I haven't let many things destroy me
In my life
And yet I am afraid
I'm one more disaster away
From being gone for good

And I don't want people to ask
What they could have done
Or to question how I was built
Or taken care of

I just want them to remember
How I stood tall
When faced with
Relentless storms
And agitated seas

And how I rebuilt myself
After stronger winds
And violent chaos

But I know
All they'll see
When they think of me
Was how I crumbled
When you came for me

It's the blue oceans
The storm clouds spinning
Their depth
So infinite
Their mercy
So relentless

And I ask myself
How one pair of eyes
Could do so much damage

We were on a boat somewhere
I don't remember where
Or why we were there

I saw the giant wave
Coming towards us
Wanting to take us under it's wing

I remember thinking
I've done this before
about a hundred times

But I still didn't know what to do
When I stared death in the face

And that is my worst nightmare
And that is my biggest fear

Have you ever been swallowed by sadness
And wondered if misery is insatiable

You started to pull
I ignored you
You slowly started to build
You stood like a wall

And when you couldn't take anymore
You washed away all that I loved
And that I had worked for

But I don't blame you
Because I watched you grow
Like countless times before
And I pretended this time
That things would be different

People like to put hurricanes into categories
It allows them to play in the rain
And believe that they're safe

I think I did that with you
I put you into a category
And convinced myself
I wasn't afraid

But I was too generous
And you were too greedy

But you gave me a fair warning
And I called it love

You asked me
"What about us?"
And for a moment
I saw it

I saw dancing
I heard laughter
I smelled your scent
I felt your skin under my fingertips
I tasted freedom

I saw it all
In a moment
Like a flash of lightening
And then back to the storm

Spinning out of control
Tearing walls down
Uprooting growth

And it all started
With one
Passing dark cloud

I can't control
My thoughts
They're just too loud

Tell a girl to cease her rain
When she's a storm
And she'll turn into a hurricane
And make you hear her roar

This too shall pass
But what do I do
When it does
What if I got used to gloom

What if I resent the sun
And miss solitude
What if I'm someone
Who pain got used to

Whenever the wind shook the house
And the thunder got too loud

I would take a deep breath
And run to my mothers room

I'd crawl into her bed
And she'd pretend not to notice

I returned to my dreams
In almost an instance

And I miss feeling like
Safety was just a few steps away