Me without depression and afterwards with Depression.

I draw this. So I didn't have time to edit but I had to put it up. I feel lonely af but I'm at a friends house and I feel ignore even though I'm hear with her and another friend... Why do I feel this way. I'm trying to avoid my problems at home but then I have to avoid at my friends home... *sigh* maybe I should not be alive then.. I need help getting rid of this depression I have before something ~Lulu- Chan..