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1 week later...

"What? He just go without saying anything?" Sabi ko kay kian at umiling s'ya. "He told me that his wife is pregnant. So he needs to be with her for a while."

"A-Alej is married??"

"Yeah? Didn't know?"

"With who?"

"I don't know. Nobody knows." Kian shrugs his shoulders at me at humarap ako sa may dagat.

"Oo nga pala... Pre?"

"Hmm..." I hummed and closed my eyes as the breeze from the sea touches my skin. "My fiancé would be staying at my rest house fo a while... As I check on you..."

"You can just go have fun with your love, man. Don't worry about me. Just go." I said and faced him.

"Nah. She also wants to see the beauty here so it's alright. I'll be going at the airport, wanna come?"

"Pass."

"Fine. Don't kill yourself okay?"

Napa asik ako. "Yah whatever. Go." I shooed him away so he walked away now. Bumalik ako sa pagharap sa dagat at napatulala muli.

Ano na kaya ginagawa ng asawa ko?

I sighed and walk back in our house. Sumilip naman muna ako sa labas kung nakaalis na si Kian at nang di ko na s'ya matanaw ay kaagad akong tumakbo papunta sa may kwarto at binuksan ang basement secret door sa may tabi ng kama. Kinandado ko ang pinto at saka tumigil muna doon sa silid.

Tinitigan ko ang bawat pader na nakapalibot sakin, napa upo nalang ako sa harap nito at hinawakan ang aking dibdib. "Why did I have to be obsessed with you?" I said and lie down the floor.

Nang mawala s'ya, wala na kong ganang mabuhay pa at wala na din akong alam kung anong pwedeng gawin... Ayoko namang bumalik sa dating pagka demonyo ko... She already cut those horns off and I don't want her to be mad at me for being that old scary chase she knew...

I had a dream of her yesterday...like fvck... She felt so real... Every touch that I gave her... It's like I'm literally touching her... Sa sobrang obsess ko na yata sa asawa ko pati sa panaginip ko feeling ko nangyayari ang nga iyon...

God... I still miss her scent... Yesterday was also... amazing... Like damn... I made love with her that felts so real... "Damn love... Don't walk naked on my dreams again... I'll fvck you hard if you did it again." I said and just stare at her on the portrait that I made, hanging on the walls.

I made a basement... Full of memories... With her... I don't want to forget. Kahit na masakit, sabi nila it's easy to forget or let go so you won't feel any pain again. But this is different... If I let go... I might be in deeply pain so no. I'll keep her in my heart forever no matter what at kahit ilang taon pa ng lunipas.

I won't look for other women to make me happy again... To prevent that... I rather stay here forever with my love.

"I love you forever okay? Just stay there and wait for me, love..." I said to her and kissed the portrait...

Kian's POV

Was it right to leave him there alone??

S-Should I go back?! Damn. He's killing me. O-Or he's already killing himself?! Fvck! Go back! B-But my fiancé was been waiting for me at the airport for an hour!!!

Damn. Sorry cousin, I'll deal with your man later. I also have to get my girl!

Nang makarating na ko sa airport, I thought she'll ignore me for being late, yet she gave me that beautiful smile and ran at me as she gave me a kiss.

I kissed her back and hugged her tight. "God I missed you." I whispered as we both pull away from each other.

"How are you hun?"

"Well to be honest with you before I leave the house, I was kinda nervous. I mean... I don't know what would chase—

"Oh yeah! I forgot! Xey's man... And I bought the things you told me to buy for chase." She cut me off as I go get her baggage and we head back the parking lot.

"Really? Thanks hun you're the best! But swear... I am really sorry for being late and we need to go back now. I don't know what would happen if I won't be around chase." I panicked and put away all of her things and quickly leave the airport.

So yeah, traffic... Like umalis kami don tanghali na kaya gabi na dating namin papasok sa may resort... Sobrang madali na talaga ako sa pagmamaneho ma sigurado lang na walang nangyaring masama kay chase.

