Talon and Taylor picked me up from school that day because Tiffany said someone else was picking her up, which hasn't happen since her boyfriend Ian.

Ian and Tiffany aren't dating anymore so I was wondering what was up with that. I knew I would get it out of her. One way or another, even if that means hurting her. Not like when those girls spread rumours but I mean like physically, like putting her into a headlock and choking her until she tells me. I'm not into that girl crap mumbo jumbo. I was in their old pickup truck, sandwiched between my older brothers.

"Okay, what's up with you. You haven't spoken in two minutes, that's got to be a record, right Talon?" Taylor asked.

"Yeah, I think she might be dead, you should tickle her just in case", Talon replied mischievously.

My eyes snapped open and I bolted upright. I hated being tickled. Only my brothers knew that, well with the exception of Tiffany and Keith. "Okay, okay".

They both smirked, those boys are going to be the death of me. Since I'm the only girl in the family now- no. I can't think about that now right now or ever. My mom was gone. I won't admit it but these boys helped me through so much. They never really mourned properly because they were always there comforting me, I took the news way worse than the boys.

Talon snapped his fingers in front of my face because Taylor was driving and he couldn't take his hands off the wheel. I snapped out of my daze and smiled weakly. "Have you met our neighbours?" I said, trying to get them to avoid it.

"Hey, hey, hey don't you dare try to change the subject Becky-boo", he said, using my childhood nickname they gave me.

I groaned. I would have to tell them about how I was thinking about the big three, my worries about Tiffany and mom. Leaving Mom for last, just in case they would believe that's it, but I knew they wouldn't. A girl can hope though.

I sighed, running a hand through my hair. "Our neighbour is best friends with James London and Will Feign. They um were with Bobby last night and they saw me in my boy-shorts and I ran into him in the hall and ended up telling him about me fighting. Plus Tiffany didn't need a ride today and she always needs a ride unless she's with a guy and I have to make sure he's a good suited for my bestfriend", okay I'm done the easier part. I lowered my voice to a whisper and said, "And I've just been thinking about mom".

Taylor pulled over and Talon looked over to me with worried eyes. They both tackled me into a hug and I tried my hardest to keep my tears in my eyes. I knew that now I would try to speak and once I did I couldn't stop. "I.. I just can't believe she's gone and that she would leave us to face this all on our own. She left dad and, god... Was I really not worth her staying here and fighting for? Being brave for? I mean we all had to brave this world without her... We still have to".

I let a few tears escape and then rubbed at them vigorously. I felt the boys crying to. I mean she was their mother too. I finally stopped crying and only a few tears slid down my face. Talon and Taylor knew better than comforting words, they would always make me feel worse. Their presence was enough to help me through it. It always was. They were the only ones who understand.

I always felt bad about them consoling me and me never consoling them, but they were my big brothers and I was their baby sister. Taylor finally pulled out and we headed to our four bedroom house. I sounds big. It's not, the rooms are tiny and Talon and Taylor have to share because they have the biggest room. Talon got out of the pickup truck. It wasn't that I couldn't drive but we only had three vehicles. I share one with Bobby and it's very annoying because I couldn't drive home alone today because he had baseball practice. It's not that I can't play baseball it's that I hate it, even though I'm good at it.

Before I knew what was happening Taylor had me in his arms and was carrying me to the house. He knew that I might break down again and I probably would. It's been happening more and more since the year is almost up. I could never even predict when it happens. He took me to my bedroom and avoided dad while Talon distracted dad. They knew that I hated when dad got involved. I didn't want him to worry about more than he had to.

I looked at the clock. Oh crap. I had to get to work in an hour. I quickly hoped into the shower. I came out feeling refreshed. I looked at the clock and I'd been in there for fifteen minutes. I grabbed a pale blue v-neck t-shirt and black high waisted shorts. I put on my black converse and put my hair into a fishnet on my left side.

Grabbing the boys pickup truck keys I sprinted out of the house and yelled at them saying that Bobby wasn't back and I needed to go to the library. Yeah, I work at the library. I got in the old pickup. I liked it even better than me and Bobby's old convertible. Well in the winter, fall and spring time. And look it's spring.

Pulling the pickup into the library parking lot I took the keys out of the ignition and slipped out of the truck. I walked into the library and I saw the librarian standing there. She looked up at me and offered me a warm smile while I slipped on my name tag. "Hi Blayne. How's the grand kids", I said warmly.

"Their great", she said while smiling, "But we can chit-chat later. We have some high school delinquents coming in for the rest of the school year to do their work after school. You will help them and if they have any questions, you answer them, okay?"

"Yes ma'am", I said and saluted her while walking to the teen fiction section, that had seating and the computer lab. I saw some people from my school who I would too classify as delinquents. That's when I saw Will. Oh crap. This is not good, not good at all. I saw he was sitting next to James. Oh shit. Then Chase walked in and sat next to them. HOLY FUCK.

