I'm not exactly sure how to stand and fight, I am willing to keep fighting but im more weak now. Broken down and was torn to pieces, picked back up and mended into a heart again. Only to shatter piece by piece.. Maybe it won't work out, but seeing if it does is worth standing tall even though I keep falling. I love him enough to let him go and be happy, whether it's with me or not. His happiness before mine. I don't wannna lose him, but then again he was really never mine.. sure we said we loved each other, and I truly do love him with all my heart. But he was never fully mine..  

I can't even explain how much I love him, his personality stole my heart. He's your dream guy, he's absolutely perfect! Sweet, caring, appreciative, brace, kind, polite, happy, funny, smart, loyal, understanding, trustworthy, truthful. He's perfect! He's so close, yet so far.. I don't wanna drift away.. but lately I feel like him and I have.. I wanna hug him and never let go, comfort him through tough times and make him laugh when he's down. But my chest and stomach are physically and literally hurting, I feel like little by little him and I are drifting a part. I'll never stop loving him, no matter how many mistakes he makes. No matter if he doesn't love me. No matter if he hurt me. No matter what, I'll love him. Because only by time will my love for him grow stronger.

I absolutely, 110%, truly, completely, with my whole heart, am in love with him. 

Just doesn't feel the same anymore, I'm scared.. I don't wanna lose him.. I honestly don't..  but I don't quite understand what I'm feeling.. 😓 

I love you, and you know who you are. I'll never stop. And that's a promise, the truth, and even after death will I still love you. Just know that I do, and you'll always be in my heart.. no matter what happens l..