More vent art because fuck my life I'm such a terrible person

Anyway, small vent ahead, so be careful x.x

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The one main reason I dislike my friend Kobi coming over: I'm being compared to her and some stuff gets said that really bothers me. That's the reason I usually always stay in my room, I don't want to be compared, I don't want things to be said to me, and I don't want something to happen to make me feel terrible. And my dad telling me I need friends really bothers me...

I really have to shut myself out when others are staying over because of things that happen and because of what's said. I feel terrible the moment my dad comes around and says something I normally don't mind Kobi saying to me (it still sort of bothers me, but it doesn't really hurt unless it comes from my dad)

And the fact nobody comes in to check on me or even say hi bothers me as well. It just makes me feel like they don't even notice me or even care. I don't even hear them talking about me, which just adds to the feeling

I don't even feel comfortable leaving my room, it's just really awkward and I really hate myself for leaving because it just feels really awkward going out of my room when I'm staying in it like that. I mean, if it's just me and my dad I never really mind doing that, it's just really awkward with her around

And she has an adopted / foster sister (I think she's older than her, prolly not by much but maybe older. Or maybe they're the same age, idk anymore) with her too so it'll be even more awkward considering I've never met her before (I kinda talked to them when they first arrived at like noon but that's it)

Heck, I don't even feel comfortable enough leaving my room to simply go get something to eat...