Monsters sleep inside my head

you know the ones

the ones we thought

lived underneath our beds

turns out they've been here

this whole time

hiding in the back of our tortured minds

slowly causing self hate and despair

with every thought that they come near

so I had a plan

to write a letter

explaining all my pain

but I have 2 last thoughts

I must express

in this godforsaken thing

one I want to say I'm sorry

I never meant to pass the pain

I tried to be strong

to smile and laugh

like I was the same

the same girl who loved to smile

but was never strong enough to keep

all the broken parts of her 

together

my only question is

did I do well enough?

on this last thing

before I took away

all my pain