I'm in the cafeteria sitting at a table with girls. I'm not sure what to do but I'll just keep quiet right now. My hands are absolutely freezing right now. It's autumn and it's so cold where I live.. it sucks.
I've been trying to hide all my emotions from the boys because they'll just make fun of me for crying or doing something. I'm just wanting to get through life without anything bad...
Its just the thought of queen(remember her?) saying those words that broke me just keeps eating me down to the bone. It's taking over me and I can't stop it
I can't escape this endless cycle.
I just need a friend to talk to...
Most of my friends would laugh if I showed them everything in this book... and possibly spread rumours about me.. I just need to keep this a secret from them.

"I am half hope half agony"

I just wanna leave this place behind every time I see queens face in mind...