My Dearest Life,

What has happened to my mental state?
Lately, I've been having sone of the craziest thoughts that should never cross anyone's mind. Sometimes, I feel like my mind is completely frazzled; fried up and ready to be served on the platter of bewilderment. I just don't know, anymore. Why am I so paranoid at night? Fearing every noise outside my door isn't normal, is it? My mood can easily plummet into a hole so easily, going from the sparkly rainbows in the sky, to a cold, dark state of being shivering my spine.

My personality is bruised.
Why is the fear of not being loved for different reasons erupts so strongly in me?
I wish the feeling of worry ceased to exist.
An answer will be right in front of me. I'll stare straight into it and still overlook it. How?
I don't understand. I think that I honestly have a mental problem. If I do, I need you to tell me.
I know that I've written an overwhelming amount of questions, but I was hoping you could answer them. Please write back as soon as possible with the answers that I need.

Sincerely, X