Alyssa's PoV:

"And then Jaden passed me the ball and I ran, so fast and then - boom, TOUCHDOWN!" Aiden shouted while my dad howled... I think it? It was Thursday night and I was so excited for tomorrow not only because it was the best day of the week, of course, but because it was my first tutoring lesson.

I am in the midst of excited and scared, but I am sure everything is going to be just fine. Chase is a B student at Science although... I am not sure if we are going to learn anything I have decided to ask him about our and if things get weird I might just skip the whole tutoring and ask hi to leave...kinfly, of course. It's just I have been in a familiar situation before, my first real boyfriend, was honestly a douche.

Let's say he turned me into a bit of a relationship-phobic, thanks to my first—and last—boyfriend.

When I found out, I was not that great, trusting someone and then realizing they see you as a mere stepping stone isn't that great to hear . So, my motto started to be: trust no one, especially if they're overly interested in my brother's Instagram followers. That also affected how I felt being my brother's shadow, after that situation being my Aiden's little sister was harder to take in.

My brother when he heard the news, went full big-brother mode, which is rare and scary. He and his friends gave Mr. Wannabe-Popular a "friendly" reminder that using people has consequences. They didn't just beat him up; they gave him a one-way ticket to social Siberia. He was so embarrassed he transferred schools—almost moved states. Can't say I miss him.

While my ex-boyfriend was running away from his mess, I was left dealing with the aftermath.  Not only was I living as my brother's shadow and also his friend's Tinder, but I was also the girl who got duped by a wannabe player. Living in my brother's shadow was already tough enough, and then that... It was like adding a neon sign above my head that said, "Easy Target."

So yeah... last year of school wasn't that easy. My friends did everything to make me forget about it, our summer was based on hang-outs, parties, beach, pool, drinks, and fun. It's been almost a year since and you know... I am great, I am. Chase was always that faraway crush that never really would talk to, he was like a celebrity type of crush to me, he is cute, he smells well, is a surfer, handsome, and polite. It helps a girl take her mind off of sad things.

I was just 15 when I started to date Logan, I guess I was young and stupid, thinking about love at such a young age. I am a new girl now, just turned 17 this summer and I am about to control my life in the way I want... hopefully.

I am not giving my all in Chase, I couldn't possibly do that, I am too afraid to do so, but I can always try to form a relationship softer one, as my friends say I just need someone like him to make me pass my phobia of relationships and ... boys.

However, every time a guy shows any interest now, I can't help but think - Is he genuinely interested in me, or in my brother?

I will just shake this thought off. Forget that happened, at least that is what I've been trying to do and I am getting pretty good at it, forgetting my past relationship and my secret.

Memory loss is a great help if you suffer from anxiety. Losing a memory that makes you anxious, will eventually stop making you anxious. Simple math.

I derailed my train of thought and got back to our dining table.

"When is your next game?" My mom questioned Aiden

" in a  month, is the start of the season"

"Be prepared by then Aiden, you never know if there is any recruiter in the benches waiting to give someone a scholarship for a good university and with a good recommendation."

"yes I know, Dad - I've been working on it" My brother said while talking with food on his mouth

"Don't talk with food on your mouth..." I said with a repulsive face

"Don't talk with food on your mouth" he mimicked my voice, making me roll my eyes

"You are so disgusting"

"You are so disgusting" he said again

"And annoying

"And-"

"That's enough Aiden, you are washing  the dishes" Mom said making me smile

"But mooom-" he pouted "It's Alyssa's turn"

"Well, you were mimicking your sister trying so much to be her you can surely do the dishes in her place"

"That's so unfair" He pouted while looking at mom with those puppies eyes, I hated those puppy eyes, mom always got weak with them I had to interrupt his play somehow "Mommm, mommy"

"MOM" I said loudly interrupting my brother's cries and catching my mom's attention

"Yes, honey"

"Tomorrow I have that tutoring lesson I talked to you about"

"Oh yeah, I remember," She said while eating the dessert "Does your friend stay for dinner?"

"Uhm.." does Chase stay for dinner? better not, right? maybe that is too much... That's way too much pressure on him eating here with all four of us, just the thought of it is making me suffer " I don't think so no.."

"Talking about dinner can you count on 2 more, Mom?" Aiden asked making my eyebrow go up, who the hell is he bringing tomorrow

"Sure, who's coming?" She asked, thanks mom... i was curious about it too

"Just Luke" Hm... I totally can deal with Luke he is one of my favorites "and Mason" yeah no...

"Oh lovely I will make lemon meringue pie, I know it's Mason's favorite" Mom said, Mason is like it's almost an acquaintance in this house. Although Aiden has more annoying friends, Mason has been coming here since ever... like literally ever I can't remember when he started coming here I sort of believe he was almost born in this freaking house. "Oh do you wanna do it instead Aly? I know you love baking, you do it better than me" Mom said

"I appreciate the offer but I will be studying" I said while watching my mom and my dad get up and beginning to tidying up the kitchen

"Who are you even studying with?" Aiden questioned

"I think it's time for you to wash the dishes, brother" I smiled getting up, I can't let him know that Chase will be in this house, more specifically in my room. Aiden might have a heart attack.

