasn't human I wouldn't have even hesitated.

I was about to apologize when his face contorted like I punched him and it felt like someone was ripping my heart out.

I tried to talk to him but he turned away. I tried again and he fled to his room. I staggered after him once I got my feet cooperating. Music was blazing from his room, but above that I heard the sound of him crying.

Even though he's a lonely kid he hardly ever cried and I came into his life for just over forty eight hours and made him cry. How could I have done that to him? It felt like the walls of the corridor were closing in as I slumped to the ground outside his room. I clutched my chest and felt the gnawing pain in my heart grow with his intensifying sobs.

The doorbell sounded a few minutes later and I stumbled to the door. I had never felt such pain. Even all the injuries I've sustained in the wars couldn't compare to the pain I felt from hearing Kai cry. The human who came to the door gave me a paper bag and I took it to the messy kitchen and opened it to find some sort of food.

Kai ordered me food.

I remember seeing something wet fall onto the paper bag followed by another drop of something wet. I touched my face to find that the wetness was coming from there.

I walked back upstairs and sat on the floor outside Kai's door, the wetness continuing to leak from my eyes. I wiped my face and stood up when I heard Kai coming towards the door. I caught him when he stumbled but he yanked his hand away from me and stomped away.

He said something about my lunch but all I wanted was to find out if he wasn't going to eat. He ignored me and told me harshly to give him some space. I watched him drive away and that was two hours ago.

It's freezing but I haven't been able to move from this spot for the past two hours. Another human came to give me another paper bag an hour ago. I still clutch that bag in my hand.

My eyes are broken. They won't stop leaking even though angels don't cry. My chest feels tight and I haven't been able to hear Kai's voice since he left. Like I suspected, my ability to hear him as if he was talking directly into my ear must have been linked to my wings.

This morning marked forty eight hours since I lost my wings and fell to earth so the reminisce of power from my wings have officially ended. Consequently, I have become vulnerable to the element, and Kai's voice was also no longer double the volume when in close proximity to him, and I can no longer hear him from far away.

I don't know if he's okay. For the first time since I came to earth, I can't hear him and it feels like something is missing.

I should go inside. My body is currently susceptible to hunger, tiredness and coldness; all of which I am feeling strongly right now but they're nothing compared to the pain I feel for hurting Kai. I don't deserve any comfort until I see him smiling again, until I hear him giggling again, until I see joy in his eyes again.

Another three hours and another food delivery later and I'm still standing in the driveway. Now I'm holding two paper bags, my body is shivering, my teeth are chattering and my eyes are leaking.

I hope Kai is okay.

A few minutes later I see the headlights of Kai's car approaching.

"Oh my god, Raziel!" Kai screeches as he jumps out the car and starts rushing towards me. I smile, happy to finally be able to hear his voice again. I've made up my mind. I'll risk it.

I stumble towards him. I lift my hand and gently sweep his pink hair from off his forehead. Then I lean forward and press my ice cold lips to his warm head for a few seconds before pulling back and looking into his beautiful sky blue eyes. "Forgive me," I whisper as the wetness runs down my cheeks. I slump forward on him, falling unconscious.

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I groan and rub my eyes.

"Raziel!" Kai screams, shaking my shoulders. I sigh. I guess he hasn't forgiven me since I'm still Raziel.

I open my eyes and am met with Kai's glistening blue orbs. A tear spills from one of them landing on my cheek. I made him cry. That makes my eyes start to leak. "I'm sorry Kai. I-"

Kai's soft, plump, fiery lips crashing against my own, silencing me. When they connect with mine, I feel whole. The emptiness that fallen angels feel from losing their wings is gone and the warmth from his lips radiates through the rest of my body. Everything else fades and it's just his lips on mine.

All too soon Kai pulls away, blinking back his tears; his eyes filled with sadness.

I reach out and grab the front of his shirt pulling him back down to me. He gasps as the sudden aggression. I release his shirt; his face just inches from mine. He moves his body so that he is now straddling me.

Without breaking eye contact he moves one of his hands from off of the bed and gently places it in the middle of my chest. He bites his bottom lip and I feel his hand tentatively glide up my chest leaving a trail of electric sensations in his wake.

I stare into his eyes, noticing for the first time the flecks of grey in his irises. Kai's eyes seem to be looking into my soul, reaching out and shattering my perception of what I thought my future holds, leaving my thoughts filled with only him.

My breathing hitches. "I'll be your boyfriend," I breathe.

I watch as Kai's eyes widen and his mouth hangs open before his eyes start sparkling with joy and he breaks into a breathtaking smile. I reach up and delicately brush my thumbs across his tear stained cheeks guiding his lips to mine.

There's no turning back for me now.

I softly connect my lips to his and I hear Kai let out a contented sigh; I smile against his lips. Kai breaks the kiss, smiling the biggest, most beautiful smile I've ever seen.

"Beautiful," I whisper, still stroking his cheeks and his smile somehow grows.

Kai giggles and drops his head onto my chest. I pout since I was enjoying looking at his cute face. I move my hands to his lower back and move him off me so that we are both lying on our sides. He shuffles his lower body closer to me and entangles our legs, and I move one of my hands to caress his cheek.

"You can't leave without saying goodbye. Promise me," Kai says quietly after a moment of us laying there savouring the sight of each other.

I know I can't leave him now.

If an angel initiates a kiss on the lips with a human that they have genuine feelings for, that is the start of an eternal bond. So this bond can now only be broken by Kai and though it is possible for me to break the bond since it's still in its initial stage, I would face everlasting consequences.

In the initial stage, there's no change for the human but for me it's like Kai's soul left an imprint on mine. It's like my soul knows that it now belongs to Kai and I now have a physical mark on my body that confirms I am his.

When the bond is complete, our life forces will be bound together, and I will become extremely vulnerable since humans can die from so many things and if he dies then so do I.

Human bonds or mates are extremely rare and not just because it makes the angel vulnerable but because, unlike angels bonding with other angels or demons, if Kai decides to break our bond, I won't get another shot at a mate. This was Father's way of protecting the weak race and deterring angels from bonding with humans.

He needs his angels to be strong and having a human mate gives our enemies a greater chance to hurt us. This is less of a concern now that there has been peace between heaven and hell for centuries, but I was raised during a time when hate for humans was prevalent.

Despite all of that, as I look into Kai's hopefully eyes and see his beautiful smile as he waits for me to reply, I don't regret my decision. Seeing Kai upset today broke my heart, I've never felt such pain and devastation and I know I can't ever hurt him again.

Maybe it's finally time to put my prejudices aside.

I kiss the tip of his nose and reply, "promise." Kai smiles and snuggles into my chest. We fall asleep tangled in each other's arms.

What did you think of the chapter? And their first kiss? Do you think Raziel connected the bond too early? 

Shoutout #2 SuleimanSarhadi. Thank you for your support, I always love reading your comments and interacting with you. I'm so curious did you guess the right reason behind Raziel's actions? 

Y'all this story has a life of its own, when I started writing I had literally no intentions of having them kiss so early lol. Anyway in the next chapter we'll see what Kai was up to 5 hours before he finally came home and saw Raziel. 

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