Chase was like a brother for me kahit na isang linggo pa lang kami nagkakasama. He also have a connection to me because of my favorite cousin and I never doubt on helping him in any circumstances now, mostly in like this situation. He needs help, kahit na hindi s'ya nag oopen up sa iba except Xey... I'll try my best to help him no matter what.

"We're here! I'll put your things in after I check on chase okay? Just get inside and NEVER mention the Xey name to chase. Just cinderella, okay hun? I'll explain everything later so yeah. I'll be going now. Love you." I said to her quickly and clearly before I ran away.

His house is not that far from us... Pero kasi pababa ung daan papunta sa bahay n'ya so yeah. It's dark so I can't see clearly. Shoot, he did not opened the lights again! Damn I'm nervous!!

I ran in front of his door and knocked loudly. "Chase?! Bro? You there?!" I yelled as I keep on catching my breath yet there was no response.

Fvck!

"Chase! If you won't answer or say anything I'll help myself in !!" I threaten and knocked loudly again.

"CHASE!!!!" I now yelled and slammed the door, still no response from him. Jesus, I'll let myself in then.

"Yo..." I was about to kick the door, I stopped when I heard him from inside. I smiled "H-Hey man... kakadating lang namin... A-Are you alright? Are you fine in there?" I asked at dahan dahan akong huminga ng malalim.

He just hummed so I slowly kneel in front of the door. "Great... W-Why's dark in there man? And ya hungry? We bought foods." I said at nilapat ko ang aking tenga sa may pinto para marinig ang isasagot nito.

Hindi s'ya agad sumagot at may kakaiba akong naririnig mula sa loob... before I could hear more of those weird sounds that I am hearing, I heard a sob that made me punched the door and twist the knob from the inside.

I let myself in and quickly switched on the lights. Bumungad naman si Chase na nakaupo sa tabi ng pinto... Duguan. Motherfuck!

"MAN!" I yelled and quickly ran in the medicine cabinet to get... Anything that could stop that fvcking blood! Like jesus! I'm panicking!!

As I got a shirt from anywhere, I don't know! I really have to stop this blood! Damn! I ran at chase and quickly wrap that cloth all over his fist. "WHAT ARE YOU FVCKING DOING?!" I yelled without hesitation. I'm completely scared, nervous and mad at the same time.

"I-I'm s-sorry man..." He sobs at hinigit ko s'ya patayo at lalo akong nagulat sa nakita. "CHASE! FVCK WHAT THE HECK?!" I yelled again and I sat him on the sofa. Fvck is he doing?! Why his back is full of broken glasses?!

He keeps on apologizing at me but now I could manage myself to get everything from the aid kit and throw it all in front of the coffee table. But guess what, now I know how did he have that broken glasses from his back!

Napasampal na ko sa ulo ko at pinulot ang pwedeng gamitin doon sa mga natamo n'ya saka tinanggal ang damit na kulay pula na.

"Come on man!" I groaned and just grab that syringe from the case and literally stab it on his wrist. "That's it... Calm down..." I said and pat his knee. He's now breathing slowly so I started to look for his wounds.

Pagkatapos kong gamutin s'ya, he's just there staring at me with that blank expression... I can see that he's spacing out and I really did not expect that he's going to be like this... Nung mga nakaraang araw ayos naman s'ya...

Napahilamos nalang ako at pumunta sa kusina para kumuha ng tubig. I hand him the water but he did not make any move. Fvck, Kian calm your shit. I know I'm a short tempered person but you have to endure it! Be considerate!!

I sit down in front of him and place the glass next to the sofa. I just look at him for a while and as I look at him... Damn, I'm also hurting to see him like this... He looks like a mess... A big mess right now... And as he stayed silent makes it even worst.

"B-Bro... You can talk to me." I break the silence but he only glanced at me. "Come on man... You can't be like this... We can fix th—

"Then can you bring back my wife's life?" He cut me off and lean towards me. "B-Bro... Th—

"Then it'll be hard for me to accept it."

"Come on... We're still here for you... Don't kill yourself... It won't be worth it.." I pat his shoulders and now I think I made it even worst... He's now sobbing.

