I don't understand why... like I won't ever do it but I always get suicidal thoughts when I'm down or when I hurt people or whenever I have nothing else to think off... like if I was gone wouldn't people be happier? ... I know I would never commit suicide but doesn't mean I can't think of how everyone lives would be way less stressful.... I'm just some person that complains about how I'm sad half the time... and when I try to hide it, everyone asks what's wrong or are you okay? I'm the worst liar in the world so no point hiding my feelings or thoughts... but would everyone be happier if I wasn't around? All
I do is being people down.. how could someone love me for how I act... I'm just a person who's clingy and probably be forgotten if I was gone xc
Why do I always feel like this?
Am I fucked up?
Am I so broken that nobody can fix me?
Why can't I be happy for long time?
Why do I cry?
I just don't understand why I feel so worthless all the time.... but whatever