I was so mad at Jimin.

I know that what he said was given and taken out of context, but it didn't change how it made me feel.

I coldnt even sleep.

I grabbed my phone and pulled up my text with Hoseok.

Me: Are you asleep?

Hobi: No.

Me: Come over?

I didn't even get a response before I could hear light tapping on the door. I got up, unlocked it and slowly Hoseok made his way into the room.

"You okay?" He asked after I shut the door and wrapped my arms around him.

I didn't answer him, just pressed my lips against his in a feverish kiss. He returned the kiss hesitantly, but I could already feel his arousal beneath his shorts.

It had been quite a while since we were able to be physical. With Jimin being home all the time, and how busy we were with the tour, it was just not possible.

But its absolutely what I needed.

I heard him lock the deadbolt on the bedroom door and I pulled him toward the bed. Reaching into his shorts I grabbed im, firmly stroking him as I went.

He grunted and pulled away from the kiss.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes." I hissed back before pulling my hand out and pushing him to the bed. He pulled me with him, and I climbed on top of him grinding into his hardness.

With a few swift movements, both my pants and his shorts were off and he wiggled his fingers through my folds to find me wet and ready. He circled my clit a few times, making me moan and buck my hips.

"You have to be quiet." He said, breaking the kiss.

I nodded and with that I pulled off my shirt and tossed my bra to the side. Hoseok reached for me teasing my nipples and giving my breasts a firm squeeze.

Just when I thought I was going to ride him, he flipped us so that he was on top.

"Turn over." He said quietly. "And if you need to, bite the pillow."

I did as I was told, and once my ass was up he grabbed my hips and pulled me closer to him. His movements were rough, only escalating my need to feel him.

The excitement of getting caught was on the surface of my being. Not that I'd want to hurt Jimin, but if he saw us, heard us, then the secret would be out in the open.

Not much more thought of Jimin passed through my head as Hoseok started to breach me. My back arched and my mouth fell open in a deep moan, but Hoseok reached for my mouth covering it.

"You want us to get caught?" He asked, pulling me up so that his mouth could reach my ear.

It made my body shiver, and I shook my head feeling ever inch of him filling me in this position. Satisfied with my answer he pushed me back down and grabbed for the pillow that was there and held on.

This had to be quick.

But Hoseok was no selfish man.

He pushed and pulled his cock in and out of me at a maddening rythym. Not too fast to spoil this moment, but not so slow that the building up was pitiful.

No, this was perfect.

His hands held my hips and he moved, trying hard to control himself so the sound of our bodies colliding made minimal noise. I heard his harsh breath and felt the grip on my hips tightening.

Inside myself enjoyed the way my core would tighten and pull at my lower stomach. I could even feel my nipples brush against the soft cotton of the bed below me.

Both Hoseok and I desperate for a release, moved together to keep our movements as quiet as possible. This was a rare moment for us.

And with each passing second, Hoseok got a little quicker, sharper with his hips.

Knowing it would cause too much sound, I lowered my body, Hoseok following me perfectly. His skillful body allowing him to not miss a beat.

I fully pushed my face in the pillow, groans spilling from my lips.

Just then he pulled out of me, guiding my body to flip over, and knock my legs apart.

All in one motion he slipped back inside me, his lips finding my own in a heated kiss. His hands found mine, and he pushed my arms up, pinning me down where I was.

I was completely vulnerable in his position, and my body was singing for a climax.

I broke the kiss, letting out a badly needed breath, doing my damnd-est to keep as quiet as possible.

"H-Hoseok!" I whispered, his lips kissing my neck. His tongue and mouth sucking and licking all the way across my neck and down to my breast.

His tongue wrapped around my nipple and he sucked hard letting a quick pop to my nipple snap back to my chest.

"Fuck!" I said, again, quietly.

"I need you to cum." He growled in a low voice.

I nodded my head, as if he could hear me, and closed my eyes. I allowed my body to fully let go of the anger I felt earlier, and focus souly on the feeling of Hoseok deep inside of me.

The knot in my core tightened, and with another hard thrust from Hoseok I came unraveled. I covered my own mouth, feeling Hoseok quicken and follow suit. His groans were buried in my neck, his hips prolonging the climax we shared.

Once everything stopped, I laid there in the bliss, grateful for Hoseoks visit to my room. I didn't even stir out of my trance until I felt Hoseok kissing on my chest.

He kissed me deeply when he reached my mouth.

The feelings I didn't realize I had for him starting to rouse within my belly.

The kiss was soft, and warm, much longer than any other kiss we have shared before. His arms were around me, just under my shoulders, holding me in place.

My hands were on his head and face, keeping him as close to me as possible.

This kiss only broke when we both needed air, and our deep breathing took us both by surprise. When I looked into his eyes, I felt a ping in the pit of my stomach. My heart raced, and I swallowed the lump in my throat.

I officially, liked Hoseok.

In this moment, the feelings were there, and I could help but to smile to him.

"I like that smile." He said quietly.

"Hoseok I really like you." I said to him, making his face fall in surprise.

"We I thought you might." He replied trying to make a joke.

I giggled softly. "No, I mean...I like you a lot. My feelings for you...they are way deeper than I expected them to be."

"Really?"

I nodded again, kissing him softly. "I hope that's okay."

He kissed me again, his smile as big as I had ever seen it. "I like you too." He said. "So very much."

After our cute moment, we were able to clean up with a few things I had in my room. Neither of us wanted to leave the room yet, just in case anyone was still up.

