Trying to...smile through.

I'm not worried, yet there's no elation.

My heart feels nothing for anything,

but my mind is rushing with

thoughts and voices.

I didn't think it would be that bad,

but I almost forgot about the hole that

I fell in only a short time ago

(headfirst.)

My best wasn't exactly the best,

so I'll drive my mind even harder.

I must do whatever I have to

in order to avoid the failure

that I fell into...

headfirst.

My head was only clear

when it never really mattered.

Now, the hourglass is running fast,

yet my head is a foggy swamp of sorrow

and ignorance.

I'm close to diving into the swamp's

filthy shame

(headfirst,)

just so I can escape the intimidating life

that is chasing me.