i think trigger warning i am talking about panic attacks not detailed.

ok so today in science i had a panic attack, i usually have panic attacks in science because i am super sensitive to loud noises because i have Asperger syndrome disorder which makes me sensitive to loud noises. anyway it wasn't because of that this time it was because i kept thinking about every time someone has called me she or her or girl or something like that and i kept questioning whether i was actually transgender, i like to wear skirts and sometimes other 'girly' things but i think i'm just feminine. most of the time i wear 'boys' clothing. i was ready to end myself right then because i just hated it when people call me by a girl pronoun and my class mates do it as well. i ahev changed my name on the roll but no one seems to take notice that i have a typical boys name now.  

so i was having the panic attack and my boyfriend was trying to calm me down as well and my best friend is usually there to calm me down but they weren't there today so i was trying my best to calm down and i eventually did. but i am still questioning whether i am actually trans or not.

so yeah that what just today hopefully tomorrow will be better i'll probably tell you about it but bye for now. xxx