Um..... hey guys.

I feel really awkward writing this since i haven't really been here in over a year...

First of all, I want to say sorry. I'm sorry to all of the friends I've made on here and to all of my followers. I left without an explaination or a goodbye and I'm truly very very sorry about that.

Last year was a big mess for me. A lot of people left my life and it took a big toll on my mental health. I was in a really bad place and I didn't want to tell anybody since I didn't want to be a burden. I mentioned a few things to you guys here in this book, that was originally suppose to be a book about late night thoughts but it ended up turning into a book about my life.

Anyways, I  left wattpad because I felt like I wasn't in the right head space to read or write. Not to mention, that it was when the whole situation about our accounts and information being sold happened. (Don't quote me on that, I don't remember what exactly happened but I know the majority of you know what I mean).

I didn't have the energy or mental capacity to deal with all of that, so I just decided to part from here for a while. That ended up turing into weeks, months, and eventually a year.

A couple of months ago, I came back because I felt like I was ready to start reading again, though I didn't read any of my books I had saved. I feel like a new person who is different from the one I was from last year. I've found new interests and different things that make me happy.

In my year's journey of change, I redecorated my room to fit my style, rather than looking the same from when I was in 6th grade. I listened to a lot of music from other artists that I heard of but didn't stan. I found friends that truly care about me and don't just use me to get good grades. People that actually have common interests with me. I finally learned to give time to myself. I let go of a few people that I still care about; however, not to the unhealthy amount that we had when we still talked. I started watching anime (baby steps people, not like 50 in a year, more like 10 lmao). And many other things that I currently can't remember.

Just looking at that list made me notice that I've grown and matured a lot. In a sense, that's a good thing because I needed that growth. Also, I'm almost 18 so... yeah.

I want to mention that I also graduated high school a few months back. I am proud to say that I was one of the top students in my class. I can finally say that all that hard work payed off.

Currently, I am in college, and it's definitely been a struggle. Most of my classes are online so I really have to manage my time, which is not going as great as I hoped. Yet I'm still doing good.

Please cheer me on! I really need the motivation!

Referring back to what I said in the beginning. Hi friends! I hope y'all are doing well. You too followers, some that I haven't met and some that I never talked to. I hope you guys found something in my book that you could connect with or that made you guys see things in a different way.

Just to let you guys know, I don't think I'm fully coming back here yet. I still don't feel ready and I don't know when I will. But for now, I'll continue to be a silent reader and observer. I also felt like you guys deserved an explaination for my absence since I kind of just disappeared.

Please be kind to me! >_< I really am sorry about that.

I hope you guys got a bit of closure from why I was gone for so long, as well as relief that I'm still alive.

As always, thank you for reading my book ❤

I appreciate you all for taking the time to read it and for caring enough to wait for me.

For now, I'm going to go to sleep and I'll read your comments tomorrow, if there are any...

Have a good day/night!

❤ Love y'all ❤

Bonus:

I would just like to mention how proud I am of these boys. They gave a great speech and I'm glad to be stanning such influential people.