I swallowed my nerves and walked to the room. I saw Chase looking at me very amused. That made me even more pissed off. "My names Becca", I said in a confident tone, "If you have any questions you can ask me. If you need any help, ask me. Other than that, keep the talking to a minimal and if you trash the place you will pay for every single book you destroyed and any property damages".

I looked directly at Will and Chase with daggers in my eyes. Then I turned on my heel and went down one of the isles in the teen section. I grabbed a book that looked interesting. It was titled, 'if i stay'. I heard it's really good so I went back to the seating area and sat down on a comfy bean bag chair before starting to read.

That's when I heard a loud bang and I saw a bookshelf had fallen over and the the one and only Chase Mathews. I got up from my bean bag and marched over I grabbed Chase by his collar and pushed him against the wall. "What the hell were you thinking? Did you not hear exactly what I said? Oh wait, no you didn't. Your Chase freaking Mathews and you don't give a flying f*ck now do you? Well your going to pick up that book shelf and put everything in order and I'm going to make sure it's in the right spot and that nothing's damaged. Understood?" I exclaimed and he looked terrified. He got up and picked up the bookshelf.

Will snickered and I shot him a glare that said 'do you want to be next?'. I looked over to see Chase picking up books and putting them in the wrong spot. I sighed and makes my way over to him, dumping the books out of the bookcase once again. I took less than ten minutes to out everything in their proper place. It looked like their was no damaged books and the bookcase was still intact.

I sat down on the beanbag chair again. I could not lose this job. All my brothers had jobs as well. We needed the money to keep up the household. I couldn't lose my job. We needed all the money we could get. I ran my hands through my hair while I read. A few people came up to me asking questions and I answered and showed them the ropes, it had been an hour now. Someone tapped on my shoulder. I looked over and saw that it was James.

"Yes?" I asked, irritated because it was a good part of the book.

"Can you help me with this question?" James asked, looking slightly embarrassed.

I looked at his page and saw it was math. I sighed, I hated math. I understood it but I still hated it. "Okay. So X3 + 2 - 7 =H", I said and continued to explain to him how to get the answer. Once I was done I was about to go to my bean bag when Chase tapped on my shoulder.

"Yes?" I asked again.

"I um", Chase started looking nervous, "I'm sorry about the bookshelf thing".

"What Blayne doesn't know can't hurt her", I said biting my lip.

"Blayne?" He asked and screwed his nose up.

"The librarian", I said with a smirk.

He chuckled, "I didn't know you were on a first name basis with her".

"Yeah, she is my boss", I answered, "Oh and please don't tell her about this. I don't want to get fired, I really need this job".

"Don't worry, beautiful", he said and I blushed, "Why do you even work at the library?"

If only he knew.

****

I finished up at the library at 6 o'clock and I went into the pickup. Started the engine and it gave way to a low grumble. I turned down my street and pulled into my driveway. Bobby's car was here so I could finally go out. I sighed, I finally got the car but I was too exhausted to go anywhere. I texted Tiffany because I really needed a friend right now. Not my brothers, no matter how much I loved them I needed to talk to a girl once in a while.

Beccab*/?!; Tiff come over tonight?

Tiffbiff; I can't, sorry :/

Beecab*/?!; ugh. Fine, see you tomorrow. Love ya. And we need to talk about that boy whether you like it or not.

Tiffbiff; who said anything about a boy?

Beccab*/?!; hahaha. Your talking you lil bitch. See you tommorow. I'll pick you up.

Tiffbiff; I can't get anything past you can I? Okay see you tommorow.

I turned my phone off and checked the time. That's when I saw the date. No, no, no. It's April 6th. No it can't be, I guess I was too busy to realize. I sat in my chair and started crying. Sobbing so loud but I locked the door and turned up music so my family couldn't hear.

"Becca?" I heard a low voice ask.

"Go away, Chase", I said between sobs.

I heard a thud on my balcony and I soon saw feet making their way to my side. He pried my hands away from my face and saw my mascara was everywhere. He looked shocked. Yeah, I'm not just some emotionless bitch and I cry too.

He sat beside me as tears continued to cascade down my face. He wrapped an arm around me and that's all it took for me to bury my face into his chest and sob. I felt weak. I always felt like this this time of year. He looked at me as I stopped crying after five minutes of it. I felt so weak and I needed to quit it.

I smiled weakly. "Thanks", I said raspy.

He looked very worried. "Okay what the hell was that?" He whispered.

"Tommorow", I whispered.

"What's tomorrow?"

A few tears rolled down my cheek.

"April seventh is tommorow. April seventh is the day that my mother died".

AUTHORS NOTE

THE NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE SAD BUT THE BOOK PICKS UP AFTER THAT. I ALSO WANTED FOR YOU TO KNOW HER BACKSTORY FIRST SO YES ITS A LITTLE FAST TO REVEAL HER SECRET BUT IF YOU DONT LIKE IT THEN SORRY.