It was Sunday and jimin didnt know what to do.
Yoongi wasn't answering the messages he sent him and he was bored.

He suddenly thought of his parents. He missed them, even though he knew they didn't love him or care about him, he still loved them unconditionally.

Before his brother's death , they were somehow nice to him, or that's what he thought. He worked hard to get good grades and satisfy them but they never cared. They'd always compare him to his brother and that made him think lowly of himself. Even though he was the perfect son it wasn't enough.

It was true that they didn't talk much because they were always busy with work but when it came to weekends, having a family dinner and chatting about how their week went was something sacred for them.

Jimin loved his older brother,Jae, so much and they were siblings goals. They were one year apart and were like best friends. Whenever one of them was sad or troubled by something, he'd cry on the other's shoulder and feel relieved after taking his pains out.

But everything turned upside down when that painful accident happened. When jae got hit by a truck and was put in a coma for a year then died.

Since that time Jimin's parents spent the whole day working as a way of escaping from reality and that's how they distanced themselves from their only son jimin and broke the family bond they used to have.
It affected jimin so badly, feeling invisible as if his life didn't matter.

Whenever he'd talk to them they'd either yell at him or ignore him. He and Jae looked alike, his mother once told him that she doesn't want to see his face because he reminds her of his brother's death.

Jimin however wasn't that sociable and as he lost his only friend he decided to shut himself in his shell. Not finding any support in his life, his anxiety level and his lack of confidence started rising.

Despite all that, jimin decided to visit his parents' house to check on them.

"No matter how bad your parents can be they are still your parents and you still need to make sure they are doing well" that's what he thought as he made his way to his old home.

When he opened the door, the smell of cigarettes suffocated him. He found his mother smoking in the kitchen , and as soon as she noticed his presence her face expressions changed and she aggressively hissed at him.

" what are you doing here?"

"I wanted to see how you and dad are doing"

" I don't need your concern"

"But mom I missed you!!" Jimin shouted as he felt his blood boiling because of his ignorant mother's attitude.

"Don't call me mom I'm not your mom I don't need a gay son"

"Just for the fact that I'm gay you disown me ?? I thought that you might've missed me but no what a fool I am for believing that! "

" look we don't need to talk any further. The only son I loved was Jae at least he was a loving straight son and now that he is gone I need no one"

" I can't believe how cold you've become, you won't even look at me in the eyes am I that worthless??"

"You're not like Jae and you being gay...That alone is a good reason"

"You and dad always tend to compare me to him i have no idea why both of you are acting this way but I am me okay ??? And Yeah??? What if I'm gay?? Let me tell you your gay son has a boyfriend now and he is so happy that he found someone he can fuck all day. Your son likes dicks and guess what?? He has fun sucking on his boyfriend's dick every night is this disgusting enough for you ?? should I continue?? You're the reason I broke down you made my life a living hell you can't even accept your damned son!!"

The woman plugged her ears harshly then yelled

"I wish I had aborted you you're so disgusting get out of my house!!"

That sentence alone dug a deep wound in jimin's heart and made him feel like the world is spinning around. He kept his calm as he clenched his fist and bit on his lower lip. He then looked at his mother right in the eyes and said quietly as he felt that the words were having a hard time coming out of his sore throat.

" You know what??I came back thinking that you'd hug me and tell me I missed you too. I came back thinking that we'd become the happy family like we used to be. I thought maybe me being away for so long made you regret everything. I thought that maybe you'd accept your son and shower him with love like every mother does. But no. You wish you had aborted me. You should've done so and saved me the pain of being compared to someone who is dead already. You know what ? I hate you. This will be the last time you ever see me again say good bye for the good for nothing homo son"

Jimin walked out of the house feeling empty, betrayed, as soon as he closed the door he ran back to his appartement vision blurry from the tears that were filling his eyes.
His knees felt weak as he entered his room. He clenched his fists on the sheets of his bed and cried his eyes out until his mind went blank. Someone in his head was telling him he was worthless, someone was telling him that he'd rather be dead, that he deserved suffering this way.
His heart was throbbing and it made him in pain. He stared at the razor on his nightstand. He reached for it and started cutting once again, he forgot about yoongi , he forgot about everything , he just thought that the pain he was feeling in his heart would fade if he kept on cutting deeper. He thought he was going insane, he couldn't think straight and felt like fainting.

He suddenly heard his phone ringing,

it was from yoongi.

"Jiminnieee! !"

He came to his senses as he heard the angelic voice he loved so much but it was too late