My name is Harry Styles and I'm 1/5 of One Direction. I'll get it plain, I am in love with Louis Tomlinson, also 1/5 of One Direction. Yes, everything started as a joke, as a bromance as fans' speaking. But then things went wrong. The fact is that I love it when Lou looks at me seductively and runs his hands around my curls. And I know he feel the same too. The next thing we know is that we start to have sex, generally speaking. It is tough the first time, but it then becomes quite normal to us. It is an obvious fact that every lover does... right? Although it is so clear that we are each other's, we never want to say it out in public, actually it is me who want to keep it as secret. But now I begin to find it so tough to keep on the relationship without anyone know.

Flashback

Louis stood up and had his clothes on. He looked damn sexy, which really made me want to do him all over again. I never thought having sex with a guy would be so... fascinating. Oh I was being a pervert. Now I realised as long as it was someone you loved, sex went crazy.

"So what are we gonna do now?" - Louis whispered, standing there with exhaustion all over him, which really made me feel guilty for thrusting him too hard.

I know this question would come sooner or later, and in fact I was scared of this. I mean... what if we said that we were dating and lose our fans? We would never want that to happen.... But this is actually love!... Should I say it?

I know I am very selfish somehow, and this time, greed got over me. "I don't know. Maybe we shouldn't make it public... I mean... let's keep this between you and me!"

I don't know if this persuade him, but I can see his eyes filled with disappointment. We have known each other for more than 1 year, not to consider the time we live together in the same apartment. He understands me too well to foresee the answer.

"Cool!" - He muttered. Louis was hoping for something else, I can tell, but he knew the worst would come. And this time, he was prepared for it.

Flashback ends

However, Louis has been advoiding me these days and it is so unlike him. He has been caught hanging out with his newest girlfriend, Eleanor. I'm so selfish to say this, but hate the girl. I know Lou only dates her because he thinks that would break the rumors between me and him. To be honest, he picked her to be his beard. Actually we have used that same trick since we started hanging out. Sometimes the girls doubt us, sometimes they don't.

Flashback

Lou told me he had a conversation earlier with Hannah - she is now his ex-girlfriend, and the girl seem to doubt the rumor Larry was real... I didn't know what to tell him. Louis seemed to be as confused as I was then.

"So are we gonna make this to the light or not?" - He asked me again, this time it ws filled with expectation.

It was so clearly I saw his eyes sparkling in hope, but I was once again beaten by the devil inside of me. "No Lou, we've come this far. Don't let the world beat us. "

I knew he was very very disbelieved in me now, but I couldn't help it. I was so afraid I might lose my fans, but along with that, I was afraid I would lose the love of my life. So I moved in closer to Lou, held him from the back and kissed his ears. Louis always loves this position. I could sense him shiver slightly, and it turned me on.

He wrapped his arms around my head, playing with my curls, damn he always likes making me harden by doing this. He whispered as he rubbed his nose to mine. "Don't worry. If that's what you want, leave it to me!" And to your concern, we kissed and made out afterwards.

The next two days, all I knew was that he had broken up with Hannah and a week later, Eleanor came to our life.

Flashback ends

Eleanor is tough. She dates Louis, first there was once or twice a week and the amount keeps on rising. They must have had sex too... Damn I can't hold myself down whenever I think of her having my man. I'm a jerk. A weak jerk who couldn't protect his love.

I know I must do this: I must talk to him about the change, his change.

So here I am, standing, shaking, or whatever you want to call.

"Lou, can we have a convers-" I smile as I see him walk into the house, but then I am cut off when I see Eleanor walk in with Louis holding her hands. Okay this has gone out of hand. I've got to fix this. Some parts of me know this is wrong.

"Hello mate!" - Louis notice me with a mischievious smirk on his face. Damn that's what I always die for. Okay calm down Hazz, calm down. "You need anything?"

I look at Eleanor with concern. She sees my gaze and right away, she speaks. "If you need privacy, I can wait outside."

Then she pulls her hands out of Lou's, but at the same time, Lou holds it tighter. "No Haz, she's family too. If you got something, we were ready to hear."

