We're getting a bit of Zouis now and get to know about some stuff that happened in the past mixed with some own lyrics. Let's see how it goes.

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The summer air is playing with your hair

We're savouring the taste of the kisses that we share

Saying goodbye now really isn't fair

Now the breeze is getting colder

And my words are getting bolder

While your head is resting on my shoulder

And we don't want it to be over

Louis looked down at their written words and was actually satisfied for once. He has never been one to be satisfied with his own lyrics but Zayn has always been there to make him feel good and accept that his lyrics weren't too bad, in the end. For an improvised idea out of nowhere those lyrics weren't as shitty as Louis thought they would turn out.

Scratching his head with his pencil, Louis lay down with his stomach on the floor of Zayn's living room. Zayn was sitting right next to him with his back leaning against the couch. They have been writing on new songs for the band since they had come back from uni this afternoon. What surprised Louis though was the fact that Liam wasn't here and no one knew where he was right now. That was so untypical for him.

"How about this, Tommy?" asked Zayn unsurely, showing him his first try-out of an idea for the chorus.

But it's over.

The summer was our time and you have been mine

But now the winter is coming back and our love is frozen

It feels like a hangover and what he had is broken

It's not that I don't care

But what we had was only a holiday love affair

"I think this is really good, Javy. Thought about anyone in particular?" questioned Louis knowingly.

"Maybe I tried to put my experiences with Max into this but when we came up with that idea after what Liron told us about his summer romance I couldn't ... I don't know. It hit straight home" wrestled Zayn for words.

"That's what I feared. We can forget about this song and focus on something different, if you want? Liron can write it if he is so keen on telling everyone about how he dropped ... what was her name again as soon as Uni started?" offered Louis to his best friend, knowing this could be hard for him.

"Thanks, Tommy. But this won't be necessary. I can handle this" looked Zayn way too uncertain to convince Louis.

"Even if you write the song from Max's perspective and just show ...".

"Even then. It's good for me to relive it and finally leave it behind. I mean, yeah. It hurt back then to know it was never serious and he only wanted some fun but by now I can handle the memories pretty well" interrupted Zayn him a bit more determined.

"When he asked you to prom I actually thought he might have had genuine feelings for you" admitted Louis hesitantly.

"Me too and um ... he kind of had but it wasn't enough. He never planned on starting Uni with a boyfriend. Just wanted to collect many experiences. Can't really hold that against him. He did care about me but not in the way I wanted it. I remember him telling me how hard it was for him to see me down because of the break up" tried Zayn to find a reasoning for Max's behaviour.

"If it was so hard for him to see you like this why did he keep giving you false hope by hooking-up with you until the very last day only to drop you again and break your heart by saying it was never serious anyway?" looked Louis pointedly at him, feeling anger pooling in his stomach. He really hated Max for everything he did to Zayn.

"I don't know. I just try to see the good parts more than the bad ones. Makes it easier for me. Max really caused some serious trust issues in me" mumbled Zayn small.

"I know that feeling too well sadly" sighed Louis out.

"Too bad we didn't go to prom together. Maybe like this we would have gotten our movie-like plot twist and would be a thing now" joked Zayn to get rid of this horrible mood.

"We already kissed before prom. Don't think a bit of dancing together and a cheesy prom kiss would have changed that. The road trip didn't push us intoeach other's arms and not just because Lima Bean was there as well" remarked Louis amused.

"But you've been in my arms on the road. Don't deny our undying love, Tommy" wailed Zayn dramatically.

"And I thought I was the drama student" laughed Louis at his best friend's antics.

"And a good teacher to me" winked Zayn at him. "Oh and by the way, we both know we didn't kiss to try us out".

"Yeah, yeah. I know. It should have been the reason though" bit Louis the inside of his left cheek.

"Wouldn't have changed the failed attempt" noted Zayn.

"You mean, the unsuccessful outcome" corrected Louis him.

"Excuse me, it would have been way more successful if the goal would have been different" huffed Zayn faux offended.

"Oh yeah, because we really love each other" snorted Louis sassily.

