I've been on life's shoe
Just like you
I've hidden in the shadows
Believing it would make me safe
Sometimes I even reduce myself
To your size
I don't deserve it
You don't either
Sorry

Do you ever get that feeling?
That something is crawling on your skin
You swat yourself
Scratch until you bleed
Convince yourself you're not crazy

Do you ever get that feeling?
That someone is under your skin
You beat yourself up
Beg until you're tired
Convince yourself you're not crazy

You're light
You're warm
I know what happens when I get too close
But I know what happens when I miss you
It's dark
It's cold
It's no way to live
Call it boundary issues

I know what you see
When you look at me
It's what I want you to see

I know what I see
When I look at me
It's what you want me to see

A monster,
Unloveable,
Unworthy

What harm could I possibly do to you?
I'm living in your world

I've been gone for a while
They've started to feast on my flesh
Why not take what's left of me?
They've already taken too much of me
To ever be the same

I long for the day there is nothing
But bones
When they're starving
And realize they needed me all along.

I ran
It felt like miles
Their buzzing in my ears
Their chaos surrounding me
It felt real
And familiar
In a way I couldn't explain

I woke up next to you
But nothing seemed to change.

I've chewed through a lot of walls
To get to where I am
I paid my dues
Stayed out of sight

And when my time comes
And I bring your world down
I won't regret a fucking thing

You thought you saw me the other day
I always seem to catch you off guard
Maybe it's your head playing tricks
You wonder if you'll see me again

And you don't know
What would make you feel better
To know I'm really there
Or to never see my face again

We got to stop running into each other
Like this

When I was little
The boy next door
Showed me how to light a bug on fire
With a magnifying glass
And the sun

And I learned
That if a boy
Ever gives you attention
He's probably just bored
And wants to set something on fire

When I was a little girl
I saw a bug on the bathroom mirror
It was big
And ugly

So I screamed
Loud
Very loud

And my mother rushed in
And I'll always remember what she said
When she saw the bug

"Don't scream like that"
She said
"You scared me"

I remember that
When I want to scream
And I fear someone will hear

Because there are some people
That make even your fears
About them

So I don't scream