Wrote this as an birthday present to myself, sense I really wanted to see someone do this prompt. A warning for panic attack

Moniwa sighed. He had been working on his homework for awhile but he couldn't focus. His mind kept wandering to what had happened yesterday. He and his boyfriend had a pretty bad fight and they weren't on speaking terms. He thought the the other just needed time to cool off but a day had passed and still nothing. He sighed once again running a hand through his own hair.

He decided to send another text, his fourth one so far today, eighth sense the incident. It started an hour after the fight.

You: When you want to talk things out I will listen.

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He sent a few more during the day. He just wanted to talk.

You: Where are you? it's lunch.

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You: Will you be at practice?

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You: Do you need help with the homework?

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He gave up trying that day. He's well aware his boyfriend has anger issues so he can stay mad for a while. The next day he tries again.

You: Morning!

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You: You're still mad?

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You: Look I just want to fix this but I can't if you don't do anything.

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You: Can we just talk already?

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As much as it hurts, he knows it's partly his fault.

"You shouldn't fight with him." It was the first thing Moniwa had said to his boyfriend. He had gotten there only to find both said boyfriend fighting with Futakuchi. Aone broke things up before it got worse and they second years went thier separate ways. The 2 third years had met up with Sasaya along the way.

"He started it."

"He's doing it to antagonize you. You shouldn't fall for it."

"So what I just let him?"

"Yes. You're older and should be more responsible."

"I think you're picking favorites."

"No that's not it at all."

"You're implying it." The trio had been walking side by side, but Kamsaki and turned to face Moniwa.

"And how am I?" Nether one is backing down. Someone should stop this before things get worse. No one else is getting involved so that leaves poor Sasaya.

"Maybe you two should calm down" Sasaya is just looking between them, obviously uncomfortable. He doesn't want to take sides so his best option is to defuse the situation. Sadly for him it doesn't they continue to argue, until Kamasaki gets fed up.

"Oh fuck this." He turns around and leaves. He's clearly done

"Damn it come back here!" Moniwa makes a move to chase after him but is stopped by a grip on his shoulder.

"Let him go." Sasaya says, not removing his hand "Let him cool off for now." Kaname sighs, he knows he's right; it would be better off if they both calmed down. The two head to class, Moniwa sending him the first of his many texts.

It's their first big fight. They've been dating for almost 2 years, it was going to happen eventually but it still caught him off guard. Usually they would make up a few hours later. This time a day had passed and nothing had changed. It was very obvious something was up with them, Aone AND Futakuchi had asked about it. He just smiled and told them it was nothing. He didn't want them to know less they blame themselves. Sasaya too, even though he knew Moniwa was lying, but he had nothing to say nor involved him.

He sighs. Maybe he's overthinking. Everything will be fine by tomorrow.

Everything is not fine. The next day no change. He decides to call this time, only for him to decline the call. It's the first time he's done that without explaining. Kaname can't help but freak out. 'Breath. You're overthinking. Maybe he's busy. Send another text'

You: Are you ready to talk yet?

The read receipt comes seconds later. When the icon shows the other is typing but then disappears, showing he deleted it, Kaname wants to cry. He's made all the effort to try and fix this but nothings changed. This is his first relationship, he's had crushes but nothing serious. After pinning for a good six months of pinning he finally confessed Was he going to lose this one?

He hadn't noticed he was breathing heavier until his hands started to shake. 'Shit-' Panic attacks had been something that has been something that has tormented him in life but it had been a a while sense he was on the verge of one and even longer sense when he actually had one. He's shaking, trying to calm and regulate his breathing but he can't. He doesn't want to be alone but only 3 people know about them. His parents are busy so that leaves one person.

He knows there's a good chance he won't answer but he's not thinking clearly right now. He's proven right as he doesn't answer. He tries again, same result.

He's defiantly crying now. 'Please...pick up...' he tries one more time.

Kamasaki's phone goes off. He knows who it is and he doesn't want to talk to them. He picks it up anyway and yep, it's his boyfriend. He doesn't respond.

It's not that he's still mad, it's more or less he's unsure what to do. Moniwa wasn't a confrontational person, it was one of the few things he first noticed about the other. He didn't really start fights nor knew how to deal with them. That was on fortunate because they had gotten a pair of 2nd years, one who has no respect for his upperclassman and one who took his role as a middle blocker a bit too seriously. It led to more than a few issues, and he's man enough to admit he wasn't much help in that department considering he was the upperclassman Futakuchi had fought with. They

Okay he was jealous. Moniwa, even if he did think he was a pain, did think that Futakuchi was a good choice and did complement his skills. He probably shouldn't, Moniwa had been him for nearly 2 years and Futakuchi was very head over heels for Aone considering the wistful stare he gave the other when he wasn't looking, but he couldn't help it.