I am frozen.  One minute... And two... And three... I am speechless. I stand there staring at Lou. And at the forth moment, a word finally escape my mouth. "Wow... Since when?..."

Lou looks down his feet, for a moment I thought I saw confusion in his eyes. Then he looks up, and just smiles. I feel hundreds of stabs running through my heart, my mind, my body. All of my senses are dull. I frown at him, then Eleanor, still hoping that they would burst out laughing and say "GOTCHA!" but nothing happens.

"Wow... I-I never know... I-... Congrats Lou" - That smile of mine is fake, so fake that I could feel the tears streaming down when I smile.

Louis' smile disapears. He looks away from my gaze. Why Louis? Are you even being serious? Why so suddenly? Why are you doing this to me?

"So what do you want to say?" - Eleanor speaks up, tries to break the ice. But I hate her, to be honest. I HATE HER! ME-NO-LIKE-HER.

I grab my coat, say without looking at her. "Nothing. Gotta rush."

As I stomp out of the house, I hear Eleanor ask. "What's wrong with him?"

I go to the bar, order any drink I could. Funny when you have 4 brothers, one of them cause you misery, one could never understand or accept homosexual, one only care about food and one isn't reliable enough to tell the secret.

"Where r u? - Boo Bear" - A text coming. Shit it's Lou. He doesn't care, he just... tries to be nice.

"None of ur concern. Not dead yet. Happy? - Haz" - Can't believe I just used that tone with my love, my heart-breaker. And suddenly, I realise why Lou had been advoiding, pissing me off.

"On my way to get u - Boo" - His text comes after a few minutes.

What the heck? How can he know where I am?... Isn't he the only person who is always at my side whenever bad things happen? Isn't he the one who would fix me up whenever I'm broken? And on top of that, why did I realise this so late? And now that I lost him to Eleanor, who truly deserves him, I realise how much I love him and that I don't care if the world stands up against me, against us because at least I have him. What'd I do now when I have the world but not him? It feels so lonely and cold. I'm scared...

I am lost in my thought when I hear a familiar voice next to me and a hand pulls me out of my seat. "Let's go Haz!"

Louis is here. It feels like I just put the phone down. How long have I been sitting there? I resist him because if I don't, I think I might faint into his arms. "Let go of me you son of a -". No I can't say that, it's nonsense accusing him of something he's not, Louis knows that. Louis looks at me, his eyes wide open, then he keeps on pulling me. I groans. "Would you stop that? Can you see I'm talkin-". I points at some girls on the counter that I don't actually know, but I am cut off when Lou moves his head in closer to mine. I can feel his breath and his heartbeat... Or is it mine?... I looks at his eyes, the same as the one makes me go weak in the knees, and the last thing I know, my eyes had streamed down his lips.

I am sitting in his car now. I still don't know how he manage to get me out here. It was in a blink of and eyes I found myself sitting awkwardly when he drives me home. I don't dare to speak, or even breath. The air is frozen around us. It feels like hours before we get home.

I take a shower. I've been thinking, from the moment we hopped on the car to the moment I get the blanket around my waist, about what I should say to Louis. I mean it is obvious I should give up loving him, holding him back will hurt both of us (not to mention Eleanor) even more. And I don't think I would deserve Louis' unconditional love anymore. I should back off.... but I don't want to let him go...

Decision is Lou's now. So I walk out of the bathroom, half naked. I don't think this would be seductive to him anymore when I see him put his hands on his chin, thinking and almost doesn't pay attention to me. He is frowning and this is not the usual Louis I'd known, not anymore. What had I turned him into?

"Tomlinwife has done bathing, eh?" - Louis notices me, puts on a mischievious grin on his face. No, he is still the same, isn't he?

I look at him for a while, try to find the right word to say, but I fail.

Louis sees that too. He's always been the caring one despite what people think of him. He then faces the problem. "What is it Haz? What do you want to tell me?"

I sit down, feeling awkward when I haven't put my clothes on. This is the first time I feel this way, and trust me, that's very unpleasant. I look him in the eyes, wondering what he is thinking as I speak. "About what you said this morning-" I pause, he gasps, "is it real?"

