As I'm finishing getting ready I receive A text from Ryan,

'you're going to be upset with me'

I reread the text over and over again, Is he cancelling? ... I mean that's fine he could be busy but still,  was really looking forward to tonight.

'Are you cancelling?' I reply and begin to bite my fingernails nervously. I pace back and forth waiting for his reply but there isn't one, and he never comes to get me.

*****

I look in the mirror one last time before walking to school I ended up texting Ryan five times last night, each had no reply.  Maybe what he meant by last nights text was that.. he was breaking up with me. I In hale, I don't want to think about that, about losing him, he made my life a better place, What if he leaves does that mean people will go right back to the way they where before?. I wipe my eye to remove a shedding tear. I used to be so strong, What happened to me?.

I walk to my first hour class although we have 10 minutes till the bell rings, I'm the only one in class even the teacher is out chatting . I look at my phone a check to make sure he hasn't texted me. he hasn't, I don't know why I even bothered, matter of factly I don't know why I dated him at all! c'mon really? why would a guy like Ryan really want me ? I was probably just some joke to him. I lay my head down on the desk, I don't want to cry, come on ocean you're stronger than this. you never needed a guy in your life before you don't need one now, but in the back of my head... I feel like maybe I do.

***

third hour the class I have with both Ryan and Michael. as I'm walking to class I see Ryann he spots me and I look down. then I hear yelling, my eyes snap back up and I see Ryan pushing Michael and Michael pushing him back I tone out what they're saying but pretty soon Ryan is on top of Michael punching him in the face, Michael punches him back then head-butts him he spins him around and now he's on top he punches Ryan a few times then gets up and kicks him. I push past a few of the students that are laughing and recording and push Michael away.

dammit I pushed Michael.... And damn did it feel good I offered Ryan a hand and he stood up he felt his bloody busted lip and gave Michael the death glare. Michael stood there breathing heavily his hair that was at first in a ponytail now down in a curly mess. "why are you guys fighting you guys are supposed to be friends! " I scream the principle comes running out and grabs Michael "yeah why don't you tell her Michael!" Ryan yells Michael just struggles to get away from the principles grip most likely to hit Ryan,

I stood there in shock watching Michael be dragged away, I don't understand. ryan made it seem like this fight had something to do with me 'yeah why don't you tell her Michael' he said.. "ryan wha-" before I could finish my sentence a calm teacher tells ryan to follow him

uhm ill probably be finishing later today or maybe tomorrow? sorry for the errors ill probably go back and edit everything on the 18th anyways love ya xD