[A/N: Since it's my birthday, my father's, Nathalie Chanell's, Nathan Javier's and Tito Alexis'  birthday. Here's my update. Well, can we get a greeting from you?"

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Nathalie Chanell's Point Of View

I was murmuring here beside the ice cream parlor because I walked away from that slut Kian and his fucking  girl, flirting.

That bisugo. She's not pretty, hell! I'm more sexier than her. She looks like a shrimp. Katawan lang ang maganda, mangitim-ngitim pa ang kaniyang letcheng gilagid! Tsk!

I looked at them but I become more livid when I saw them enjoying the conversation. May pahaplos pang nalalaman ang babaeng makati at ngiting-ngiti naman itong babaerong bwisit na lalaki

Fuck you, Kian. Acting like you already forgot me as your date at yang babaeng yan pa ang pinalit mo? Liliko kana nga, sa mala-demonyong mukha pa! Really?

Hindi na nakayanan pa ng mata ko ang nakikita ko dahil sa paglalandian nilang dalawa kaya agad na akong lumabas ng mall at nawalan na ng ganang mag shopping

I was about to hang my right hand in the air to catch the attention of taxi drivers who's passing by when someone grab my hand to stop me. His scent irritates me pero hindi ako lumingon sa kaniya kundi pinara pa lalo ang taxi na papalapit sa pwesto namin but he hold my hand and pulled me closed to him

Now, I was resting my head at his chest like nothing happened inside that fucking mall!!

Kung sa normal na araw lang ay baka nanghina na ako dahil sa lapit naming dalawa pero ngayon ay halos itulak ko na siya papalayo dahil may ibang pabango na akong naaamoy sa kaniya.

Fuck you, bitch!!

"Stay away from me, you idiot!" Sabay tulak ko sa kaniya at halatang-halata sa mukha nito ang gulat dahil sa ginawa ko

"What? Why?" Nagugulat talaga nitong tanong. Parang nakaukit sa kaniyang mukha ang mga salitang mas lalong nakapagpainis sa akin,

'What did I do?'

"Talk to your bullshits hand!!" Sigaw ko sa kaniya at bigla akong naglakad papalayo

"Hey, Natalya!" He shouted making me stilled.

Natalya huh? So we're back again with that name. Month of February he started calling me love but after he talked to that girl, we're back again by calling me Natalya huh?

Nag init ang ulo ko dahil sa babaeng yun kaya hindi ko na napigilang pumasok muli sa loob ng mall at nilibot ang paningin ko para hanapin siya't patikimin ng mag asawang sampal ko

Where the hell are you hipon?

Pinagtitinginan na din ako ng mga tao dahil sa bilis kong maglakad at sa lakas ng kalampag ng heels ko sa floor pero hindi ko na iyon pinagtuunan pa ng pansin

Kian's still following me from behind, trying to catch me pero mas binilisan ko pa ang lakad ko hanggang sa napansin ko ang isang babaeng naka pulang dress na hapit na hapit sa kaniyang katawan at ang nguso nitong nagmamayabang

Papasok palang ako para hilahin ang kaniyang buhok nang biglang tumunog ang alert system nila sa loob ng stall kaya natigilan ako. Maging ang iba ay ganun din. Lumapit ang guard sa babaeng kalandian ni Kian kanina at bakas na sa mukha ng babae ang takot

I stand still to watch what's happening before doing my plan pero mas naaayon yata talaga sa akin ang panahon ngayon dahil narinig ko ang matinis niyang sigaw

"What the fuck? Why would I steal that freaking necklace? What do think of me? Cheap? I can buy all of your jewelries so let go of me or else, I'll sue you all!!" Sigaw nito

What a poor woman. Mukhang hindi ko na kailangang gumanti dahil itong nangyayari palang ay okay na

"Serves you right, shop lifter!" I yelled drawing too much of attention. I smirked nuong tinignan ako ng masama nitong magnanakaw na ito pero agad ding nanlambot nung makita si Kian sa likod ko

"Sumama ka nalang sa amin Ma'am" Tugon ng guard kaya mas lalong lumawak ang ngisi ko at naglakad muli papalayo.