Yet, I feel relieved coz he's starting to open up, I'm proud of this man... He's very strong on opening up than staying silent and let all his thoughts kill him...

"W-Who said I want to die, man... I-I just want to stop hurting... I really don't want to die... Thoughts... I just want to end that... How can I end that depressive thoughts without dying?" He paused as he let it out, I pat his shoulders and sighs.

"Man my head's fvcked up... I-I really can't stop thinking about her... I just miss her... so fvcking much..." He lean on the seat and I just don't know how to comfort him right now. Like, should I hug him? But I'm afraid coz of his wounds. I might make it even worse.

"I feel like I'm really dead inside... I can't feel anything except sadness and bullshits in my head... Like I keep on regretting... Everything! Everything that I have done wrong in life... Na para bang s'ya ang nagbayad sa lahat ng nagawa kong mali...  " He paused and tried to breathe slowly.

"I-I want to curse at God but damn I can't... I can't be angry at someone who made us, one... Even for the shortest time... S-She also introduce me how great is God for everything... She made me believe to him despite having a dirty soul... She helped me clean up to him so we could start over... I-I just can't..." He shooks his head no and clenched his hair.

"And you know what's more shitty from these past days? I keep on holding back my emotions coz I want to endure it but shutting the fvck up... man.... It doesn't help at all..." He even managed to chuckle and wipe his tears away.

Hinayaan ko lang s'ya mag labas ng mga nararamdaman n'ya, baka kasi kahit don man lang ma ffeel ko na natulungan ko na s'ya. Pero mas madami yata yung kwento n'ya na tungkol sa pagsasama nila that makes me happy about them. Mostly for him. Finally... Someone could love my favorite cousin despite of her secrets or lies that she's been hiding for a lot of years...

Yet... It's really sad... That they'll end up like this... I'm wishing for the best for chase... Still... I can't speak about Xey's personality... A promise is a promise...

Matapos ang pag uusap namin... Naka tulog na si chase sa may salas at maya maya din ay nakita kong pumasok si Audrey dala ang pagkaing nabili namin kanina.

Shit. I forgot... I bit my lower lip and walk towards her on the front door. "Hey hun... I am really sorry... I honestly forgot to go back at you..." I said and hugged her but she pulled away and gave me a kiss.

"It's alright hun. I bought you some food to eat. You don't have to explain why you did not came back soon, I saw your office... And yeah... I watched you both..." I smiled when I saw her eyes so I caresses her cheeks.

"You cried?" I teased and she chuckled and playfully pushed me away. "It's just... It's really sad... And I'm just thankful that he have you as a friend to help him through this situation... I'm so proud and happy for you hun." She smiled at me and kissed me again so I kissed back.

Maya-maya din naman, tinulungan ako ni Audrey na mag linis ng bahay ni Chase and preventing him to wake up. Well successfully he did not woke up.

Maybe it's because of the medicine I injected to him earlier so it's good. He'll be fine.

"Hun. I swear, I know his body looks good but please don't look at it okay." I whispered when she was about to put some glass of water on the chair in front of the sofa so she chuckled.

After she place the glass down, she wrap her arms around me and kisses me again and again so I laughed. Haharutin ko pa sana nang may umasik kaya tumingin kami sa may sofa.

"Kung mag lalandian lang kayo dito umalis na kayo ha. Nananadya ba kayo?" Yeah, he was annoyed now... I shushed Audrey when she was about to laugh so she nodded and covered her mouth.

"S-Sorry... We just got carried away... We'll be going now then... We'll be checking on you... Promise me not do hurt yourself again. Please man... And we promise to help you without any harm nor forgetting. Okay?"

He just hummed and raise his hand with the gesture of shooing us away. "Bye..." We left the house and close the door... Even tho there's a hole in it... It'll work.

Morning...

We'll I think the sun is not yet up me and audrey already cooked some breakfast so we could arrange the tables in front of Chase's house. The view there looks good than our place tbh.

"Is that all?" I asked audrey after putting all of the utensils on the table. She nodded happily. "Oh I forgot!" She flashes a grin again and hopped in front of me.

