Erm hi,
Urgh I literally don't know how to start this but I'll try to write it.

I want to say thank you for putting up with me who's really retarded I am very retarded.

I want to say sorry that I'm so emotional because i recently lost my Nan and I got given a bracelet and earrings to remember her by

I'm sorry , I'm trying to feel better but I have a lot going through my head at the moment I'm full with all emotions

Anyone, please don't be mad or sad at me I'm really depressed still I want it all to go away but it won't. I struggle to tell people because of my anxiety. I'm sorry I love you so much.

I'm trying to do stuff for it to go away but it won't

It won't leave me alone and go away I want it too, it just hurts too much. I'm surprised that I haven't been abandoned yet, I wouldn't be surprised if I was because how retarded I am.

I don't deserve anyone. Everyone hates me because of my depression, mental health issues, anxiety and everything else. I'm surprised that my family hasn't abandoned me I won't be surprised if they did abandon me.

I'm just the worse person ever

I don't belong here I don't deserve to be alive I deserve to go to hell. I'm sorry.

Why do people help me?
Because I feel bad that I'm wasting their time telling them my problems.

I feel bad about telling my problems to anyone because I feel like I waste anyone's time.

I would go to therapy but no one will take me or let me go

How can I go to therapy when no one will take me and refuse me to go