I can't breathe

there's not enough air

all I feel is hate and pain

it consumes me everywhere

my body aches

and my heart breaks

with every word I hear

the ones I whisper to myself

when I think no one is around to hear

I feel sick

the bile stings my throat

as I think of every time I've been left alone

been forgotten or left behind

because I'm not important enough

for them to stay behind

as I think of mistakes

that never leave my mind

every time I'm a disappointment

which is every single day

how I'm never good enough

despite giving my everything

faking my smiles

just to get me through the day

then crying myself to sleep

because I hate everything

I ever am

finally I close my eyes

and hope not to wake up