Pumunta ako sa ice cream parlor na pinagtambayan ko kanina at bumili ng isang malaking naka-cup dahil iyon ang gusto ko

Halos makalimutan ko na ding kasama ko si Kian dahil sa ngiting nakapaskil sa mukha ko. Mukhang nasa akin talaga ata ang pabor ngayon dahil hindi ko na kinailangan pang gumawa ng eskandalo at baka makasira pa yun sa pangalan ko dahil lang sa babaeng 'yon

"It is too sweet and it's not good for your health" Basag ni Kian sa katahimikan habang nilalantakan ko ang cookies and cream flavor na binili ko. I just ignore him! Talk to your own hand tsk!

I can still clearly remember his scent na parang nanuot na sa ilong ko dahil kahit anong gawin ko ay parang nandoon na ang amoy ng kaniyang pabango na naihalo na sa amoy nung malantod na magnanakaw na iyon

"What did that girl do to you for you to smell like her? Did she hug you?" Tanong ko at hindi naiwasan ng puso ko ang pagkirot nuon dahil biglang nagpakita sa isip ko ang posibleng senaryo at parang gusto ko tuloy ituloy ang naudlot ko kaninang plano

Bumakas ang ngiti sa mukha ni Kian pagkatanong ko niyon. What's with that face? Masaya ba siya dahil yinakap talaga siya ng babaeng iyon?

Kumuyom ang palad ko sa sobrang galit na nararamdaman ko sa loob-loob ko. Fuck! This is bad! I want to punch his face for letting that bitch to hug him

"You're so cute" He chuckled sexily.

"I'm not a dog or even a puppy so stop saying I'm cute because I'm more than that! I'm gorgeous. Hell, looking angel...b-but with a demon attitude" Pahinang-pahinang tugon ko na mas lalong ikinatawa ng katabi ko.

We're already walking at hindi ko alam kung saan kami pupunta so I just follow him at umupo kami sa mga upuang nanduon habang kumakain ng ice cream, I mean ako lang pala

"Are you jealous?" He asked playfully.

I darted a death glare for him to stop but he tease me even more

"Just admit it, you're jealous" He stated. I keep on denying it until I find it annoying and then...

"Fine! Fucking fine!! I'm jealous. You're already so lucky that I allowed you to courted me but seeing me now, jealous, was maybe a dream come true for you but why the hell you let that freaking girl to hug you? Her scent sticked on you, did she really fucking hug you and you liked—"

My heart...it's beating so darn fast like what the hell? He just hugged me but this is how my heart responds for that

"Stop it. She didn't hug me, she just continued to caress my arm and clothes—"

"And you like it that much!" Masungit kong putol sa kaniya. Yakap pa din niya ako.

"No princess, it's only you!" He said making me freaking smile and stilled for a moment

I miss him. His smile, laugh, angry face and even his bossiness. I miss all about him. Ngayong naalala ko na, parang gusto ko nalang kutusan ang sarili ko sa pag iwan ko sa kaniya nung kami'y bata pa

Well, we are just kids back then at isang mababaw na paghanga palang ang nararamdaman ko kaya agad ko ding siyang nakalimutan nuong sinubukan ko

A week from now ay debut ko na. I was kinda excited dahil engrande ito at napakaganda ng aking isusuot. Si Kian din ang magiging partner ko at hindi na talaga mapaglagyan ang excitement sa loob-loob ko

Saturday today, day 19 or September 2020. How fast the time is. It seems like we were just in grade 11 where so much happened. But now, we're already grade 12 and graduating next year, month of April.

