We're close to the end of part one of this story. It has two parts (in one book, don't worry) and we need both to understand everything.
Right now I'm writing part two and it's interesting ... the change

Btw, listen to the song. My girls are so good *_*

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The graduation day came way too soon and was way more boring than Harry had expected it. And again, expectations. Maybe Jake and Louis have been both right with that. Anyway, on this day Harry was so nervous and really wished Louis would be here with me, telling him there was no need to stress about anything because Harry knew that but he still needed Louis to tell him that.

On his way into the great hall where the ceremony would take place his phone vibrated in his pocket. Confused, Harry took the phone out and looked at the screen. He almost got a heart attack when he spotted Louis' name on it. He did not expect that at all.

From Lou:

"Don't stress. It's all gonna be okay".

It wasn't what Harry was used to but Louis had still told him everything would be fine. Louis just knew him way too good and that made Harry smile. He pressed the phone to his chest before putting it back into his pocket. Now he could rock this graduation.

With his family in the room and his friends by his side, the graduation went by very quickly and Harry was proud of himself when he held his certificate in his hands. This was officially the end of High School for him. That was a strong feeling. Niall, Sean and he high-fived each other before falling into a needed hug.

"It's over. Finally over. No more school. Goodbye studying" cheered Niall excitedly.

"You know, in Uni you have to study even more" smirked Sean at him nastily.

"But something I wanna do and it's more about the parties anyway" remarked Niall joyfully.

"Well, that can be interesting with you" shook Liam his head at him as he came over.

"I'm gonna make you loosen up a bit more, Lima Bean" nudged Niall Liam's shoulder.

"I can't wait for it" nudged Liam him back.

"Congrats, H" came Jake walking towards him.

"Thanks, Jake. Congrats to you as well" smiled Harry warmly at him.

"Ready for Uni?" stuffed Jake his hands into his pockets.

"As ready I can be. A new beginning, not scary at all" chuckled Harry to cover up his fears.

"It will be fine. Just be yourself and you have your friends with you. That's a huge advantage. I won't have that" encouraged Jake him surprisingly.

"Where are you going to Uni anyway?" wanted Harry to know, realising he had never asked him.

"In Famumria. So, pretty close. We could even see each other sometime" let Jake him know. (A fictional town)

"Yeah, we could" smiled Harry at him.

"Didn't go well with Louis?" guessed Jake rightly.

"Not really. Well, it doesn't matter. We got this" waved Harry the matter off, not wanting to think about this right now.

"I'm sure but call me, yeah? See you around, H" pulled Jake him into a huge and Harry just hugged him back, ignoring his friends' eyes on them.

"I thought you broke up" spoke Aria up when Jake was gone.

"And? Do I have to ignore him when he talks to me?" turned Harry around to her.

"Of course not. Was just surprised" held Aria her hands up in defence.

"You were not the only one, Becca" noted Àmber mysteriously. Harry glanced over at Louis and Zayn, wondering if she meant them but they were facing away from them and Louis had told him to stay away. He had no right to question Harry's actions anymore.

"Sweetheart, I'm so proud of you" came Anne over to him and hugged him closely.

"Thanks, Mum. I'm just happy it's done" said Harry but his words were muffled by her body.

"Look at my baby bro being done with school. I could get emotional now" joked Gemma but Harry could hear that she was actually serious.

"That's all?" looked Harry challengingly at her.

"Don't test me" laughed Gemma before hugging him as well.

"Now I want some photos".

So, Anne got her pictures of Harry and his certificate. Alone and with Niall and Sean. Even with Gemma because Anne wanted both of her babies in one picture. Then Johanna came over to them with the girls and Louis and Zayn and Harry just knew this wouldn't end well.

"How about a picture of the two of you? You're done with school and mastered this together again" suggested Jay cluelessly, referring to Louis and Harry.

"No need" declined Louis her suggestion and Harry barely recognised his voice.

"Boobear, what are y ...".

"We took enough pictures, Mum. I only graduated High School and this is not a photo shooting" interrupted Louis his mother.

