I'm so tired

of faking

of trying

of lying

I'm so tired of the sunlight streaming

through my window

and that my eyes open every time

I'm so tired of hearing screams

In the middle of the night

only to realize it's me

I'm so tired of having hope

because I try not to believe

because hope is for suckers

and people will only let you down

but still I do, every time

so tired of having to say I'm fine

because I'm not really fine

but I can't let anyone else know that

I'm so tired of being me

never good enough

and so many scars to prove it

I'm so tired of people

all the chattering, the gossip

I just want to be alone with the breeze

I'm so tired of breathing

It's such a mindlessly hard thing to do

every breath hurts knowing

I'll never be what you want me to be

streaming