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sooooo....I was minding my own business and then I got a text from him and I opened it and he wanted to know what I would do if someone asked me for nudes. so I said "well I would ignore it and block them". and then I asked why he wanted to know and he said "no reason" so I suspected he was gonna ask me for them. Then the next day I was hanging out with my friend and he texted me again and asked if we could swap pictures (nudes) and of course I gave him a piece of my mind and then he said he really liked me more than my friend and that he wants to ask me out but I told him we can't happen..😔 because of my best friend and that he needs to get his feelings straight. And so now i'm really sad and depressed because this guys makes me have butterflies in my stomach it's like such a good feeling and he always makes me smile and laugh hard. But I felt like I was being used you know? And then he texted me today and asked if we could hang out and keep in mind we don't talk about the last conversation we had and of course I said yes I mean he is still my best friend. So then after that he texted me and said "I ended things with Emmy (his gf) and I felt happy but sad because she is my friend and then he said that she never loves him and they were dating a long time. That part made me kinda sad cause I wanted him to say he broke up with her because of me but that only happens in movies and books. Yesterday something happens between him and my friend and she was saying about how much she likes him and how he makes her world brighter. He kinda likes her too and when he told me that..It hurt it hurt so much why do I always have complicated relationships why can't a guys just like me. I wish I never kissed him because if I didn't I wouldn't get butterflies in my stomach and always feel nauseous around him. And now he wants to know if we are hanging out at his place or mine. My parents would never let me hang out with a guy alone. I cant lie to them they already trust me so much and I cant do that. I just don't know what to do anymore I feel like he is playing with me and thinks my feelings are a game. I guess I should be glad that I got over the other guy i've liked since 1st grade but I need some help😭