Drake:
"When we grew up, she was this bubbly, energetic person that simply couldn't shut her mouth. I remember hearing about a dog she'd seen on the street for a solid half an hour. I also remember her telling me her hopes and dreams in life... she had so many. A lot of you here were just classmates and friends of the family, but let me assure you- there were a lot." He laughed a little, looking up at me. "I don't think you knew this Jayken, but from the day she met you, she wanted to be like you. She wanted to save peoples lives, tell funny stories, put the needles in with no pain. Gosh, she never shut up about you guys. You were her heroes and I know she is up there right now feeling guilty that she never thanked you enough. I also know that she wants you to continue being the heroes you are and save more lives, even if she lost her own. You did a pretty damn good job at it."

Jayekn:
It's crazy to hear how much impact you can have on people without knowing. I wondered if she knew what she did for me.

Drake:
"To be completely honest, I don't know what I'm gonna do now. I don't know how im gonna be ok. She was and always will be the best friend anyone could ever ask for and I will admire her strength forever. I wish we could've made more memories, I wish I could give her a big hug right now... but I can't. That's the hardest thing I think, knowing that I will never spend another minute with her. You were so beautiful and you never got to see that for yourself, I love you Rebecca."

Jayken:
His eyes were welling up by the end and he came over to us, hugging his mum tightly. I still managed to love this girl more and more every day. It was Parkere's turn to talk. Drake's speech had hit Elliot hard but we were holding it together. Barely.

Parker:
"The day I met Rebecca, she was terrified of me. I'm pretty sure everyone hates the dentist. She'd already been diagnosed with cancer but I decided to not look at her as the sick girl, she enjoyed that. I was always told by her that my presence relaxed her but I don't think I could've been like that without her."

Jayekn:
Robert grabbed Ellito's hand as we stood listening. Luke was almost in tears himself.

Parker:
"When I first met Rebecca, she was quiet. She was anxious, scared... and you could clearly see it. But put her with the right people and she was a different person. Until recently, I only got the pleasure of seeing her every few months and during those times I was...well drilling her mouth but I also took extra time to talk. Make sure you talk to your loved ones- please. Don't take it for granted. As you would expect, the past couple of months have been awful. She was separated from us then came back extremely sick... however I agree with Drake. I've never met someone with so much strength and I admire her. She taught us all so much. I could spend my whole life talking to therapists and friends and still wouldn't know how to cope. She was the most special person to me. I want her back, I want her to hug me and tell me she's had the best day ever. I want to come home and see her and Elliot cuddling on the sofa or laughing with Robert as some stupid cat video. I want to see her turning to Jayken for her worries or for her and Drake to watch another movie. I miss her presence so much."

Jayken:
His voice was cracking and a tear slid down his cheek.

Parker:
"I couldn't have asked for anyone better in my life, I love you."

Jayken:
I stepped forward and hugged him tightly before taking his place, surprising him and the others.

Elliot:
"I have nothing prepared. Rebecca's death hit me hard and I'm ashamed by how poorly I have reacted. I'm sorry guys, for leaving you alone when we needed each other most, She was an extraordinary person. As we've established, she was very sick. It was her third time round so she struggled to have her treatment and get through the next days. She lost her mum and that broke her. She was terrified that the same would happen to her and it did... but out of all of us, she was the strongest. The only time I saw her break down was right before she died." Elliot stepped up and kept his arm round my shoulder, Robert, Parker and Drake joining. "She was quite persistent about staying. Her body had shut down but she refused to go. I'm not going to sugar coat it, she didn't really get to live. Such small things that she never got to do like take an exam in a hall, or go to birthday parties or even have birthday parties. In fact, she spent her 8th one with us all in hospital and she would've turned 15 next week. She has big plans for that when she was younger. Before the hope started to run out. However, she managed to find joy in the smallest of things like a teddy bear or dad jokes." I clenched my hand into a fist to try and stop myself from shaking but it was no use. My eyes flickered towards Elliot and he carried on.

