Sometimes I wanna set me free , I need to urge this feelings that I can't repress anymore . Anything . Anytime . I need this . Someone told me that life isn't about living like non sense but with a true meaning underlying . I don't know why I make me suffering more and more . I don't know why sorrow , pain surround me always . I don't have no more energy to not give up . I can't help breaking down ... I have to admit that I allow myself some time off but it seems it wasn't enough to make me surface . To come back to life . This state of mind is so unusual . I don't reconize myself no more . I don't know this girl , that is crying all the time , who is blackened by the drops of her tears . She has collapsed so far .