*Tami's POV*

I clinged onto Simon to scared to let go, JJ's shouting scared because I wasn't expecting it. This is what happens when you get out of a abusive relationship, you get scared when someone shouts because you're use to being shouted at because of the relationship. I don't want the guys to feel like I'm always scared that they have to be careful around me, I want to be comfortable around them but I can't. I felt Simon sit down with me still in his arms, he let my legs go and push my hair away from covering my face. I quickly hide my face on his shoulder

"Tami, he didn't mean to scare you" Ethan said

"Tami, I'm really sorry. I was tired and annoyed that I was woken, I'm not a morning person" JJ said, I slowly loosen my grip on Simon but still kept a grip.

"Hey, come on. He said sorry, he really didn't mean to scare you" Simon said, I moved my head so they can see my face.

"Shit! I'm so sorry" JJ said and bent down so he was leveled with me, I sat up on Simon's lap but held Simon's hand

"It's ok" I said and looked down at mines and Simon's hand, I started to play with his hand

"I'm forgiven?" JJ asked, I nodded my head. JJ stood up

"If I'm forgiven then give me a hug" JJ said and held his arms out, I looked around the room to see everyone nodding their heads. I let go of Simon's hand and stood up before hugging JJ

"I forgive you" I whispered, JJ sighed before picking me up and spinning me around; I wrapped my legs around JJ's waist and clinged onto him

"JJ" I shouted

"Don't drop her" Simon said

"Be careful" Josh said

"HELP ME" I shouted

"Should we help?" Vik asked

"Na" Simon and Josh said and I could imagine them shaking their heads since I couldn't see them

"JJ! PUT ME DOWN BEFORE I THROW UP" I shouted, that got JJ to stop and put me down. Simon and Josh were both by my side and held me whereas Vik was helping JJ since me and JJ were dizzy

"The room is spinning" I mumbled

"You're dizzy that's why" Josh said, the two beside me helped me to sit then helped Vik.

"JJ I'm gonna kill you" I said

"I would run but the room is spinning" JJ said, the room then slowly by slowly stopped spinning but now I had a headache.

"Feeling better?" Simon asked

"Yea, just got a headache now" I said

*SKIPPING AN HOUR*

I was sat watching Simon teach Vik more tricks on FIFA when Josh came in

"Tami, can I talk to you?" Josh asked

"Erm...Sure" I said before getting up and followed Josh to the kitchen

"What's up?" I asked and hopped onto the counter

"I was wondering if you would a video with me" Josh said and scratched the back of his neck

"For Youtube?" I asked

"Yea" Josh said

"Nope" I said and hopped off the counter

"Come on, people have been asking who you are and why you are in our vlogs. Tami, people need to know that you're my sister and not some random person, please for me" Josh said and did his sad face

"I don't know, what if your fans hate me" I said

"They won't, they will love you and if they hate you then they have to live with it because we ain't getting rid of you" Josh said, I thought about it

"Okay I'll do it" I said

"Come on pleas- wait what? You'll do it?" Josh asked

"Yea I guess" I said, Josh grinned and ran over to me before picking me up and spinning me around

"Thank you" Josh said

"Your welcome, now put me down before I throw up" I said and hit his shoulder, Josh put me down

"I'll go set up" Josh said

"I'll be in my room, call me when you're ready to record" I said before going upstairs. I grabbed my black Sidemen sweatshirt and put it over my vest before applying some makeup but kept it natural then put my hair into a ponytail but kept my side bangs out. Just as I finished with my hair, there was a knock

"COME IN" I shouted, the door opened and Simon walked in

"You look pretty" Simon said, I blushed

"Doing a video with Josh, need to leave a good impression" I said

"And for that you're wearing makeup? Why? You don't need it, us at the house always see you without make up" Simon said

"Yea, that's because you guys know about my past whereas your fans don't so if they see the bruise on my face then they'll think it's you guys or I'm a charity event like I've always been" I said

"Charity event? What do you mean?" Simon asked

"Nothing, I shouldn't have said that" I said and hoped Simon would drop it

"Tami, it's something. Do you feel like we treat you like you're a charity event?" Simon asked

"No I don't...It's just that while I was growing up, my foster parents would tell me that I'm a charity or that I'm not wanted." I said and looked down. I heard movement and I looked up to see Simon stood in front of me, Simon held both of my hands

"But why? You're not a charity and you are most defiant wanted. If your foster parents hadn't kicked you out and you didn't break up with your ex then we wouldn't have met you. But mostly I wouldn't have met this amazing yet beautiful girl who is just lost and needs love from people who truly care about her" Simon said while looking into my eyes, tears were now threatening to fall

"I just wish this girl saw that she is loved and that she is wanted" Simon said before bending down and kissed my cheek

"And I wish that she would see that she has got a brother who cares about her more than she thinks" Me and Simon turned our heads to see Josh stood at the doorway, I pulled my hands out of Simons

"How long was you there?" I asked

"Long enough" Josh said before opening his arms for a hug, I ran over and hugged him. One or two tears fell

"We'll always be by your side no matter what" Josh whispered into my ear

"I love you" I whispered, I didn't even realise I saying it until the words left my mouth

"I love you too baby sis" Josh said and kissed my head

"Okay enough with the emotional stuff, you guys got a video to record" Simon said, I pulled away from the hug and ran to the mirror and checked my makeup before looking at the two boys in my room

"Lets go" I said, Simon gave me a hug before disappearing then me and Josh went downstairs to Josh's room. Josh explained what we are going to do, before I knew it we was recording

"Hey guys, today's video is going to be a bit different; as you can tell by the title, it kind of important. But first who are you?" Josh said/asked, I waved at the camera

"Hi, I'm Josh's sister Tami" I said to the camera with a small smile

*SKIPPING TO AFTER THE VIDEO BEING RECORDED*

"You was great" Josh said

"I'm shaking, is that normal?" I asked and held my hand out to show Josh

"Yes, it's normal. You're nervous and scared, calm down. They will love you" Josh said and put his hand on my shoulder

"Okay" I said and pushed the negative thoughts back

"Come on, lets get something to eat before I start editing that video" Josh said, I nodded my head before following Josh

"Wait, let me go wash the makeup off. I'll meet you downstairs" I said before running upstairs and washed the makeup off. After getting the makeup off, I walked back downstairs. I got to the second floor and heard voices by the front door so I slowly moved my way down when I stopped and looked at the person who was stood at the door

"Mum?" I said...

A/N

*Hides in Simon's cupboard so you can't kill me for leaving you on a cliff-hanger*

Have a lovely day and cya

Tamiii x