In here...in this here time.

Here and now, in this New Year's child that is about to arrive,

I wish to give birth to a new self right along with it.

I want to win this silent battle.

I want to see that day;

when the battle of verbal swords that have pierced my skin are placed on my the ground (including mine).

No more "I was hurt by you, once again. Same old, same old."

No more "Wow...did I just say that?" mind slicing.

In here...in this here time.

Here and now, in this moment,

I wish to only take solace in only God understanding me, sometimes.

When nobody else nods in comprehension or belief,

I do not want to lay restless in frustration...just because nobody understands.

I want to clean up the debris left behind by hardship's bombs and stand taller when life gets hard.

I want to lay down my infuriated retaliation gun that I've used in response to life.

No more shooting bullets in the air, just because life has drenched me in the water of hard times.

No more allowing life to anger me so much so that cause an emotional imbalance to myself.

I will water my garden.

I will grow.

I will be guarded in safety.

I want to win this silent battle.
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Hello, loves! It's been a minute. The holidays kept me busy...plus I was experiencing sone writer's block. I hope you all have a fantastic new year filled with prosperity, peace and happiness. Thank you for taking the time to read my work. ❤️☮️🙏🏽✨