"I doubt anyone is awake." He said. "It's passed 3 am."

"Is Jimin in Tae's room?"

"Yeah. Otherwise I would have not come in here." He laughed.

"Good point." I replied.

We were under the covers at this point, Hoseoks arm under me and me curled into his chest. I fetl right here. He was a safe space.

"Do you want to talk about what happened?"

"No." I replied.

"Do you think you should talk about what happened?" He fired back.

"Probably."

"I'll let you start then."

"I just don't get him. He wants to protect me? From what? I have been on my own since college, since our dad disowned me. I have always been there for Jimin. Never questioned his decisions. Always trusted in him. Why cant he trust in me?"

"I know you're upset, but am I listening or problem solving with you?"

"If you have some input you're welcome to give it."

He sighed and turned so that we were facing one another. His voice was low and quiet, as if his words were even a secret to me.

"I think Jimin feels like he owes you everything he's ever gotten in life."

"That's ridiculous."

"Is it?" He asked, making me eager to hear his argument. "You are the reason Jimin was able to get as far as he did before everything shifted. He has been very candid about that. He even announced it on tour. You financially supported him, you sacrificed your relationship with your father, you risked your own stability by lying to your dad about finances. You did all of this. Jimin feels like its his turn. Now that he has money, now that he has the stability and the fame, he feels as if it is his turn to provide for you."

"But I never asked for that."

"I know." He replied, running hand over my exposed arm warming it up. "But its internalized within Jimin. He wants so badly to give back what you gave him."

"Okay so lets say you're right. I can accept the gifts he gives, or the credit card he gave me to use. I get all of that. But why is he so hell bent on telling me I cant date an idol. Even if it wasn't you, I'd be around them now that I'm here. I'd meet one eventually. And what if there was a spark? What if who I'm meant to be with is an idol?"

"Like the spark you have with me?" He grinned.

I laughed and kissed him sweetly. "I'm being serious. I can understand him wanting to pay me back by making my life easy. But doesn't that also mean happiness with someone to love. He has Taehyung."

"Exactly. And not only do they have to hide who they are, but who they are together. They wouldn't be able to come out as a couple. Not now anyway, not now where we are at the prime of our career."

"And you wouldn't either." I said.

"Right." He replied, softly. "And my partner would have to be okay with that."

"I AM okay with that. I want to be with you. Not your fame, or your money. I want to be with my brother too. Not his fame or his money. I don't have to hide being his sister, but I have to hid being your girlfriend?"

"Is this how you are asking me to be official?" He teased.

I rolled my eyes. "Please be serious."

"Look, all I know, is that Jimin and Taehyung are going to have to hide their love for a long, long time. Even after we disband, which hopefully wont be for at least another 10 years. I signed up for that, so did Jungkook. But you didn't. He doesn't want you to have to go through what he goes through."

"What about you?" I asked.

"Like I said, I signed up for that."

"But do you not want me to have to go through it. Do you really like me enough to keep me around?"

"I wouldn't ask you to make that sacrifice. No matter how much I want to."

"But isn't that my decision?" I asked getting defensive again. "Doesn't anyone care about what I want? And what I'm willing to do?"

"Of course." He said, shutting down my defense. "But you don't quite know what you're asking for. You and I weren't able to get physical together at all over the last 2 months. Do you really want to go months at a time without being together."

"We would have been able to if we weren't hiding from the members. Jimin and Taehyung get to be together at night. Same with the other two couples. Because they are open and happy. They have their safe space here with you and each other to be themselves. An luxury I am not given due to our circumstances."

"You're right." He said, giving me another soft kiss on my lips.

"So if I'm right, shouldn't I get to make that decision?"

"I'm not saying it shouldn't be your decision. I'm simply explaining why I think Jimin is so against it. This is the protection he thinks he's giving you. To him, this is just another way of paying you back."

"Well this isn't acceptable to me." I told him sitting up, and holding the sheet to my chest. "I'm a grown woman and capable of making my own decisions, despite possible consequences."

"I know you are." He smiled.

There was another long pause as I got lost in my thoughts again. But once again I was pulled out of them with a soft touch to my arm and a warm smile to greet me.

"So does that make us official then?" He asked.

"Us?"

"Yeah." He replied pulling me towards him. "Are you my official secret girlfriend?"

I laughed and settled more into him, allowing his arms to wrap around me and his lips to kiss the side of my head.

"I like that sound of that." I replied.

"How long are you a secret?" He asked me. "We cant get away with it for much longer you know."

"Let's just wait until Jimin is better and back on his feet." I suggested. "He'll be in a better head space. I'll have my own space and some distance might help, so we wont be under each other's noses."

"You want to wait for his recovery? That will be another 3 to 4 months."

"I know." I said. "But he's too angry right now. It will only make him more upset and I don't want it to cause rif between you two."

"Alright." He sighed, but I knew he didn't like that answer.

"When would you tell him?"

"Now."

"Now?"

"Yes, now." He laughed. "But I respect your opinion and you may be right. Waiting until he's feeling better might make the news less impactful."

"Plus who's to say we will even still be together by that point." I teased.

He then swiftly moved us so he was hovering over me, his eyes ablaze with intensity.

"I told you once. I don't do flings. If we are together, then we are tother. Secretly or not."

I giggled as he came down to kiss me again. "Alright. For the long haul then!" I said raising my fist in the air.

"You are such a dork."