"Bondita, I'll meet you in the bedroom," he told her softly, as soon as they entered the haveli. "I just have to finish off some work in the study. It won't take long."

They were holding hands, but Bondita wasn't meeting his gaze. Anirudh noticed that she had been silent for the entire car ride, and he knew why too.

However, he planned to fill her night with so much love that she forgot about everything.

Bondita just nodded, and slowly let go of his hand, still not meeting his gaze.

After she went upstairs, Bondita went to the bathroom to shower and freshen up.

Their bathroom had both a bathtub and a rather big shower stall now. She often dreamed of making love to her Pati Babu in both.

Right now though, her mind was numb and her fantasies weren't surfacing.

As the warm water drenched her naked body, she just recalled his words from earlier and squeezed her eyes shut.

She had full faith in her Pati Babu and loved him from the depths of her heart. She knew that he would also love their children so much in the future.

However, she was also aware of a truth -- a deep truth that there was nobody more important in this world for him than her. It didn't matter who it was. Even if he himself was harmful for her, he would eliminate himself for her life, for her health, for their dreams.

So when he darkly said he would take care of it if she by chance got pregnant before she became a barrister, her heart just shuddered with fear. How else was she supposed to interpret that? 

When Anirudh finished his work, he bolted to the bedroom excitedly. 

When he got inside, he saw that Bondita had already changed into her night saree, and was getting in bed. After locking the door, he approached her in bed and sighed. 

He had to do something about this night saree -- not just today, but permanently. He couldn't have his Bondita sleep in something so uncomfortable. 

Bondita laid down on her pillow and pulled the covers up over her body, not looking at him. 

Anirudh removed all of his clothes, and then got under the covers with her after he was completely naked. 

Her back was turned to him, and he just reached to her stomach and slid his hand underneath her saree, caressing her belly slightly. 

Bondita didn't react. 

His fingers lingered over the material of her saree that was tucked inside the petticoat, and he pressed himself against the back of her, lifting his head slightly so that he could plant soft kisses on her earlobe. 

"Bondita," he said into her ear, his voice thick with desire. "You've covered yourself up in clothes and the blanket, but even if I can't see you, I still need you." 

She could feel his erection throbbing against her back, and Bondita just squeezed her eyes shut. The moment that her heart started to hammer with excitement, the darkness of his words from earlier loomed in her memory again, causing her whole system to shut down once more. 

Anirudh began to pull her saree off her body, planting feathery kisses on her ear. 

"From today, no more sarees to bed," he commanded into her ear. "It's too uncomfortable for you."

Finally, Bondita spoke up. 

"It's okay Pati Babu, it's comfortable." 

He pulled the saree off her body and he untied the petticoat string, running his fingers across her hip where the sunken line from the tightness of the petticoat had formed. 

"This isn't comfortable," he murmured, "Just because you're used to it, doesn't mean that it's okay. I can't let even a little bit of discomfort come in your way Bondita." 

Bondita squeezed her eyes shut again. 

Normally, this would have made her heart flutter with happiness. Of course, she was happy that her Pati Babu cared about her and loved her this much. However, this was a small thing -- if he couldn't even bear a slight discomfort from her night saree, how could he even bear any other kind of pain in her life? 

Anirudh held on to her arm and pulled her back, so that she was lying flat on the bed, and before she knew it, he had pressed his lips on hers, kissing her passionately. His fingers approached her blouse and started to unhook the pins from the front one by one. 

Bondita tried to forget everything and enjoy the kisses -- this was what she had been looking forward to. She had been so excited for this! Yet, she was scared. She was so scared from his words earlier. 

He would take care of it. He would make it right again. 

What exactly did that mean? 

As he kissed her, Anirudh noticed that something was off. She wasn't responding to his kisses with the same enthusiasm. 

He gently pulled back and placed his hand on her bare chest, over her heart. He noticed that it was beating fast, but not out of excitement today. 

"Bondita..." he said softly, shocked. "What happened?"

Was she still upset because of what he said about their future children? 

That had been hours ago! 

"Nothing," she mumbled, afraid that if she mentioned it, he could say those scary things again. 

Anirudh brought his hand to her cheek and caressed it softly. He leaned towards her and placed a gentle, loving kiss on her mouth. 

His kiss was so warm, that she immediately relaxed. 

"I love you very much," he murmured against her mouth, "Very, very much." 

She nodded, her lips slightly moving away from his and she whispered back, "I know." 