"That hurt. Right here" pointed Zayn at his heart.

"And I'm gonna hurt you even more if you don't focus back on this stupid song. Tell me what you wanna say next" finished Louis this funny conversation.

After some pushing back and forth, the both of them focused back on the task at hand. Zayn told him exactly what he wanted to express and mixed with Liron's words in their heads they were able to come up with some more and finish the song in less than two hours. They were good at distracting each other.

During the thunderstorm we snuggled up in my dorm

With you here in my arm the rain doesn't bother me

And I feel warm

One last time at the ice cream parlour

I wish your tears wouldn't make it this so much harder

In this wonderful time you have been my partner

But now with a heavy heart I have to leave the harbour

When they were done with the song, each of them focused on their own individual songs they have been working on separately for a bit now. Louis had actually written his song about Zayn and their friendship because he cherished their special bond a lot but also thought people liked to misread Zayn and see him as someone he really wasn't and that didn't sit right with Louis. He needed to correct people's view on Zayn, and no, he wasn't only talking about Harry.

On the outside you look all rough and you pretend to be tough

People think you're all dangerous but in reality you're pretty generous

They don't see who you really are cause you live underneath their radar

The word they describe you with is cigar but to me you're a Rockstar

We party til dawn and celebrate the fact that we were born

We stripped off all the clothes we've worn and laughed at all the silly doodles we've drawn

Chorus:

Where do I even get started?

Out of a million, you're always the smartest

When you were little you wanted to be a guitarist

You never make me feel like the shortest cause you're not heartless

You're my favourite person to ever exist

You're my special artist and I know you by heart

In a crowded room you're always pretty silent

I really don't see how people can think you're violent

You always have my back and together we produce our own soundtrack with a shared duet

We get through every panic attack and sometimes even share a cigarette

Chorus:

Where did we even start?

Out of a million, you're always the smartest

When you were little you wanted to be a guitarist

You never make me feel like the shortest cause you're not heartless

You're my favourite person to ever exist

You're my special artist and I know you by heart

When I'm down you pull me out of my dark hole

And help me get back my life control

You'd follow me to the end of the north pole

Javy, you have the sweetest andkindest soul

Chorus:

How did we even start?

Out of a million you're always the smartest

When you were little you wanted to be a guitarist

You never make me feel like the shortest cause you're not heartless

You're my favourite person to ever exist

You're my special artist and I know you by heart

"Javy Baby, I'm done with my song and it's about the most important and special person in my life" sing-songed Louis to get Zayn's attention.

"You wrote a song about your mum?" looked Zayn surprised at him.

"No, I meant outside of my blood-related family, Javy" whined Louis like a baby. Maybe he was one.

"So, it's about Harry" bit Zayn back a grin.

"Nice one" did Louis know exactly what Zayn was doing. "No, it's about you. Here".

Zayn took the lyric sheet and slowly read over the written words. Here and there he let out a quiet chuckle but had a smile on his face the whole time. When he was done he looked at Louis with sparkling eyes. "Tommy, this is a wonderful song. I feel honoured and I'm very touched that you think about me like this".

"How else should I think about you? This is just who you are. Just simple facts and you know I love you" smiled Louis fondly at him.

"I love you too, Tommy" pulled Zayn him into a hug. "So much that my song is actually about you".

"Really?" broke Louis away from the hug just to see Zayn nodding sheepishly. Both boys started to laugh at that. "Damn, we really love each other, I guess".

"Looks like it but my song clarifies that we're not a thing although we love each other" let Zayn him know.

"Now I'm curious. Can I read it?" asked Louis him excitedly.

"Of course, Tommy" handed Zayn him his song.

Sometimes you're lost in your own world with your head up in some cloud and you're so tiny you get lost in the smallest crowds

Life has only shown you the bad and you still turned out to be the best ever lad and I'm glad that we met and even sang a duet

"Naw, you're so cute, Javy. I love our duet as well but I'm not tiny" cooed Louis at the first verse, referring to their shared part in their song Way Back Home.

"Whatever you say, Tommy" grinned Zayn at him.

