"As much as I love having you here, is there any specific reason you're here? And don't tell me you missed me" asked Johanna her son curiously.

Louis was sitting with his mother in the living room of her house with a cup of tea. He had spontaneously decided to visit her. Maybe because he needed to have a moment with her. There was something he wanted to tell her.

"But I did miss you" huffed Louis offended but Jay only threw him a pointed look, making him groan. "Fine. Maybe I have a reason. I just wanted to tell you something and I mean, now that Harry is in town for lunch with Anne and Gemma I thought this could be the right moment. I mean, he's probably telling them too, so I should ...".

"So, it's about Harry. Did I get that right?" interrupted Johanna his nervous rambling. Louis just nodded. "What is it, Boobear?".

"Well, um ... Harry and I, we're together now" let Louis her know quietly.

"Really? How did that happen?" sounded Johanna really shocked.

"You advised me to tell him everything and I did. That didn't go that well but we managed to talk about everything and work it out. Harry apologised so many times for everything and said he doesn't deserve me, what is ... I don't know. Anyway, he admitted that he loved me and I gave him another chance. Since then everything is good between us" reported Louis, recalling every moment in his head.

"I'm not gonna lie. I don't like how he treated you, especially with having been your best friend for so long. But I'm glad you were able to clear things up. I just really hope he knows what he wants this time and is serious" replied Johanna honestly and Louis couldn't blame her for her doubts. He had the same, still.

"I can't say I'm not doubting his intentions here and there but that's logical after everything that happened. I can't fully trust him yet but time will help to make things easier. For now, I'm happy" told Louis her openly.

"And this is all that matters" smiled Johanna happily at him. "We definitely need to have dinner together. All of us. You're in?".

"Yeah, sure. Haven't done that in forever" accepted Louis the suggestion.

For something over an hour, Louis was just talking with his mother before he had to leave for the soundcheck. Today was another gig at the bar and Louis couldn't wait for it. Arriving at the bar, he was met with Liron, who was already setting everything up. A short while later, Zayn, Àmber and Aria came in as well. Together they went through the soundcheck and then disappeared 'backstage' to get ready.

"Is Evan gonna be there?" asked Louis his best friend because he seemed restless and nervous. Or even scared.

"Yeah, he promised to come tonight. I wanna ask him out after the gig" nibbled Zayn on his bottom lip.

"It's gonna be okay but um ... Javy, can I ask you something?" hesitated Louis a bit because he wasn't sure how to word this. Zayn only waited for the question. "Didn't you say you like Liam? What happened to that?".

"Well, first of all, he is straight and one of my best friends. I'm not gonna say anything or do anything. Straight means straight" answered Zayn unoffended but then let out a heavy sigh. "And right now it wouldn't matter anyway. He needs help to get away from the drugs and not a relationship. He told me that he can't remember how many girls he slept with while being stoned or if he actually used protection. It's important that he gets better now and we should all pray that he got no one pregnant".

"Let's hope that he didn't. I understand you, Javy. Really good. But are you sure that Evan isn't just a rebound and that you actually like him?" checked Louis worriedly.

"I can't deny that I still care a lot about Liam but Evan is amazing and I actually like him a lot and he is gay, most importantly. I'm good. Don't worry so much, Tommy" answered Zayn honestly.

"I'm your best friend. That's my job" nudged Louis Zayn's chin lightly.

"And it's our job to go out there and rock the stage. You're ready?" chipped Àmber in enthusiastically.

"Born ready".

Motivated and excited, the five of them entered the stage and introduced themselves again. Louis' eyes immediately found Harry. He was right in front of the stage at a table together with Niall, Sean, Liam and Bailey but all Louis could see was Harry. He looked breath-taking beautiful.

They started the gig with two songs they've already played last time but they couldn't always come up with new songs this fast. Next in line was Battle Inside My Heart. Louis felt like this time he could sing this song. It didn't hurt anymore. During the whole gig, Louis was only staring at Harry, who was staring back at him as if he was in trance. No one else mattered than them.

"My heart was sure before I knew. It chose you and I didn't have a clue. I thought those somersaults in my stomach were simply the flu. But oh boy, it has always been you" sang Louis smoothly into the microphone the lyrics of their last song. It was about Harry.

"Can tell you when I stopped feeling so alone. You kicked me out of my comfort zone. And maybe I should have always known. Baby, you make me feel like home. You're all I want so much that I can't live without you. You're all I want so much that I can't go a second without you. You're all I want so much that I can't breathe without you. But I don't have to cause you're mine" continued Louis with the pre-chorus and the chorus, never breaking eye-contact with a teary-eyed Harry.

"You're the prettiest brunette and I can admit that I'm hopelessly obsessed. There is nothing I could ever regret while walking with you into the sunset. When we're apart I can still see your silhouette in my bed. We can both be pig-headed but I love that we're imperfect" grinned Louis from ear to ear at his boyfriend.