We spent the New year together. Kian and his family flew to Los Angeles to spend Christmas with their other relatives. It was like their reunion so I did nothing but to wait. They just flew back here and celebrated the new year together with us

Hmmft, let me tell you a secret. It was just an act. Hindi ako nakalimot, wala akong kahit anong klaseng amnesia. I did it on a purpose. I did that because I need to know all the secrets between my family and Kian's. Well, it turns out like this. The confrontation was too fast pero good thing, isang bagsakang sakit lamang. I am just holding my anger back then because I don't want fights anymore. I want us to be okay even if it's too painful for me

They are the one to be blame why my twin brother died. They are the ones who messed up my mind. They hurt me. They were the reason my heart ached the day my twin left me. They are the reason why our lives are no longer that bright as before. In short, they ruined our family, our lives.

Pero lahat ng palaisipan na iyon ay nawala. Nawala sa aking puso ang paghihiganti kahit na yun pa ang gustong-gusto kong gawin. Kung ako lang? I can't just forgive them that easily. They are the reason of all these...

Ngunit isang salita niya lang. Isang alaala, panaginip, o ang mga sinabi niya nung araw na wala akong malay ay ang siyang nakapagpabago ng isip ko mula sa paghihiganti

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~FLASHBACK~

"Alam mo ba kung bakit galit na galit yang babaeng 'yan, Ellie?" Biglaang tanong sa akin ng kambal ko habang kumakain kami ng burger dito sa park

Natawa lang ako dahil ang dami-dami niyang napapansin.

"At paano mo naman masasabi ang rason aber?" Biro ko pa rin sabay tawa sa kaniya

"Dahil iba ang galit na nakikita ko at nararamdaman ko mula sa kilos, at mga mata niya"

"Paano mo naman nasabi iyan?" I asked curiously. Masyado kasi siyang seryoso so sinabayan ko nalang because I know him. Kapag seryoso siya, seryoso talaga siya.

"Pagmasdan mo siya..." He said so I did. I tried to be serious and I looked the girl intently and watched her movements. Malapit lang ito sa amin at parang kanina pa siya nakatingin banda sa gawi ng isang...parents? Pinagmamasdan niya ito sa malayo at nahuli ng paningin ko ang kamay niyang masyadong nanginginig dahil sa galit. Nakakuyom pa ito at talagang parang hindi niya kayang pigilan ang sarili o ang kaniyang damdamin dahil sa nakikita. Tumayo ito at akmang lalapit sana ngunit napigilan pa din nito ang ang sarili niya at bigla nalang tumalikod kaya nagtama ang paningin naming dalawa at kitang-kita ko sa kaniyang mga mata ang galit, pagkamuhi at kung ano-ano pa. Masyadong halo-halong emosyon ang nakikita ko sa kaniyang mata na puro lamang galit

"What do you think? Do you also think what I'm thinking?" Tanong ni Vier sa akin

"For me, I think his parents are one of the two and she caught or she really follows them to watch their movements. I think, one of them was cheating on the woman's possible parents earlier" Magulong paliwanag ko. Hindi ko alam kung naintindihan iyon ni Vier pero nang ngumiti ito ay alam kong nakuha niya ang punto ko

"That's also what I observed. And the anger you saw in her eyes earlier was revenge" Pagdidiin nito sa huling salita.

"Revenge has not been good. Never. Remember this twin sis, it is not good to instill anger to others even if they have committed a painful sin. If pride can be swallowed, why not try to contain your anger? As I said, revenge is no good. It will only lead you the wrong way so I hope you remember what I said even if years will passed by..."

~END OF FLASHBACK~

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Tumulo ang luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan dahil sa alaalang iyon kasama siya. Si Vier.

May isang kamay ang humatak sa akin papalapit sa kaniya. At parang isa 'yong hudyat upang mas lalo ko pang ilabas ang luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan

"Hey, shhhss..." Malambing na pagpapatahan sa akin ng lalaking kanina lamang ay inaaway ko

He didn't ask. He just let me here, crying like a lost child. Halos pinagtitinginan na din kami ng mga tao dahil sa pag iyak ko

He pulled me closer and hug me tight. When he loosen his embrace, he plucked me somewhere and that's when I realized that we're already here in parking

I look at him with confusion. He just smiled at me and went to the nearest...café!!!