He laid down on the bed beside her, and brought her body to his, snuggling with her lovingly. Her petticoat had fallen down to her thighs, and her blouse was still hanging on her arms, but unhooked. 

Even though there were these barriers between them, Anirudh's first priority was to make sure she was happy. 

Bondita's face was pressed against the crook of his neck, inhaling his homely scent. 

One of his arms were wrapped around her back, his other hand, caressing her cheek and hair lovingly. 

"You're upset because of what I said earlier?" he asked. 

She avoided answering. 

"Bondita, do you think that I don't want to have children with you?" he asked her. 

She didn't say anything again. 

Anirudh sighed and he said, "Trust me Bondita, I do." 

She was too afraid, that he would add a but in there. And she was right. 

"When the right time comes, I want to have children with you. But it's too soon to even think about that. That's why I keep reacting that way Bondita," he told her softly. 

Bondita's lips grazed his neck slightly, as she moved her face back slightly to look up at him. Her eyes were wet with tears now. 

"Pati Babu, I trust you with all my heart," she told him, her voice cracking. "If you ask me to jump off a cliff, I will do that without any questions. If you ask me to do anything, I will do it." 

Anirudh looked at her with surprise. 

"Just like you said I'm number one in your life, you are also number one in my life," she told him, tears falling down her cheeks. "You're everything for me. Even if we have children, the place you have in my life, can't be diminished." 

His heart felt warm upon hearing this. 

"I will love you so much, no matter what happens. I will listen to you, no matter what. If you want anything from me -- whether it's my body, my life, or anything that I own, it's all yours," she told him, and she took his hand, placing it on her breast lovingly. "I'm yours Pati Babu, and so is everything I have." 

He gently caressed her breast, as he looked into her eyes lovingly. 

"Even if you... want to fix... or make something right again... if I were to by chance..." she gulped, fearfully, "Get... pregnant early... then I will be sad, and scared, but... I still trust you whole-heartedly... I still will listen... to you... whatever decision you make... I will... listen..." 

Anirudh looked at her with shock now, and he stopped massaging her breast. 

"Bondita," he said, his voice hurting with pain. "What are you saying?" 

Tears flowed down her cheeks, and she hoarsely said, "Earlier what you said in the hospital room..." 

It had broken her. 

She knew that nothing happened. She knew that she wasn't pregnant. However, the possibility of it happening before she became a barrister, had been such a normal thought for her. 

For her Pati Babu, it was like a sin though. 

Now, she wished with all her heart that she didn't by any chance become pregnant before she became a barrister. She couldn't have her Pati Babu live in guilt or pain, and she couldn't have her kids be the source of her Pati Babu's depression. 

She knew just how much their dreams meant to him, and even if she was certain that they would get fulfilled no matter what, her Pati Babu was very protective, very particular with her. 

So now she prayed that a pregnancy never happened. Not until she had that degree in her hands, at the very minimum. 

She was already on her pills, so it wasn't like it would happen anyways! She just always believed that if Durga Maa wanted, then nothing could stop it from happening. 

"Bondita, did I scare you?" he asked her softly. 

She looked into his eyes tearfully and she nodded slowly, causing his heart to ache. 

He scared his Bondita. 

"I'm sorry Bondita," he apologized and reached to wipe her tears away. 

He still didn't take back what he said, and this was scaring her even more. She didn't even expect him to take it back. She knew, that he had been completely serious. She knew that their dreams were greater to him than anything else. Her life, her health was greater to him than anything else. 

"Pati Babu..." she whispered sadly, "We don't have to think about it. I'm on c - contraceptive pills. Nothing will happen until I become a barrister. And now I won't even dream about it. Shotti." 

He nodded and he said, "That's the best for now. All of your focus should go towards studying hard and becoming a barrister. After that, we will dream together about our kids." 

She just looked into his eyes, more tears flowing down her cheeks. 

Anirudh smiled and he asked, "Will you smile for me now?"

She forced a smile and he knew it didn't quite reach her eyes, but his heart was moved because she was trying so hard for him. 

"I love you," he told her again, softly. 

"I love you too," she responded. 

"Are you still scared of me?" he asked, caressing her cheek.

She averted her gaze. 

"Bondita, you're scared of me? I should be scared of you, my chhoti Durga Maa." 

She looked up at him. 

He smiled and he said, "Do you know how crazy you always make me? At any time, you make my head spin in circles -- I never know what you'll do next. Whether that's in front of the family on the dining table, at school with your principal, or privately to me. You've become very unpredictable missy." 