"It's just one more picture. One of our two boys. You're best friends. Why would you not w ...".

"No, Mum. We're not and I don't wanna pretend everything is fine for one picture. This would be hypocritical. Just accept that. End of story" cut Louis her off in a snappy tone.

Harry cringed at his words and hung his head low. Louis had never talked to his mother like this but it seemed like she didn't know anything. Neither Louis nor Anne had told her anything as it seemed. This was tough.

"Leave it, Jay. This has nothing to do with us" interfered Anne now calmly, looking very sad.

"C'mon, Tommy. Sam is looking for you" dragged Zayn Louis out of this situation. And of course, Sam. Harry didn't even wanna know what he really wanted from Louis.

"Harry, can you tell me what's going on?" addressed Johanna now him, sounding very sceptical.

"It's my fault. I ruined our friendship. Don't be mad at Louis for snapping at you, Jay. A photo just wasn't a good idea. He is right with that. I screwed up and now we have to live with it" defended Harry Louis' actions and tried to explain it as short as possible.

"Everybody makes mistakes, Harry. I'm sure yours weren't that bad and you can fix this somehow" put Johanna her hand on Harry's shoulder.

"I don't think so but who knows" tried Harry to sound confident but wasn't feeling it.

After this little incident they all talked for a while until they all went home. Originally, the boys had planned to spend the evening together and celebrate their graduation but this wasn't happening now. They all went home separately and spent time with their families. At home, Harry blocked every try of his mother or Gemma to talk about Louis. He didn't want to talk about it again. He lost him and it was his own fault. Nothing he could do about it.

A few days later, Sean and Niall were over at his house and they were just chilling. They mostly tried to distract Niall from thinking about Maya, who was already in Manchester. When Sean got a message, Niall and Harry both turned around to him and waited for some input.

"Pictures from the trio. Here. They're down south at the moment" showed Sean them the picture on his phone. They were of Zayn, Liam and Louis. Liam was pulling a grimace at Zayn and Louis being cute in the middle of nowhere.

"They seem to have fun" commented Niall on it.

"We should have gone with them. This would have been a blast" gushed Sean and put his phone away.

"True. An adventure before Uni starts. A great idea but I think they're good as they are. Just the three of them and nobody else" thought Niall out loud.

"You mean, without me" sighed Harry sadly.

"That's not what I meant. I think they just needed that. Just like we need the time we spend together all the time" focused Niall his attention on Harry.

"It's okay. I know Louis needs his space and wants to be as far away from be as possible. Without you guys I wouldn't even know they're making a road trip through England. Louis always wanted to do that but actually with me" mopped Harry around.

"Stop being such a depressed donkey 24/7. Head up, Hazza. The world is still spinning" lifted Niall Harry's head up.

"You didn't lose your best friend because you acted like a jerk and then even thought you have feelings for him just to realise that's not true" pushed Harry Niall's handaway.

"What do you mean? I thought you were sure you like Louis now?" frowned Sean confusedly at him.

"I thought I did but I don't. Not like this. He was right with that. I was stupid" played Harry with his fingers.

"What are you on about? Right with what?" blinked Niall perplexed at him.

"Yeah, you never told us what exactly happened between you two after you broke up with Jake" supported Sean Niall's question.

Harry let out a heavy sigh and then faced his two friends. "I went to Louis and wanted to tell him everything, so I did. I told him we broke up but I got no reaction. When I told him I like him he didn't believe me. Said I would only like the idea of it and had wrong expectations. I was so mad at him for not believing me".

"I mean, is that so hard to understand? You had that crush on Jake for years and he had to see every second of it and knew he would never have a chance. Then you drag him into this fake-dating shit and he goes with it because he wants the best for you. Through this you only ever paid attention to him when Jake was around, so not really actually. You kiss him just to rile Jake up and over and over again have arguments with him where you told him so many stupid and wrong things but he just took it although you really went to far. And then you topped that off by persuading him into having sex with you at a party because of Jake, although he never had sex before. A few days later you kiss him after he admitted his feelings for you to shut him up, giving him false hope, just to drop him two days later for Jake without a warning. Then you were at fault for his injury one day before the last game and didn't even care and told him to leave you alone. And then you suddenly pop up at his house and tell him you like him. A bit hard to believe, don't you think?" listed Sean everything that happened between them and Harry felt smaller and guiltier by the second.