Oh my goodness. I already imagined my chocolate mousse cake!!! Goshhh!! He really knows how to comfort me. What I really love or to lighten up my freaking mood.

Halos maglaway ako nung papasok palang kami sa loob. Ngunit nung makita ko na ang aking paborito ay kumislap pa ang aking mga mata

He laughed at my reaction and I can't help but to smile with so much of appreciation. I really love his efforts to make me feel better.

Anyone!! Meet my suitor, Kian Luis "Louie" Asuncion...

He just ordered coffee from himself and my favorite food for me. We ate silently but I felt his deep stare for me, maybe he's so curious why I acted like that immediately but he refused to asked so I cleared my throat to start a conversation

"He's one of a kind" I started. I saw him stilled for a second but readied his ears on me so I continued.

"He's so sweet, caring and very protective to me. Someone said, we're like a couple but the truth is we're twins" I paused. Trying to reminiscence those scenes in my mind and I just smiled like an idiot because I really miss that guy. That freaking so special guy in my life

"It's just funny how we teased each other, argue with him until he already pissed to the point of avoiding me..."

"A man of his words. When he says, he will do or give what I asked, he will. So when I wanted something when we were kids, he would give it to me and I was really happy. I also hugged and kissed him on his cheeks because of excitement and I know, he will not disappoint me"

"When we play, I always complain to Kuya Niel because they always tickling me and it's because of my great twin, Vier" Pagpapatuloy ko. Hindi ko na napansin pang may tumulo na palang luha. Hindi dahil sa sakit kundi dahil sa saya.

Ang ibig bang sabihin nito ay malaya na ako sa nakaraan? Na tanggap ko na, na wala siya dahil kung dati, masakit sa aking isipin siya pero ngayon ay inaalala ko na ang mga araw na kasama ko siya na may galak sa mata at puso.

"You're happy. You're already free..." Wala sa sariling usal ni Kian habang lutang pa ring nakatingin sa akin. Natawa nalang ako at marahang pinunasan ang aking luha

"Yes I am. And it's because of him. His words and advice lingered on my mind and that was my tool for being free now. I realized those words came from him and then here!...I'm already free. Free from the anger I held. Free from the past" I smiled genuinely. When we got out from that café, he held my hand until we reached his car. I'm not used to it because I don't want to ruin my bitch side but now, I just want to hold his hand until this day ends and I don't know why I am being clingy to him now.

Pinagbuksan niya ako ng pinto at umikot kapagkuwan papunta sa driver's seat. Naiinis naman ako dahil baka uuwi na kami pero halos mapangiti ako nung sinabi niyang...

"We're going somewhere. It's a bit far but still part of Laguna. You can sleep so you can rest" He said carefully while starting the engine. I just nodded and closed my eyes

I woke up when I felt my body slightly shaking. It was Kian who's trying to wake me up

"We're here" He informed. I roamed my eyes and then it widened when I saw a small lagoon and a tree house beside it. It was breathtaking. I am not fan of nature but I really appreciate this wonderful view. Especially when I saw the small falls behind the tree

I immediately ran out of the car to fully see the view. My heart jumped in excitement but it slowly faded when I realized that I don't have extra clothes and swimsuit. Even food!!! So what the hell are we doing here? Sight seeing?

Gosh!! I'm so stress again!

I turned my back at the view to yelled my companion who's now holding a one big basket with a mat on his right side. My mouth parted, can't even let a single word to say like what I planned.

"What happened to you?" He asked innocently. I blinked my eyes twice to confirm the things he's holding. He placed the mat and basket on the grass and went back to his car and I gulped when I saw him holding a paper bag with a pair of undies and some clothes. My eyes twinkled and shouted on my mind that I can swiiiiimmmmm!!