Elliot:
"The final thing we all want to say, is that we wouldn't have asked for it to go any differently. Once she said to me, "Aren't you tired of looking after me?, no Rebecca . We never got tired because you brought so much happiness into our lives. Of course we'd much rather you be here with us right now ,but it was the right time for you to go. You were in so much pain baby and no one is mad. The universe put you through hell and back but you fought your way through it. You're a champion:"

Jayken:
The service ended and we sat down on a bench nearby. Drake's mum waited in the car because I needed to give them all something. "I don't know if you guys remember but in the hospital, Emily gave me something. She told me to open it at the right time- there's two things but I don't think one of them is ready to be opened yet." Inside the large envelope were five smaller ones; one each, neatly addressed to each of us.

Robert:
"She really thought of it all, didn't she." Robert said.

Jayekn:
"What else is in there?"

Robert:
"I don't know, but it's not time yet. I just have a feeling."

Drake:
I climbed in the back of the car, not wanting mum to see whatever this was yet. Luckily, she got the hint that I wasn't interested in talking. I opened it up and saw a neatly folded piece of paper. A letter. How old was this? It looked fairly new... My hands trembled as I opened it, biting my lip as I scanned over it. She'd really thought ahead and that hurt. It seemed only she was ready for her death.

Dear Drake,

First of all, I love you. I love you so much and I know this will have hit you hard.

Please don't stop your life, I'm begging you. I know how it feels to lose someone and I don't know how you reacted- I hope you let it out. It feels like your whole world has crashed down and come to a halt. You don't know what to do, how to live... it seems impossible.

Talk to someone. That's what I'm gonna say to you. Jayken and the guys are fine but they're also in a state and they won't be showing you half of what they're feeling so talk to someone else. I'm sure Jaykne offered to help find someone.

Thank you Drake, for listening to me moan about everything, listening to my hopes and ambitions, listening to me cry or laugh. You were always there for me and now it's my turn to always be there for you. I'm always gonna be by your side because you're the best friend anyone could ask for. If I had to chose the best decision I made in my short life time, it was becoming friends with you.

You gave me so many memories to smile about. At times like these, you crave another hug, another day, another smile... you might always. Just remember that to me, we had enough.We had the perfect balance.

It's selfish, but another day meant more pain. Another hug took all the energy I had left.

In this envelope is a photo from some day in my second cancer treatment. To you, it could've just been a fun day but it was everything to me. Even if I couldn't run around, you still played tig with me and my wheelchair. We read, watched a film, did some terrible drawings of the boys- each day with you was perfect.

I know that I'll be begging not to go but I had to and I wouldn't have asked for anything different. Thank you for always being by my side, you'll always be my partner in crime.

Love from,
Rebecca xx

Drake:
I became so lost in the letter that I didn't realise I was crying. But as she told me, I just had to remember... I'd eventually be ok.

Robert:
The four of us went home, going to our own rooms. I was itching to open the letter so I didn't bother changing. I was so curious to what she would say, and why she had left us all a letter. Thinking about us should've been one of her last worried considering how much pain she was in.

Dear Robert,

Hi.

Some people may argue that we weren't close because we didn't hug millions of times or cuddle until we fell asleep. Of course all of that is good, but I rather liked our relationship.

It was nice to talk to you, properly sit and talk. You're the one who built up my strength to deal with things on my own and not rely on everyone all the time. You truly inspired me.

Sometimes, you were really quiet and other times you were loud. The unpredictability of it was entertaining to my younger self and I miss the times where you sat with me and coloured until I couldn't think of anything else to say.

Which never happened.

Then when I got older, you were there to hold my hair back when I got sick. You were patient with me and if I wanted to talk, you listened. But you never forced- that's the thing no one else did. You let me gather my thoughts and talk properly and I respect that so much.

They way you mumbled stuff under your breath (yes I heard that) and the small actions you did were so funny to me sometimes. I don't even think you realised you were doing them.

Thank you for coming on the journey with me. If I'd got a boyfriend or I was going to prom, or anything important in my life, just know I would've turned to you. Please don't regret not hugging me enough or not making me enough sandwiches.

Don't worry about what you didn't do because you can't change it, and even if we could I wouldn't want to.

Seriously, I'm so grateful for everything you've done for me. Through some of the toughest, most challenging and heartbreaking parts of my life, it was so reassuring to know you were there.

And there are so many more people who need you in their life.

Thank you so much.

Love from,
Rebecca xxx

Robert:
Even if she was no longer with us, that girl would always have my heart. As Elliot had once said, there's just something about her that makes everyone love her.