Bondita couldn't help it -- a small smile formed on her lips. 

His voice fell to a whisper and he said, "You seduce me without even knowing it sometimes." 

"Really?" she gasped. 

He leaned towards her and whispered, bringing his hand down to the curve of her waist, "This part, that is exposed through your sarees. All day I stare at it. I want to grab it while I make love to you. I fantasize Bondita." 

Her eyes widened. 

"Shotti?" she gasped as she learned of another one of his fantasies. 

"Shotti," he told her and gripped it hard, "Just like this." 

A blush appeared on her cheeks and he murmured, "So you tell me, who should be scared of who?"

Bondita smiled and she admitted, "I also check you out all day." 

Now it was Anirudh's turn to blush, as she brought her hands to his chest and felt the muscles there. 

"Pati Babu, the hollow part of your neck, the muscles on your arms and chest," she murmured, moving her hand down his abdomen. 

She blushed hard as she said, "Your... penis." 

Anirudh smiled and he asked, "Oh yeah? You check that out too?" 

He reached for the petticoat that was down to her thighs and started to pull it off. 

"That is all that's on my mind these days," she told him breathlessly, "I only wonder about when we can have sex again." 

Anirudh gave her a flirtatious look and she bit down on her lip nervously. 

"You're sex obsessed," he told her with a chuckle, as she got herself out of the blouse that was hanging off her shoulders. 

She pouted and she said, "It's not my fault! You starved me from it for so long, so of course I am hungry for it!" 

"I starved you?" he asked, raising his eyebrows. 

"Yes! Because you refused to hurt me, I had to wait so long!" she said with a pout, as he reached between her legs to grab her panties.

He was surprised to see that she wasn't wearing any, and he had just grabbed her wet folds. 

"Naughty," he told her, his heart hammering. "You didn't bother to wear panties." 

She blushed and she said, "I knew you were going to come and... fuck me. So I wanted to make your job easier." 

"Oh yeah?" he asked, raising his eyebrows. "I thought you were suddenly so scared of me." 

She blushed and she said, "I am still scared of you!" 

"Still?" he asked, surprised.

"Ohho Pati Babu!" she told him with a slight giggle, "Pretend, a little bit!" 

He raised his eyebrows, and he said, "Don't tell me you have another --" 

"Fantasy, yes!" she squealed with excitement. 

He smiled and he asked, "What is it now?" 

"Fucking my Rakshas Babu!" she told him, her eyes widening with excitement. 

"What?" he gasped, completely surprised. 

Was she serious? 

"I still have many Babus left to fuck, and Rakshas Babu is one of them!" she told him. 

"Bondita..." Anirudh now said, his face red. 

She looked at him, a smile on her lips now, as her voice took a serious turn.

"And Pati Babu, yes I was really scared of you, but that doesn't mean that I'll ever desire you any less," she told him seriously, and reached to caress his cheek, "Even if I'm very, very scared, I still love you so much."  

He told her firmly, "Well you don't have to be scared of me." 

She pouted and she asked, "What if I get bad grades?" 

His eyes darkened and she just giggled, enjoying pushing his buttons again. 

"Then you have to be very scared," he warned. 

A smile on her lips, she asked, "Then will I get to fuck my Rakshas Babu?" 

He looked at her with awe and then said, his voice getting husky and hot, "I don't know about Rakshas Babu, but your Pati Babu needs you right now." 

She looked at him with excitement as he came closer to her, about to give her yet another pleasurable night. 

He looked in her eyes for a moment, with pure love, and she knew from the unsaid words, that whatever fears she had could be dispelled. 

That was the power of love, that no matter what obstacles came between them, they would always be able to solve it together. 

FEAR -- False Evidence Appearing Real. 

This was what fear was. 

It was something that stemmed from the unknown. Overcoming fear wasn't about suddenly knowing every fact and figure, but rather about understanding that things were not what they seemed. 

Fear would make the world clouded, it would take away clarity. Only in certain situations, fear was used by the brain, for protection. 

Like many things, at the smallest and right quantities, having fear was like a sweet nectar, but over-drinking this nectar would be poisonous. 

The most important thing was not to stop fear, but be able to rise above it, and see everything with utmost clarity. 

Fear was something that would draw distance between two individuals, but love was what would always mend them and bring them together. 

For Anirudh and Bondita, their love was the most powerful of all. 

So how long could fear last between them? 

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