- FRIDAY -

"Morning my bursts of sunshine" Amy said happily joining our table

"You seem happy" Emily commented

"Just got a present" she smiled "Tada!!" she showed us a big beautiful red rose.

"Oh it's beautiful" I commented

"It's still as the thorns I bet that as a deeper meaning" She commented sitting down next to us

"Like what? Dangerous Passion?" Nate joked but I understood Amy took it quite seriously when I saw her eyes getting big. She placed her shiny red hair behind her ear and leaned forward to the table ready to spit her thoughts

"What if it's a forbidden love? a dangerous love? I love you but I know I am not right for you? I love you but I will hurt you..." she said has her eyes almost turned into hearts and she bit her lips imagining... things that I don't even want to know

"I love your positive thinking" Emily said cutely making me chuckle

"I am serious guys, I need some passion this is like the best thing that ever happened to me besides getting in the boys jeep, getting a fiat, the new channel bag and getting the first fresh edition of Rhode's pocket blushes" Amy mentioned making the table silent "I want love !"

"Wellington is available"

"Wellington is a nerd" Amy said with a disgusted face

"Are you a nerd-hater, Amy?" I questioned her making some oh's appear from our table

"Look it's not like I hate them ... I just don't like them... like skinny jeans and full denim clothes" She said making me cringe at the tough of someone wearing a full top and bottom unmatched denim clothes

"That is exactly the same"

"I don't mind them living, I just prefer them out of my sight and I would never, EVER date a nerd! It will lower my popularity" she said making the table chuckle

"You know what it will lower your popularity?" I questioned making her interested

"What?"

"Being a hater... people don't like that anymore I guess" I joked making them chuckle

"Ok ... but in all seriousness, I need a boyfriend. I just feel like all of the guys just want to kiss me touch my boobs and leave"

"They do exactly want to do that" Nate responded confidently

"In all honesty, I am straight and I am also fascinated for your boobs" Selena said

"Yeah" the table said in unison

"Ok! Stop looking at my boobs all of you. I know I have a nice exquisite pair but I am more than just two pair of perfectly outstanding boobs"

"Why do I feel like we are saying the word 'boobs' too often" I mumbled

"Thing is boys nowadays don't care about personality just boobs and ass" Nate explained

"Oh that's why I am single" I realized

"Hm same bestie" Emily said high fiving me

"How can I find a guy like Romeo but with the face of Aiden?" Amy questioned making me snort

"Yeah... not in Aiden, he sucks at English, and poetry, and being romantic ... I think he sucks in general"

"What kind of sucking?" Nate wiggled his eyebrows making all of us disgusted

"Guys but I need help... I need to know who did this..." She said waving the rose

"Well that will be a bit hard didn't it come with a note?" Selena questioned

"nope... I think so... no"

"Did you check?" Emily questioned

"No-"

"Amy...." We said disappointed

"What? I saw the big rose,  I was flushed and I got hyped about it " She said shrugging her shoulders " Also who would write to me? they could text"

"It is supposed to be anonymous I believe..." Emily mention"

"Well okay, it makes sense... makes more sense than the stupid paper with dots on my locker" AMy words made me stop, I can't believe this girl -

" What dots?"

" Some scratches and dots probably someone thinks my locker is a trash can" Amy mentioned

"Do you have it?" I questioned, I watched her thinking about it and quickly reaching her jacket pocket " I put my gum in there... sorry. " She said trying to take most of the gum out of the paper, once it was visible she placed it on the middle of the table so we could all see it.

She was right the note was small and only had a dot and three hyphens followed,

.---

"See... I told you it was nothing" she said confidently

"Amy... " I said taking a deep breath "Is there anything that may have dots and scratches like you said to communicate?" I questioned her

"uhhhh-- yes?"

"Some alphabet..." I said giving her tips "Code..."

"Ah Morse Code! Right ... knew that! I looked at it and I didn't even thought about that"

"Yeah we know" Selena said side hugging Amy

"I think it's a J" I said looking at it

"Yeah it's a J... I just googled it" Emily said

"So what does that mean? What is that? My admirer? is J?" AMy questioned

"Yeah maybe, I think that's it"

"J..." Emily mumbled

"Ok easy... assemble everyone who is called J and then we will take analyze it thoroughly" Nate proposed

"I don't know that many people with J" Amy mentioned

"It can be a secret admirer from far like someone who has a crush on you" Selena explained

"It can be Jaden" Amy said with a big smile not hearing a word we said

"Don't take conclusions yet... we need more proofs " Nate mentioned while Amy just looked to the popular table of the guys and bit her lips, her thoughts are probably going wild right now

"Yeah we lost her" I said