You're not one to judge and never hold a grudge

You see the good in everyone and sweeten my day like the warming sun

You're a bit old-fashioned but even more impassioned

Don't think I'm quite done because I know you're looking for someone for the long run

"I'm not old-fashioned, Javy" huffed Louis cutely.

"Tell this your dreams of only being with one person for the rest of your life and that being the one you met with sixteen, Sweetheart. Or even earlier" winked Zayn nastily at him.

"You're evil" made Louis big eyes at him.

"I thought I was your special artist?" raised Zayn an eyebrow at him.

"I take that back".

Chorus:

You make me feel alive and together we act like we're barely five

We clicked from the start and I knew it all along

Boy, I love you with all my heart but this is no love song

You're the strongest person I've ever met

There's nothing in your life you should ever regret

You're convinced you haven't found love yet

But what about that clumsy brunette?

"Is out of my options, Darling" referred Louis to Zayn's line about Harry.

"Yeah, yeah. Go on" waved Zayn him off.

You have the bravest heart to ever exist

With that smile there's no one who could ever resist

You're ready for the biggest ever plot twist? No?

We're just gonna ignore the one time that we kissed

"You really wanted that plot twist, huh Javy?" smirked Louis at him in amusement.

"We would be the hottest couple out there. You have to admit that" was Zayn's laughing answer.

"Very true, my friend. Very true" chuckled Louis happily.

No matter what, you're always by my side

It's perfect even when we're quiet

We talk late into the night and in the morning you shine brighter than the sunlight

Chorus:

You make me feel alive and together we act like we're barely five

We clicked from the start and I knew it all along

Boy, I love you with all my heart but this is no love song

"Javy, now I wanna marry you" said Louis when he was done with reading the lyrics.

"Okay. Next month okay with you?" tilted Zayn his head aside.

"Short notice. Always a good idea. Let's get married" chortled Louis cheery.

"Our babies will be the most beautiful creatures walking on this planet" sighed Zayn poetically.

"Don't get ahead of yourself there, Honey. Who said I want kids with you?" had Louis a huge grin on his face.

"Isn't that included in the marriage deal?" pouted Zayn at him.

"And I'm the old-fashioned one, yeah?" cocked Louis an eyebrow at him sassily.

"Maybe I should think about that marriage again. Don't think I could survive this sass every day 24/7 for the rest of my life" countered Zayn way too serious.

"You're obsessed with my sassy ass, Javy" winked Louis exaggeratedly at him.

"If you are not mistaken. Niall is obsessed with your ass, not me" shook Zayn his head vigorously.

"So, you're telling me you don't love this perfection?" presented Louis his bum to Zayn playfully.

"If I say yes Luke is going to kill me. That's why I'm gonna deny the obvious facts" pinched Zayn Louis' bum slightly.

"I knew my bum is irresistible. I'm just blessed" exclaimed Louis triumphantly.

"You really are. Too bad you're a top. With that ass you'd be everyone's favourite bottom. Be aware of people thinking you are one and having to tell them off, Mister Fabulous Ass" joked Zayn, but Louis couldn't laugh about it this time. Not with knowing he hadn't told Zayn about certain things yet.

Thankfully, Zayn's ringing phone saved him from answering questions he wasn't ready to answer because he had seen Zayn's confused face when Louis didn't laugh at his obvious joke. Well, maybe that Joke hit straight home and made Louis feel weird. So, that phone call was sent from heaven to save Louis' ass. Quite literally maybe.

"Hi, Lima Bean. What's up?" answered Zayn the call and cringed immediately, holding it away from his ear.

"Put him on speaker" scooted Louis closer to Zayn.

Zayn put the call on speaker and directly, the room was filled with loud music coming through the phone and a hyper sounding Liam. "Z , come here and party with me. Drag Louis with you. He needs to let go. This is the night of my life and we party til dawn".

"We? Liam, who is with you?" ignored Zayn his pleads to get every bit of information he needed.

"My favourite lad Niall, of course. He's taking shots with one of Luke's friends. What was his name again? Cady?" slurred Liam obviously drunk.