"Can tell you when I stopped feeling so alone. You kicked me out of my comfort zone. And maybe I should have always known. Baby, you make me feel like home. You're all I want so much that I can't live without you. You're all I want so much that I can't go a second without you. You're all I want so much that I can't breathe without you. But I don't have to cause you're mine" repeated Louis the pre-chorus and the chorus effortlessly.

Without anyone noticing it, they simply repeated the chorus another time and then ended the song. Louis didn't feel like it was time to sing the other verse he had written. He wasn't satisfied with it yet and maybe some of the lyrics would be a bit overwhelming and too much. So, he decided against it.

With the applause fading out, they left the stage and got praised by Pablo for an amazing performance before they could go over to their friends. Liam directly pulled Zayn in the chair next to him while Niall attacked Liron and Àmber and Aria went over to Sean and Bailey. Louis made his way over to Harry and was immediately greeted with a sweet kiss, that made Louis' heart beat faster.

"You were amazing, Lou" beamed Harry proudly at him.

"Thanks" blushed Louis slightly. He would blame it on the heat in the room if anyone asked him.

"The last song made me cry. You wrote ... That's what we said. We ... Lou, I'm speechless" was Harry unable to find the right words to say.

"It' show I feel. How we feel and I just put it into a song. It's not that big of a d ...".

Harry cut him off by kissing him overwhelmed and Louis simply kissed him back. "This is everything. I love you so much, Lou".

"I love you too, Haz" flicked Louis Harry's nose, which made Harry tear up again.

"Oh god. I missed you doing this" choked Harry out emotionally when tears started to fall down his cheeks.

"Sh, Baby. Everything's good. Come here" pulled Louis him into his arms and stroked gently over his back.

"Sorry. That was uncalled for. I just missed that a lot" snivelled Harry into Louis' shoulder and tried to calm down.

"Never apologise for what you feel, Haz" cupped Louis Harry's face and wiped the tears away with his thumbs. "And I missed this, too".

"Good" smiled Harry tearfully at him.

When Harry had calmed down complementarity, the two boys sat down at their friends' table. They ordered some drinks and enjoyed their time together. Liam stuck to a simple coke because he feared alcohol would ruin his plans to stay away from drugs. Zayn disappeared at some point with Evan just to come back beaming like a Christmas Tree and telling Louis in a whisper that he had asked Evan out and he had agreed. Louis was really happy for his best friend. Sean and Bailey also seemed to be pretty happy with each other the whole time and made it look like they definitely had a future together. Àmber and Aria were as disgustingly cute as always and Liron checked his phone over and over again, probably texting with some girl.

Louis just sat back and watched it all happening. At this point in his life everything seemed to be going great and no drama was in sight, which was a relief. He couldn't believe that their only worries now were the exams of this term in Uni. It seemed too easy and too quiet but maybe once in his life destiny had decided to give him a break to just enjoy his life with his friends and his boyfriend.

Said boyfriend immediately kissed him as soon as Louis had closed and locked his front door behind them. All over the moon, they sat down on the couch and actually wanted to watch a movie but they ended up making out instead and Louis really wasn't complaining. By now, Harry was sitting on his lap and had his hands tousled in Louis' hair. Louis on the other side had his hands firmly placed on Harry's bum and dominated the heated kiss. Their tongues danced together messily and Louis felt himself growing hard in his pants. Harry was obviously as affected as Louis himself, panting heavily into Louis' mouth. But when their hips rutted together and their clothed cocks rubbed against each other, Harry broke away from the kiss.

"Haz, what's wrong?" asked Louis immediately, placing his hands now on Harry's cheeks.

"Nothing's wrong. I just um ..." bit Harry the inside of his cheek, looking troubled.

"You don't wanna do this right now. It's okay. I understand that, Haz" guessed Louis the reason and should really be okay with this because it's nothing bad but he wasn't. Somehow that made him feel rejected because he felt unwanted now. Harry could do it with literally everyone right at the first possibility apart from Louis. That didn't feel so good.

"You do? Are you sure? I mean, I'm obviously affected but I don't think we should ...".

"It's okay, Haz. Really" cut Louis him off tensely. He felt horrible for reacting like he did but he couldn't help it. Maybe without their past it would have been different. Yeah, Louis was sure of it. Normally, he would never question such a thing and respect it. "You don't want me like this yet ... or ever. You love me but you're not attracted to me. It's okay. Shit happens".

And Louis knew he was making no sense now but a part of him was hurt. The part that was still holding onto the past although he tried to let it go. The part that couldn't trust Harry yet. The part that was simply broken.

"What? Louis, no. That's not it" grew Harry's eyes big and he looked shocked.