"I know I'm horrible. Hearing all this together makes me wanna throw up and just hide for ... Wait a second ... did you just say Louis had never had sex before we ... you know?" realised Harry shell-shocked.

"Yeah, I did. You didn't know that?" looked Sean surprised at him.

"No, I only asked him because I thought he already ..." trailed Harry off.

"And because you were drunk and he was there and we all know that's a fact. But it doesn't matter anymore" added Niall matter-of-factly.

"So, he never ...?" stared Harry at Sean, who only shook his head. "But Zayn ...".

"Is just a friend" completed Sean Harry's sentence. "They never did anything".

"But how do you even know that? You're not friends" knitted Harry his eyebrows together in confusion.

"By now, we are but I didn't need to be his friend to know that. It's pretty damn obvious" chuckled Sean while Niall just stared at him as well.

"Not for me" noted Niall and Harry at the same time.

"Who do you think he had sex with? He is not one to have one-night-stands but he didn't have a boyfriend since ... yeah, never really actually because he has always been into you. We would have known about it as much as you all talk about it" looked Sean pointedly at them.

"But Sam ...".

"Was his first kiss and nothing more" stated Sean surely.

"I ... Oh God" paled Harry on the spot.

"This makes this mess ten times worse" gasped Niall in realisation.

"Fuck. I took his first time from him just because I was drunk and ignorant. God, no surprise that he hates me" cursed Harry, being mad at himself.

"Don't beat yourself up over this now. Better tell us what else Louis said when you were with him. You said something about liking the idea and expectations" tried Sean to drop this horrible topic, but Harry couldn't get this night out of his head now. Now everything made sense.

"Um ..." searched Harry his head for every piece of memory. "Louis and Jake both said expectations ruin the feelings and Louis said I would only like the idea of having a boyfriend and that Jake didn't come close to my imaginary picture of it. That's why I dumped him and decided to like Louis instead. In Louis' eyes. Because he comes closer to my expectations than Jake and he might be right with that. For years I had this picture in my head how it would be and how Jake would treat me but none of this happened. I was disappointed but it wasn't Jake's fault. I was too far gone in my dreams to see the real world and Louis understood that. I only tried to like him to make him feel better and get myself a boyfriend, who cares in the right way about me. I can see this now and I need to figure myself out. Find myself and find out what I want and what it feels like to actually like someone for who they are".

"So, you don't like Louis in a romantic way?" checked Niall to make sure he understood everything right.

"Exactly. I don't. I just miss my best friend and that's why I need to give him space, no matter how hard this is for me. It's only fair to him" confirmed Harry surely.

"I know you can fix this and become friends again someday. Uni brings all of us a new beginning" patted Niall Harry's shoulder.

"Yeah" trailed Harry off as his phone beeped.

"Uh, a booty call?" cooed Niall idiotically.

"Who knows?" looked Harry at the message, making Sean and Niall gasp at him.

From Jake:

"You're still coming over later?".

To Jake:

"Yeah, on my way in an hour".

"Harry Edward Styles, do you wanna tell us something?" tried Niall to sound like a mad parent.

"Maybe I'm meeting up with Jake every now and then" admitted Harry sheepishly.

"You're back together then?" hooked Sean curiously.

"No, just having some fun before Uni starts" cleared Harry up unbothered.

"Did he find your spot by now?" wiggled Niall his eyebrows at Harry dirtily.

"Once but I think it was by accident" laughed Harry carefree because it was really funny when he thought about it now and Sean and Niall joined his laughter.

"God help Jake" cackled Niall with tears in his eyes.

"God can't help him with that, Nialler" tittered Sean.

"No one can".

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High school is over but so is there friendship for now. Was Louis' snapping okay?

So, Harry doesn't like Louis like this and is hooking-up with Jake ...

And Louis was a virgin, too. Did you expect that?