Maybe he let his jealously get the better of him when Kaname had taken the others side and maybe he had let his temper get the best out him but he was human. It was only during class when it finally sunk it. The other probably didn't mean anything by it and he kinda felt like shit. He couldn't face the other and still couldn't 2 days later. He wants to apologize but he can't bring himself too. This was his longest relationship. He didn't want to have his temper the reason they break up, which has happened before.

He thinks twice after another text is sent he starts typing but deletes it anything. He can't think of anything good to say. Then the phone rings and he almost drops it in surprise. Same person. He panics, ironically enough the other usually made the first move, it's no surprise he's the one calling but he's not sure what to do.

He's not sure what do right now and lets it ring out. Another call and he lets it ring out again. Maybe he's being a coward but what else

It's the third call that worries him. Moniwa can be very persistent when he wants to be, which isn't good for him. Sasaya says he's whipped, and he's not wrong.

Not that he'll ever admit it.

Back to the matter at hand, he knows if he doesn't pick up, the other will most likely keep calling. He's got no choice and picks up. "Hello...." He half-expects the other to go off on him. He doesn't expect to hear heaving breaths on the other line.

He defiantly didn't expect to hear his name in a sob "Y-Yasushi"

"Kaname?" he sits up from where he was laying on his bed. He

"P-please.." another shaky breath "H-help..."

"Kaname? Kaname! Shit!" The line went dead.

He's known about his boyfriend's anxiety, they've been friends sense first years and he had told him about about a month after they started dating. He also admitted how he has panic attacks. They were rare however and it never had during the span they were dating.

Until now. And he was the cause. He didn't even need to think about it, he was already out the door.

He did his own fair share of research after Moniwa had told him about the attacks. The way the smaller boy had talked about them made them seem horrifying, so he wanted to prepared.

Eventually he had arrived at the Moniwa residence. He fished the spare key that was stashed into a potted plant, another thing he told him when they started dating, before heading inside. It's quiet, which scares him "...Moniwa? Where are you?" he says before facepalming. He knows it's pretty unlikely he'll respond. His first smart thought is too check his room, it's the most likely place. He walks upstairs, quiet enough to not startle him and loud enough to announce his presence. The door to Kaname's room is closed. He knocks on it "Kaname, I'm coming in okay?" no response but he expects that. He slowly opens the door.

Moniwa's curled up onto himself, hugging his knees. Tears are running down his cheeks. The sight breaks heart and he quickly runs over to the him.

He makes a move to touch him before stoping and moving his arms back to his sides. 'Make sure he's okay with it' he remembers from one of the articles.

"Is it okay if I touch you" a nod. He pulls the other into his lap, securing an arm around his back and another in his hair "Take deep breaths. Follow my breathing okay?" another nod. He's shaking something fierce. Yasushi rubs slow circles onto his back, a grounding gesture.

"Y-Yasushi..." a heaving breath "I-I'm s-"

"Shh..." he presses a kiss on the side on the others head "Just breath"

Eventually Kaname's breathing is somewhat evened out and there's the only occasional tremor running through him. He slumps against Yasushi, emotionally drained. His cheek is pressed against the others shoulder. It's quiet, save for his somewhat shaky breathing.

"....I'm sorry." Kamasaki finally says, breaking the silence. "I shouldn't have blown up at you."

"I'm sorry too. I should've been more understanding." He takes another breath before continuing "It felt like I was the only one making a effort to try and fix things, then I wondered how it would affect our relationship. I...was overthinking. As usual" he lets out a quiet laugh

"I was too. My temper's ruined things before and I didn't want to ruin this. I didn't really know what to or could face you.

"Maybe next time we should talk it out huh?"

It's his turn to laugh "Yeah." It gets quiet again before Moniwa speaks again, voice small and meek "Can...can you stay for a while? I don't wanna be alone right now."

"I was going to anyway. I don't wanna leave ether." He pressed a kiss to the other's forehead.

A shakey laugh "Thank you."

"Do you want to move to your bed?" The other shook his head.

"Just hold me."

"You don't need to ask"

It's unknown how long they stayed there, content in each other's company. After all the misunderstandings, they deserve it.

They would be okay.

And so would Sasaya, when he saw the two walk hand in hand he breathed a sigh of relief "Oh thank god."

I still don't know how to write panic attacks well (only my second time), so I'm not sure how good it is. Also what do you guys want me to write more, the ships and their third wheels or the fainting prompt I made. I wanna write some teammates based interactions with ships.