I rinse the blood off my arm and I sit the razor blade back on the counter, staring at the new cuts on my arm.

To be honest I don't know what to do anymore, Cyrus and I haven't talked since Wednesday.

It's Monday, he doesn't even come over to tutor me anymore. He ignores all my calls, text, and he pretends like he can't see me when we walk by each other in the hallway.

All I want to do is just talk to him, I need to figure out what's going on in between us. I saw him and Iris kissing in the hallway Friday and I know he knows that I know because he looked me straight in the eyes when she walked away.

Then I decided to do the only thing I can do well, get drunk with Jade and Jordan.

It's like a routine now, meet them in the alley way and either get drunk and skip school or get drunk and go to school.

I look at myself in my bathroom mirror, eyes baggy from lack of sleep, hair mushed every which way, and a busted lip from falling on my face yesterday in my drunken trip back home alone.

I sigh leaving my house making my way towards school, stopping by the alley way quickly to meet Jade and Jordan.

"Bicycle you look horrible" Jade states the obvious and I roll my eyes. "Here you go" She hands me a small bottle of I don't know what and I eye it suspiciously. "Just drink it, it'll make you feel a lot better. Trust me"

I bring the bottle to my lips and I down it all quickly, it doesn't burn my throat as it goes down and I look at it weirdly.

"Alright let's go to school" Jade chirps, smacks the bottle out of my hand and spins on her heels walking ahead of me.

"We're hanging out on the roof today, we wanted to try something a little different" Jordan smirks.

We make our way on to school grounds and I spot Buffy and Andi near the front doors, they flash me a small smile and I walk past looking, straight to the ground.

I walk through the busy school hallway and up the stairs that lead to the roof once we get there I stare at the door. Jade opens the door and I walk out, the door slams shut behind me and I try to open it.

Locked, of course.

I pound on the door causing Jade and Jordan to laugh harder. "We'll be back before lunch, have fun Bicycle"

I give up on knocking and I sigh kicking a few rocks around.

My mom is coming back home today and I'm not looking forward to it, I'm actually thinking I'm ready to come out to her. I'm just afraid of her reaction. What if she kicks me out or something like that? Where am I supposed to go? She's like the only person I have in my life, I pushed Cyrus away.

Cyrus.

I miss him so much, you never realize how much you need a person until they're gone. Now he's gone and I feel like trash, trashier than I usually feel.

I begin walking towards the edge of the school roof tears springing to my eyes as I get closer. The bell rings signaling everyone to get to class and I'm stuck on the roof that my so called "friends" locked me on.

I'm alone, all alone. No one cares about me, and I bet no one would even notice me if I was gone.

What if this is a sign? What if I was destined to meet Jade and Jordan so they can lock me on this roof one day? What if I was meant to jump?

A tear rolls down my cheek as I look down at the concrete on the ground.

All you have to do is jump, I take a deep breath and I close my eyes.

"WHAT THE HECK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?!" I open my eyes and I turn to see Cyrus, Buffy, and Andi running towards me. Cyrus grabs my wrist and pulls me back. "Were you about to kill yourself?" He asks me.

"No I was trying to see if I can fly" I joke

"This is not funny- are you drunk?" He looks at me closer.

"Maybe, Jade gave me something to drink but I don't know what it was. I feel fine though" I shrug.

"Fine people don't try to kill there selves" Buffy says.

"We need get you to the hospital who knows what you drank" Andi says.

"Yeah true let's go" Buffy begins to walk.

"The door is locked so don't bother" Everyone stops in there tracks.

"You have got to be kidding me" Cyrus groans.

"How'd y'all even know I was out here?" I ask.

"We saw you with Jade and Jordan, we got suspicious, we followed, and we basically saved your life. Where is our thank you?" Buffy crosses her arms.

"I didn't want to be saved" I mumble.

"Guys can I talk to him?" Cyrus sighs, Buffy and Andi look at me before they walk off away from us on the roof.