"What did you forgot hun?" I asked with a smile so she chuckled. "Good morning kiss!! Good morning sweet pea." She wraps her hands around my neck and pulled me on a kiss. Damn. My soon to be wife is really sweet. I feel like the lucky guy here. Can't wait for our day next month.

"Get a fvcking room." We both pulled away and we both chuckled as chase fixes his jacket and sit on the chair.

"Let's eat then." I said and we sit. Kita ko naman na natulala si chase sa ginawa naming breakfast.

"I-Is there something wrong? Di mo gusto? We can cook—

"No... I just remembered her..." He said and sighs, saka kumain nalang din. When the sun is up and Audrey's inside cleaning the dishes, chase and I stands in front of the ocean to relax.

"About last night. I really thank you. For saving me. I promised to my wife that I'll live for her... I know to myself I can't, but you both really cousins... You make the impossible, possible." He chuckles so I smirk.

"You're like a brother to me also. And I didn't have the chance to thank you for giving my favorite cousin... Full happiness... I mean... S-She never have fun in her life... Till she met you."

He smiled. "I just wished she could stay longer with me... Sayang nga hindi kami agad mag kaanak... I mean... I don't know kung kaya ko bang mag produce? like... We often make love ... Still... It's like not enough."

May kasama s'ya siguro if they'll have a child before Xey leave... Also... Glad that keith agreed to pretend to be Alej, baka kasi mabawasan ang lungkot ni chase. But it looks like he can't act like alej after knowing what alej's like as his best friend kaya umalis na muna s'ya.

Then it'll be up to me now...

"KIAAAANN!!!" I quickly turn around and saw a woman waving at me while running down the hill.

"Who's that? How did that bitch came here?" I cursed and I walk towards her.

"Hi brother!!!" She jumped on me and hugged me tight.

I saw chase smirks at me and crosses his arms. "What are you doing here belle?" I pulled away and audrey stands next to me.

"Came to help?"

"Can't belive you literally just called your sister a bitch." Chase winks at me so I glare at him. This man can still tease me eh.

"What do you mean help? How did you know we're here? We never told anyone where we are..."

"Track." She showed me her phone with a tracker at this location... Yah... My phone... She tracked it... This bitch. She's a little annoying nowadays... Mostly after Xey died... Like I don't know, she looks happy about it.

"So! I'll help—

"No... You can't be here! We don't need any help! Just go belle. Manage your business! Just don't interfere here."

"What?! Oh come on. You and Audrey will be getting marry next month! How could you check on him?"

"You know nothing belle! Just leave!!"

"Yeah... And I don't want to see a lot of people for now... Mostly girls... My wife might get angry if I did." Chase calmly said and stand next to me as belle glance at him.

"It's not like she's here now to be angry? She's dead—

Okay. Chase and I gasped of what Audrey did. She literally slapped her.

"I won't be sorry for slapping you, if you won't be sorry about the attitude you're dropping right now. You don't sound like you cared about your cousin. Ever since she died I smell fishy about you! You were happy to see her in the coffin!" and another slap she gave to her.

"You don't know how long we've be—

"At kung gano katagal ding nakikipag lokohan ka sa kanya! I think you're here because you liked her husband!" putol ni Audrey muli at nagulat ako... She could speak that language?

I-I mean... Wow. That's so hot. I glance at belle and she was bout' to explode in anger. Like, hands are formed into fists, gritting of teeth and pierced eyes at audrey.

"If that'll be your intention then I can't have some connections with you even tho you're my WIFE's cousin. I hate how you treated her. I'll be going now." Chase emphases and walks away.

"Belle... Leave..." I said and looked at me. "Just g—

"NO!!! I HAD THE CHANCE!!"

And now it's confirmed... Kahit na paninisi lang yon o hinala lang siguro namin sa kanya... Umamin na s'ya sa naging reaksyon n'ya... What happened to her? I mean as her brother... Yah... She's clearly the type of person na nagiging psycho kapag nagka gusto... And we didn't know she liked chase ever since... Damn...

Wait... K-Kasabwatan din ba s'ya nila owen at kevin?