Omfg I was at my grandparents' house earlier and I felt weird. We were sitting at a huge table eating dinner (keep in mind this is my grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, and family friends. There are about twenty of us in all) and I felt like a black cloud was hanging over me. Everyone was dressed in nice, bright clothes, while I was wearing black jeans and a band shirt. Everyone was talking loudly and eating together while I sat farther back in my chair being quiet and picking at my food. Right now I'm in the car to do EVEN MORE SOCIALISING because my mum is going to a fancy party for an art gallery with us. I AM BEING FORCED TO WEAR A DRESS!!!! THIS IS NOT O-FACKING-KAY!!!! I still am wearing my Converse though because I refused to wear heels. She forced me to not wear my bracelets and choker, so we compromised: I'm wearing a choker covered in diamonds (I used to wear it for dance competitions) and a bunch of gold and silver bangles. I still wore a dress though!!! It's freaking bright and sparkly!!! I even had to do my makeup fancily!!! Please pray for me. I'm not prepared to pretend I'm happy and overcome my social anxiety.

UPDATE: I'm home now and I'm traumatised, but they had blue Italian Ice. That's the only good part...