"It's Cody, Lima Bean. Where are you?" wanted Zayn to know and Louis could here the worry clearly in his voice. Louis was worried, too. Yes, Liam has been a bit reckless lately and always partied a lot but he has never sounded like this. It was scaring the shit out of Louis.

"He sounds high, not only drunk" whispered Louis over to Zayn when Liam didn't answer the question.

"I thought that, too" looked Zayn very concerned. "Lima Bean, where are you?".

"My usual club, Zayn Baby. Come and dance with me. Maybe then I share my secret with you" giggled Liam into the phone, confusing both boys. "Better not. But I can share my miracle cure against sad moods with you".

"That sounds like drugs to me. I have to go and get him" stood Zayn up from the floor.

"You want me to come with you?" asked Louis overwhelmed.

"No, stay here and make sure everything is safe to come home. He might even pass out on me. I need you here just in case. I'm gonna call Sean on the way, so he can get Niall. Maybe you should text Luke about Cody, making sure he is okay as well" instructed Zayn to him, sadly being way too used to this by now. Louis couldn't even count the times Zayn had picked a drunken Liam up from a pub.

"Okay. I'm gonna be here when you come back but be safe, yeah?" was Louis totally worried about his friends.

"I always am" said Zayn before he left the flat.

Not knowing what to do now, Louis walked into the kitchen to prepare some headache pills and water for Liam and placed them next to his bed. Afterwards, he heated up the left-overs of their dinner and ate in silence, thinking about the whole situation. He texted Luke to tell him about Cody but didn't react when he asked if he should come over to accompany him. Louis didn't feel like company right now. He was too worried and felt like inviting Luke over during a moment like this would be wrong, especially given the fact that he was still in Zayn and Liam's flat and not his own. No, Luke wasn't an option for tonight's distraction from their messy life.

This thought brought Louis back to a song idea he had had today somewhere in between everything. He had only written down one sentence but maybe he could come up with some more now to kill the time. Putting his food down, he walked over to the couch and grabbed for his notebook. Deep in thought, he opened the right page and the words just came flooding out if him like the song wanted to be written.

I'm just lying here in my empty room, staring straight up at the wall, trying to forget it all

Sheer horror on your face when you heard those words

And you put me directly in my place

Do you wanna know how much it hurts?

Looking back makes me look like a clown

Seeing how I obviously got rejected

That I still want you near shows how much I'm affected

But without you here this big old house feels like a ghost town

Maybe you actually left and I should really move on

But I can't forget the day that we met

Or accept that you're gone

I should delete the memory of you and press on restart

But I still want you despite the battle inside my heart

Clinging to the very last pieces of you is pathetic, I know

Without you I really don't know what to do

Cause I thought you were my Romeo

Now I feel empty inside and really wish that I lied

And just swallowed my pride so I don't have to hide

The tears on my face, cause my biggest fear now is to be replaced

Maybe you actually left and I should really move on

But I can't forget the day that we met

Or accept that you're gone

I should delete the memory of you and press on new start

But I still want you despite the battle inside my heart

When he was done way too quickly, Louis stared at his written words and wondered where they had come from. What even was this song? Was he really thinking this? Feeling like this? Who had he been thinking about? Looking at the words, it could only be one person and that was what confused Louis the most. Why was he still writing songs about him? Songs like this one?! Unlike his song said now, Louis was not still wanting Harry. Maybe a part of him would always love him but why should he keep holding on to something or someone he could never have? His heart really needed to shut the fuck up and let him move on.

Louis decided to just ignore it and focus on more important things. Liam being drunk off his ass and probably high in a club with Niall and Cody. Not for the first time presumably. This was important right now and not Louis' heart still being hung on his hopeless first crush, who would never love him back. Pushing the confusion and longing in his heart aside, Louis closed his notebook and grabbed his phone, waiting for Zayn to tell them they were okay because that was the only important thing right now.  

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I don't even know what to ask you, guys. What did you think? 

Max only used Jonah and Louis still writes songs about Harry. Thoughts?