Cyrus and I sit on the roof our feet dangling off the edge.

"I'm sorry" He begins.

"For what? I'm the one who pushed you away"

"For breaking my promise, I promised to never leave you no matter what, and I did. I left you and I'm so so so so so-"

"Cyrus I broke promises too, and I'm still breaking them everyday" I look at my clothed arm.

"You said you didn't do it often"

"Well it's became an everyday thing. I always seem to find something wrong with me everyday to cut about"

"Jonah there is nothing wrong with you"

"Really, so it's normal for 16 year olds to get drunk, cut there selves, oh and almost jump off of abroof ready to just end everything?" My breath comes out a bit shaky and I look at my lap. "Cyrus I think, never mind"

"What?"

"No, I don't want to say it until I'm sure" I look Cyrus straight in the eyes, I'm pretty sure I'm in love with him.

"Well I'm also sorry for kissing Iris" I actually forgot that happened for a moment. "I was trying to see if I would feel anything for her, which I didn't by the way. Then I saw you and I remembered that we were dating and what I did makes me a cheater. I'm such a bad boyfriend, my life sucks."

"Your life sucks?" I question and his eyes widen.

"Sorry" We sit there in silence staring at each other and he brings his hands to my face wiping my tears away. "Stop crying, I don't like it when you cry"

"You must hate me then" I joke.

"No I like you, for you. I don't want the old Jonah back. I'm perfectly fine with this one" Cyrus flashes me a smile and I can't help but smile back. "The Goodman Effect"

"What the heck is The Goodman Effect?"

"I smile you smile, The Goodman Effect"

"I missed you" I sigh, sneakily slipping my hand into his.

"I missed you too" Cyrus looks behind him to see that Buffy and Andi's back are towards us, before he leans in and kisses my cheek quickly.

"Did they ever say when they were coming back?" Buffy asks turning around with Andi.

I shake my head yes.

"Can you tell us when?" Andi asks.

"Lunch" I whisper.

Buffy tilts her head signaling that she didn't hear me.

"He said lunch" Cyrus sighs "What made you follow them?"

"I thought we were going to be out here together, but they locked me out here" I look down.

"Because they're not your friends" Buffy sighs and sits next to me throwing her arm around me. "What are you guys not telling me?"

I look at her confused.

"What do you mean?" Cyrus speaks.

"First you wanna go to the left then you wanna turn right, wanna argue all day, make love all night. First you're up, then you’re down and then between. Oh, I really want to know. What do you mean?" I hum.

"Really?" Andi laughs and sits down on the other side of Cyrus.

"Don't try to ignore my question with Justin Bieber. Why are you two holding hands?" Buffy arches her eyebrow and I quickly let go of Cyrus's hand trying to pretend that nothing happened, but Cyrus grabs my hand again and when I look at him he smiles.

"I'm gay and we're dating" He looks right into my eyes, but I know he was talking to Buffy and Andi.

"YAY!" Andi jumps and tries to hug us but she accidentally slips, and we were all quick to catch her by her wrist and pull her back up.

"We should get away from the edge, before we hurt ourselves" Buffy stands.

"I agree" Andi and Cyrus say in unison, also standing up and backing away.

I stay put though and I look down at the ground. How bad would I get hurt?

I begin pushing my self closer out of curiosity.

"Jonah" Cyrus says my name in like a warning tone.

I bring myself off the edge holding on by just my hands.

"Jonah stop playing around, before you get hurt" Cyrus walks towards me.

"Nope" I wink at him and I let go.

"JONAH!" All three of them scream, before I scream out in pain landing on the ground.

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Guys I had this idea at last minute and I was actually thinking about deleting all of this chapter and start again from the beginning, but then I got a better idea and you guys might hate me for it.

*evil laugh*

*cues thunder noise*

*ends up coughing like every other villan who tries to evil laugh*

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