"I bought these with me incase you want to swim—"

"I would love to" I yelled and went in the tree house to change. He also shouted 'be careful' because I was climbing a wood stair with my stilettos

I changed immediately and went down to swim but I saw him instead on the grass near lagoon placing the mat and basket properly. He spread the mat in the grass and opened the basket that's full of foods oh my gosh! This is what I'm ranting about lately!

My heart really melted for this unexpected date. We're going out together for a date this whole week because we want to have a quality time to each other since we've been busy on vacation with our family and school these past few months so we're trying to make up for it

I didn't expect us to be like this after being him as my enemy. We ended up together. I mean, no! Oh my gosh! It's not what you are thinking. I'm not easy to get duh! He's still courting me and it'll be until my last breath hahaha

Just kidding.

"Hey, come here beside me" He said then patted his right side. When I'm in my bitch mode, I already yelled him for ordering me like that but since I can't understand myself now, I played nice and followed him. I sat down beside him and hell!! My fucking heart beats so freaking fast. And I'm so scared na marinig niya ito

I never told him how I feel for him because my pride leads me as a well-known maldita so until now, we still don't have a label

Seven months ago, he started to court me and he never raised his voice, get mad but, yes we also have lots of arguments but he's the one fixing it even though it's usually my fault. When my mom found out that Kian was going to date me, she was very happy and she whispered something to herself while laughing. It also looks like Kian is my Mom's son because he's so spoiled

"You're not in bitch mode huh?" He commented when I let his arms on my waist

"You should be thankful. You're just hugging a Queen. A beautiful Queen" I honestly said. He just chuckled and tighten his embraced on me. He lean his head on my shoulder and I stilled when I fully smell his scent. Wala na yung amoy nung babaeng hipokrita kaya napangiti nalang ako ng wala sa sarili

"Can we stay like this forever?" He asked out of the blue. "I mean, can we stay like this for a while?" Agad nitong bawi noong natauhan din sa kaniyang sinabi kaya tumango nalang ako. Kahit ganito ako, I still want to feel like we're already together. I still want to feel his embrace.

"Do you like me now?" I scoffed. Medyo napalayo pa ako sa kaniya nung marinig ko iyon

"What?" I asked, still shocked. He's too fucking straightforward!! Of course I like him, why the hell would I allow him to court me right? Gosh! He's stressing the hell out of me!

"I'm sorry, it's nothing—"

"Duh! Of course I like you tsk!" I said then tried to go near him and stared him for a moment

"I love you too..."

One...

Two...

Three...

I stilled. My heart beats stop for a seconds. D-Did he j-just...oh my gosh! He lo-loves me?????

"You've got to be kidding me!"

"I'm not—"

"Oh gosh Kian..." I said, can't believe on what he said but I can feel something's wierd in my stomach and my heart beats running so fast, freaking fast, times two. I'm not joking. I'm just telling the truth and I also felt my cheeks burned and I'm really clueless about it

"Do you think I'm just joking?" He said making me stop. I looked at him and I saw his expression was so serious so I couldn't help but stare into his eyes

"I may be confused by how I feel for her before but not for you" Sabi niya at makikita mo ang sinseridad sa tono ng pananalita at sa lalim ng tingin niya. This time, hindi na napigilan pa ng puso at isip ko na paniwalaan siya "I'm not numb and stupid to tell you that I don't like you because in the first place, even though I don't really like your attitude, I still learned to love it wholeheartedly"

"Right now, I don't need your confession first if you don't like me or the otherwise. I just want you to know what everything inside me that I have been harboring or hiding for a long time" He said and took my both hands and held it tightly

"Even though I'm not the perfect man for you. Even if I'm not what you are looking for, I will prove to you how I really feel. Nathalie Chanell Buenaventura, I'm so fucking in love with you and I can't keep it that long because I really want to tell all these to you" He said and I can't let a single word to say. I'm so speechless, I don't know what to say. My heart melted because of his flowery words and its sincerity

"W-Who told you that you're not perfect? Because for me, you almost reached that word in my eyes, I know I'm not really vocal about praising you but I want to let myself to voice out my thoughts for you, on how ideal you are for me. Listen to me because this gorgeous girl will say something rare about you" I smirked. I don't know why I'm doing this but I feel like I need to say these...

