It doesn't feel like it's been 3 months of marriage, Jin and Jungkook have never met like a couple, Yoongi still often meets Jin in his apartment, sometimes Jin goes to Yoongi's apartment to spend time together, of course Yoongi doesn't tell him what happened at that time with Jungkook.

"You have woke up?" Yoongi kissed Jin's cheek who was next to him, Jin was very cute when he woke up from sleep.

"What time is it?"

"8 am"

"You're not going to work? why are you still here?"

"I still want to be with you" Yoongi hugged Jin tightly as he buried his face into Jin's neck. During the time they were together, Yoongi had always said he loved Jin, but he had never once heard Jin say the same thing. Yoongi doesn't mind that, he knows where Jin's heart is when his body is with him.

Jin turned around to face Yoongi and pecked his lips.

"You have to get ready for work, you can come here anytime"

"Jin"

"Hmm"

"I love you, I know I won't hear the same thing from you, but please let me make you happy even for a moment"

"What do you mean? we will be together Yoongi, it's only a matter of time, he will sign the divorce papers and it's done, I'm yours"

"You are so beautiful Jin" Yoongi combed Jin's hair and brought it behind his ear.

"Yoongi.."

"I want you to be happy, I will do anything for it"

"You will be here with me right?"

"Do you want it?" Jin just nodded.

"Do you still love Jungkook?" Jin was silent, he didn't dare to look at Yoongi because the answer was 'yes' he still had the same feeling for his husband. There is a love that Jin keeps well in his heart, a love that has a big wound that will never heal. But the love that will always be the same as the one he always gave to Jungkook. Love is still in its place, deep in Jin's heart, he can't reach it, he can't change it, he doesn't want to do it.

"You don't have to answer it if it's difficult"

"Yoongi, I want to be with you, I want to reciprocate your feelings for me, I know it hurts you, I'm selfish if I continue to be like this to you, please make me yours Yoongi" Yoongi pressed his forehead to Jin's as he cupped Jin's cheek and stroked it.

"You don't need to return my feelings Jin, you will always be mine, whenever you need me, I will always be by your side, I have to get ready for the office before your husband gets angry because he saw his personal assistant hasn't come yet" Yoongi pulled his head and kissed Jin's lips warmly, but before Jin replied he broke the kiss and got out of bed

After showering, Yoongi came out and saw that breakfast was already on the dining table with Jin waiting for him there.

"Breakfast before you go" Yoongi sat across from Jin and enjoyed breakfast together. After eating Yoongi looked at his watch, he would be really late if he didn't leave now. He got up from his seat but Jin came straight to him, he tugged at Yoongi's collar and looked at him.

"Are you coming here again?"

"I will come here again after work"

"I will miss you"

"We spend a lot of time with, Jin"

"Yeah I know" Jin pouted and lowered his head, but Yoongi lifted his chin and kissed Jin. The warm kiss that Jin always likes and only he gets from Yoongi.

"I'll be late if I keep kissing you, I'll come here again, wait for me okay?"

"Be careful" Yoongi smiled at Jin before he actually walked out of Jin's apartment.

That day Jin also decided to go to the office, it had been a long time he only worked from home and Jimin must have had a hard time because he had to replace him every time there was a meeting.

Every day Yoongi always calls Jin, just to ask how he's doing, has he eaten, what he's doing, a lot of little things that make Jin feel 'exist'. He tries to build his feelings for Yoongi, the kisses and hugs that Yoongi gives him have always been the most comfortable and safest place for him, but he still hasn't found a reason to love him other than he wants to forget Jungkook.

When he reached the office, Jimin ran to him and hugged him tightly, of course his best friend missed him so much. It's been almost a month he hasn't seen him and he doesn't know where Jin is. They only keep in touch making phone calls and it's not enough for Jimin.

"How dare you leave me here with a pile of files"

"I'm sorry Jimin, I'm here now"

"I really miss you"

"Me too"

"How are you and.. your husband?"

"I'm fine, I don't know how it's going"

"You never contacted him?"

"For what? I have no reason to contact him."

"He's your husband"

"I already filed for divorce from him"

"What?"

"He hasn't signed it yet but I'm sure soon he will and we're done"

"But why?"

"It's a very long story, I also don't want to talk about it now, I've been with someone else, he makes me much more alive"

"Wait, what do you mean you're having an affair?" Jin was silent, he didn't think that the word would beat his feelings. The word 'affair' that Jimin said was very painful for him. Did he really do that? is he having an affair?

"Jin.."

"Huh? ahh I'm sorry, but can you leave me alone?"

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine"

"Call me if you need anything okay?"

"Thank you Jimin" Jimin hugged his best friend before leaving his room.

Jin just kept his head down on the table, tears welling up in his eyes. He doesn't know why, but his heart hurts a lot, he just wants all this to end, he wants to live his life happily with someone who loves him. If so, what's the difference between him and Jungkook? they just hurt each other.

An hour before lunch, Yoongi calls Jin, the usual thing Yoongi does to show his concern for Jin.

"Hello"

"Hey Yoongi"

"What are you doing now?"

"Ahh yeah I forgot to tell you, I'm at the office today"

"Are you in the office? are you okay? why do you sound like that?"

"Yeah, I'm fine, I miss you Yoongi, I want it all to end"

"Jin, it will be over soon, trust me"

"What if he doesn't sign it? what if he is happy to see me like this?"

"Hey baby, don't cry, it'll be over soon"

"I want to see you"

"I'll come later tonight, okay?"

"Okay"

Yoongi hung up the phone and when he turned around he was surprised that Jungkook was there watching him.

"How long have you been there?"

"I heard everything"

"Then?"

"Is he all right?"

"Yeah, he's fine, he just misses me" Yoongi can see Jungkook's face is getting paler day by day, he's also not like usual. He doesn't talk much and just daydreams a lot.

"It's good that he's okay" Before Jungkook left Yoongi stopped his steps.

"Wait.. Jungkook"

"Hmm"

"Do you really love him?"

"What are you asking that for? You can be together if you want."

"Stop with your bullshit Jungkook"

"I'm telling the truth"

"Then let him go, divorce him"

"I can't"

"Then what do you want?"

"I don't know" Jungkook turned around to get ready to leave but Yoongi stopped him.

"Stop being a coward Jungkook, if you love him fight for him, he only wants you to fight for him, he never loved me, until now only you are in his heart, I know that. Stop saying things that hurt yourself, if you love him, don't let others take him away from you, including me, you have to keep him with you, make him happy with your own hands, don't let him think letting go of you is his best choice. Treating him like this won't change situation Jungkook, he will distance himself from you, what if he completely forgets you? what if the love is really missing from his heart? what if he starts to love me? is that what you want?"

"I don't know what to do Yoongi" Jungkook cried in front of Yoongi, he's never been this weak before, Yoongi knows him well and he's not someone who cries easily.

"Meet him, tell him how you feel"

"But he doesn't want to see me."

"He does that so you fight to be with him"

"What if he gets mad at me?"

"It has happened, but it's a risk you have to face, you love him and you made mistakes before, it's natural for him to be angry, what do you expect from him after what you did to him? will he greet you with a smile on his face? but if you are too scared to face reality you better back off, because i feel how to be you, you should be very lucky to be loved by him, if the person he chose in his heart was me, i would never let you approach him, i would never let anyone have him because he is only mine, but he chose you"

The conversation was serious, Yoongi was just another person in their relationship, even though Jin greeted him warmly but Yoongi knew everything Jin did to him was not out of love, it would never happen, Jin wouldn't love him like he loves Jungkook. That's something Yoongi can't change, even if he tries to change it.