I was the toy I was right. I said no to date him and he ran to my friend they are official now....why is it always like this why am I always second choice all my friends are dating and i'm alone why did he choose her. I literally said no to us dating and he went straight to her i'm always last always he used me why am I crying over a guy like him. Why do I always mess things up. I'm so stupid...I'm so dumb for kissing him and liking him it was never me. I'm probably going to be alone forever. I just want someone good in my life a guy who does romantic things. I feel so crappy and stupid that I actually thought he liked me. I feel so alone right now with everything going on I don't want to talk to anyone about anything no one will understand. Now I have to watch the guy I like date my best friend and J have to be ok with it. It was going to be my original plan but it hurts so much. He only liked me for my appearance never for my personality I should of known he never wanted to get to know me he just wanted to kiss and stuff. I'm pissed and jealous he gives her gifts call her beautiful every morning he never did that to me. I'm always a side piece people think they can use me for their own benefit i'm tired of it. I'm trying to be a good friend it hurts she does not know that I like him and she tells me all the cute things.