"Don't sound so shocked. Obviously, you don't want me like this. I mean, you just said that" snorted Louis cockily.

"I did never say that I don't want you, Blue. And how much I want you. You don't even wanna know. I just don't think we should do this right now, not all the way. No" cleared Harry up and was now the one cupping Louis' stunned face.

"But if you ... what ...?" was Louis not able to focus with Harry this close to him.

"I want us to take this slow, a little bit. You know how I've been before. I always literally jumped into it at the first given chance. Hell, I forced myself onto you at Àmber's party and that was so wrong. I want to do this right now. Of course, I want you, Lou. More than anyone else in this world. But I'm afraid that if we rush into this I might lose you again, in the end. I wanna do this differently because this is different. We are different. You are different. In a good way" explained Harry his reasoning and now Louis felt like the worst person alive.

"I'm sorry, Haz. I should have never ...".

"Don't apologise now, Lou" cut Harry him off in an understanding voice. "I understand your doubts and know where they come from. You don't need to explain it. It's my fault and now I have to live with the consequences. Like, I know I'm not fully trusted and that's another reason why I want us to wait a little bit with going all the way. I want you to trust me again before we make love, Lou".

"You're adorable, Haz. I love you so much" pulled Louis him in for another kiss, not taking into account that they were still semi-hard in their pants, which caused their dicks to rub against each other again and make them moan into the kiss.

"Um ... I think we should ... err ..." stuttered Louis out aroused.

"Can I suck you off, Lou?" asked Harry him with big eyes and he really shouldn't be allowed to look this innocent while asking something like this.

"Yeah. I mean, didn't you say that you wanted to wait" brought Louis out way too turned on already.

"For the real deal, yeah. Nothing wrong with some other form of release though" grinned Harry dirtily at him.

"If you're sure go for it" allowed Louis him and was touched by the fact that Harry had asked for permission. Maybe stupid but he couldn't help it. Consent was sexy in his eyes.

Getting the go, Harry kissed Louis again sloppily before he started leaving open-mouthed kisses down Louis' neck. Both of them got rid of their shirts, pants and boxers and were left naked. Louis was sitting on the couch while Harry sunk down onto his knees in front of him. Carefully, Harry took a hold of Louis' hard dick, letting Louis' eyes flutter shut at the feeling. When Harry licked over the tip and started to go down on his dick, Louis threw his head back inpleasure. This felt so freaking good.

Because he wanted to make sure this was really happening, Louis willed his eyes open and looked down at Harry, who was skilfully sucking Louis' dick. The sight took Louis' breath away and he felt himself getting closer by the second. Maybe it should be embarrassing how fast he was about to come but this was Harry down on his knees in front of Louis. Something he never thought would ever happen. A dreamy sight out of his forbidden and inappropriate fantasies he had always denied to even have in the first place. Now it was really happening and Louis felt his orgasm building up already but Harry just was really good at this or maybe Louis was just really in love and gone for his boy. Or both.

"Haz, I'm close" warned Louis him pantingly.

That only made Harry suck faster. He looked up at Louis with big eyes and hollow cheeks and Louis lost it right then and there. He came down Harry's throat with a loud moan and Harry's name falling from his lips. Harry sucked Louis through his orgasm and then released him with a pop.

"Damn, this was amazing, Haz. I never came this fast. You got me all riled-up, I might say" breathed Louis out heavily.

"At least you didn't come untouched just from watching you ..." trailed Harry off and looked down with red cheeks.

"You really came just from me coming?" asked Louis with a huge grin on his face. Harry nodded hesitantly and Louis only lifted his chin up, pecked his lips and pulled Harry up into his arms, not caring about being still naked. "You're so cute. I can't handle your cuteness".

"It's not cute to ...".

"Nah, don't" cut Louis him off with another peck on the lips. "I think it's cute. This just means it was hot, which makes me feel good. No reason to be ashamed".

"Well, you are hot, Lou" turned Harry's cheeks even redder.

"Thanks, Haz. But the same goes for you" flicked Louis his nose beamingly." I'm gonna return the favour next time. Get ready for it".

"I don't think I'll ever be ready for this. I never came like this, untouched just from watching. No idea how fast I'm gonna come if you actually touch me" snuggled Harry up to Louis.

"Probably as fast as I did. Nothing wrong with that. It's just us, Haz" kissed Louis Harry's forehead. "We should get dressed and go to bed, don't you think?".

"Only if you cuddle me to sleep" stuck Harry out his bottom lip in attempt to look cute and well, he did.

"Nothing I wanna do more".

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Sorry for the late update. I didn't have time to get the fanfic version of this chapter done but now you have it. Only four chapters after this ...

What are your thoughts on the chapter? Louis can't trust Harry yet and Harry knows that, so he wants to take things at a slower pace. Good idea?