"What do you think?" - Louis loses his smiling face, he puts his hands on his mouth again, whispering

"I-I don't know." - Hello decision is yours now, can't you see that? Please don't make my life more miserable. "I-If that's real, I hope you'll be happy."

Okay, Louis looks pissed now. I've never seen him like this. I'd better go to my room now. So I smile, stand up, simply kiss him good-night and... he holds my hand. "I haven't finished yet!"

Then he pulls me down. Once again, Louis whispers, only loud enough so that I can hear. "El and I, we're dating. She's a good girl, great actually. I know I'm beginning to like her. But -"

If I didn't leave now, I would burst into tears any time. So I cut him off  "It's ok Lou. I totally understand. We're still brothers."

Louis snaps his hands on the table. " DAMMIT HARRY YOU'RE NOT LISTENING."

Louis must have hurt his hand badly. I see Louis frown at me. This is the one I love, Louis Tomlinson. I really don't want Lou to hurt himself more. If I am sitting here, I will do damage to both of us. "Seriously, I'm drunk, naked and I would prefer heading to my room now."

Louis fakes a smirk, then he gazes at me. " And now you're afraid of getting naked in front of me?"

"I-I-" - But my word couldn't escape when I feel Louis' lips on mine. He kisses me pasionately, but when I try to reply back, he pulls away. "You don't believe me."

What happened? He accused me of dishonesty? "SHUT UP Louis. Isn't it obvious when you said she was your family? How can I suppose to trust you? Actually I do when all you say is that's she's your family now. Honestly Lou, how many families do you have?"

Okay I burst out. And I feel Louis on top of me, I can sense his breath getting harder and I can see tears in the corner of his eyes. He's about to cry, but why? Is it me? What did I do?

"Look Louis, all I ask you to do is do as your heart told."

"My heart? You don't know what my heart feels. You don't know it beats like mad when I'm near you. You don't know it stops when you refuse to take us to the light. And YOU DON'T KNOW THAT... it loves you." - Louis puts his hand on his chest.

"But what about El? Didn't you say-"

"It's true that I like her, but it doesn't mean I love her. The only reason she exists in my life is that because of you. I said it to make you jealous, ok? I want the world to know about it!" - The two last sentences, Louis almost mutters

I suddenly realises. Louis is always my silly lover. His face is so cute that I burst out laughing. I want to bite his lips right now. Louis looks at me, he blushes, then he looks away. How can he be that damn cute?

I lean on and kiss him. It's been so long since I feel this great. "Whataya suggest we telling our fans our little secret on the next interview?"

Louis looks at me, his eyes are filled with surprise. Okay this is awkward. I feel so bad for not noticing how he feels about me calling the shot all the time. I smile, encourage him to say his opinion.

Louis gets it. He always reads my thought. He was born for me. We were born for each other. "Nah not the fans, like you, I don't want to risk the chance of losing them. Just tell the boys, will us?" Louis winks at me, still that mischievious smirk that takes over my heart.

I licks my lips. YUP I'm naughty. "Daddy Direction won't be happy about this!" But then there is something in my mind that concerns me. "... Boo Bear... so what are you gonna do with El? Are you gonna tell her?"

I mean I know he is mine, but... if Eleanor is still his girlfriend, we won't have much time together. And Louis looks as confused as I am. He must never have thought about telling Eleanor, neither dumping her. She is a good person after all. 

"Don't worry Haz, this is the story of us and I'm not gonna let anyone ruin it, even Eleanor. I consider her as my little sister." And to my surprise, Louis touches the tower I use to wrap around my waist and says. "So you're not gonna change this or may I change it for you?"

I smirks, talks nonchalantly. "I prefer the latter. How about a sleepover at my room tonight?"

I see the same smirk on Louis' face. The night has just started and he has already turned me on...

This is going to be a long night, I can tell!

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A/N: So how do ya guys think? I just want to write a Larry so bad. This is a oneshot and phewww... at least I try to make it oneshot!

So vote, fan, leave comment, do whatever you want!