"You're so emotionless and it's annoying because you're already burned out but I still have no emotion to see in you" I paused when I heard him chuckled. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin kaya agad din siyang tumigil

"I don't like you at first—"

"So you're saying that you like me now huh?" I stilled.

"Oh shut up or else, I'll just go there to swim!" Turo ko sa nakakaenganyong lawa. Tumikhim muna ito bago tumahimik at sumeryoso

"I don't like you yes, even now!!" I said intentionally for him to stop smirking. I'm too embarrassed, why did I said that in the first place?

"You're so annoying and you really have the guts to burned on me, you jackass—"

"Stop cursing or else I'll kiss you." He threatened "I'm not threatening you, I'm telling the truth" He added like he read what's in my mind. Suddenly my heart beat faster because of what he said. Isn't he joking? Wait, omygosh!! Why do I sound hopeful?

"Fine but let me finish first! I'm  criticizing you for the first time but you just destroyed! Suddenly, the wind blew harder and now I just felt the cold so I crossed my arm to fought it. I'm just wearing a swimsuit and a thin fabric wrapped around my body!

"Come closer" Untag ni Kian

"What?"

"I said come closer!" Maowtoridad nitong tugon at hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko kung bakit ako sumunod! What did he do to me??

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nung nilagay niya ang suot niyang itim na jacket sa balikat ko at hinatak ako lalo papalapit sa kaniya at ang mas lalong nakapagpagtigil sa akin ay nung yinakap niya ako ng mahigpit

"Comfy huh?" He teased kaya napabalik ako bigla sa kaninang pwesto ko at doon ko na naman nakita ang blanko niyang mukha

"One more Natalya, I'll kiss that lips of yours!!" Anito kaya agad-agad akong lumapit sa kaniya. Fuck! Go back Nathalie Chanell! Be fierce, hey!!

He wrapped his hand around me, tucking a strand of my hair behind my ear. I melted when he did that to me but floods of memories with that gesture making me smile. My twin's always doing that for me. There's no bitterness anymore in my smile, I fully accepted that he's in the good hands or situation, that he's really happy up there, in the sky...

"I'm taking back what I said earlier that I don't need your confession I'll be serious, can you continue your confession about me? I'll just savor the moment"

I smiled.

"You're so annoying. Everything you do, I hate it. I'm so annoyed with you. Even if you don't do anything and this will be the first time I say this, it's like an eyesore when I saw you when you are with someone "

"But all that has changed since I got to know you so well. Ever since you courted me, that's where I met the real you. I'm still annoyed yes but it's not like before. When I see someone talking to you, flirting you, and holding you, I felt my hand forming an 'o' .

I see the real you, you are very caring and you understand even though you know I am the one who is wrong. you're not perfect? ​​That you're not an ideal man? Fuck that—"

I felt his lips on me.

I can't move.

I can't breathe.

I can't stop my heart from beating that freaking fast. Para akong hinahabol ng maraming kabayo at sa sobrang takot ko ay mas binilisan ko pa ang takbo

Binitiwan niya ang labi ko at ako namang walang ginawa ay sobrang hapong-hapo dahil sa paghabol sa akin ng mga kabayo sa puso ko!! Shit! I can't think wisely

He took my strength. He took my courage. He took my breath away. And now, as well as my heart?

"I said stop cursing! By the way, that confession is enough for me. I liked it. No, I loved it"

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END OF CHAPTER 49!