I don't know what love means anymore.

I loved myself, but in reality, I don't think i know what it means to love someone or something.

I hurt the only person i could say i loved but in reality, I don't know anymore. I am so confused about my feelings and all i know is that I'm here on this word being another piece of uselessness.

Anywho, the dictionary describes love as:

1.an intense feeling of deep affection.

2. a great interest and pleasure in something

Which in fact, i feel none of these for myself.

I was also thinking, does anybody even know what love means anymore.

Due to modernization and advancements, the definition of words are constantly changing.

I feel as though the word "Love" or "I Love You" has begun to lose it's strength.

People are easily saying it too much and now, it's not really used for any of the meanings above.

There are now I Love You's in friendships, family, or some that are just meaningless.

I however, don't easily say it. I feel like i should save those words for people I know will stay in my life or have actually brought meaning to it.

I don't know if you guys have noticed, but in my last chapter i didn't say i love you mainly because I currently don't believe in it.

In the past, i meant my i love you. I meant it in the sense that i was so greatful that people actually read what i wrote. It brought pleasure and happiness to me to know that people care enough to read this stuff that is mainly brain vomit.

In reality, i am still greatful for those who took the time to read these two updates. I just won't say those words for now.

That's it for now. I am feeling tired after an emotional day. I'll be heading into dreamland after this.

Thank y'all for reading.