"D-did " I gulp what the flip would cause me to do such a thing ? It's like i completely missed everything

"I-i..What if........" I look down not wanting to see his face. He probably thinks I'm a slut. My eyes begin to water like crazy

"M-Michael. ..What if i get p-pregnant"  i choke on 'pregnant' i can't believe i could be. I can't believe i had sex with him.

"Get a boyfriend have sex with him make him think it's his "

I look at him like he's crazy "W-what ?... " i sniffle Trying my best to calm down.

But it's so hard to be calm when he basically told me if he impregnated me he's not gonna take care of it.

"Did i stutter? "

"Michael. ..you can't be serious? " I say hopefully

"I got to go but ...you do that if you think you are "

He walks away and goes home.

I sit there in the corner balling my eyes out

He went to far ? I need answers how did we have sex ? I can't remember anything!!!!!!!!! Urgh questions keep piercing my brain

The next morning

I set in that corner all day it's time for school I'm an hour late. Michael's gone I go for my dresser and put my clothes on. The teachers are gonna wonder what's up i never been late before. I wasn't going to go today.But I'm not for sure i was pregnant. ..it was my first time... And i don't have a very fertile family. I put some old torn up jeans on and a sweatshirt.

Once i arrive at school all eyes are on me. I hear some giggles I'm so tired of them. I wish them all death, I'm tired of everyone and everything.

"And you're late because of what "

My teacher Mrs.Dutton asks

"Because i had a rough week I'm here now and I'm the best and smartest student and your class so teach and be glad I'm here ! Your job is not to worry about me being late Your supposed to teach and for those who don't come who gives a shit about those stupid fucks !"

I hear some oo's I hear everyone's head snap and look at the teacher. I don't know what came over me. I'm just so tired of being hurt ! I hate my life and it's all because of this school!.

"Miss Walter's to the office please, You might aswell get your stuff you definitely getting suspended for that !"

She yells "whatever bitch" i mutter and walk out of class.

As I'm walking down to the office i see Michael in the hallway. He walks up to me gives me a look "I heard you, My whole class did why did you yell at Mrs. Dutton like that ?" He questions on the verge of laughing

"Leave me the fuck alone bitch " i say walking away into the office. 

I can't believe i just did that, My funeral is definitely coming soon...

I remember how he became my bully...

Flashback

"Nae why are you crying? !?" I ask my Younger cousin
"This guy has been messing with me for the whole time ive been at your house ! He broke my bike !!" She whines

"Where is he? I'll get him to stop. "

She points to this guy on the other side of the park he's with three other people.

I nod as i walk to him and his friends or whoever,

"Excuse me " i get their attention.

"Wassup? " he questions

"My cousin told me back there that you guys where messing with her, that you broke her bike. ..I'll Ask you once Leave her alone...And i expect her bike fixed before 6 " i say confident
In myself

He chuckles and begins to walk closer to me."and..."

My flashback was cut off by the principle calling me,
I walk to his office and take a seat. After our talk i find out that I'll be suspended for three days.

I sigh hardly Grab my stuff and walk home. I go Into my closet and hide What did i fucking do to deserve this ! I cannot take anymore

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! !" I scream to the top of My lungs and punch a hole in the wall.

I then start ripping clothes of the rack throwing them in different directions I leave my closet and Pull things off of my desk my laptop Lamp everything Breaking them.

I Throw Everything off of my Bed. I don't stop until everything is all over the floor And break down and start crying again.

I don't deserve This !!! I want to Diee !!

I scream again and go into the kitchen grabbing the sharpest knife i can find and cut myself multiple times.

Ding

My doorbell rings... Should i answer it ? It's probably someone asking about the noise....

Slowly i walk to the door and look through the hole and see Katherine. ..Michaels Mom ?!?!

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Sorry it's so rough Don't worry this book has a lot of twist and turns but it will be sweet at the end I promise (;