^^ SHANSHAN ^^

I slowly opened my eyes and looked at him, unable to believe the most impossible words I could hear from him. "No... he can't."

"I have feelings for you, Shanshan! I don't want you to leave while I'm falling for you like this!" He furrowed his eyebrows on me while trying to explain in anger. I didn't know why he had to be mad. Maybe the exhaustion and tensing pressure he had for not wanting me to leave filled up his mind.

I tried to push him away, but he didn't budge, his strong arms still trapping me from both sides. "I told you not to fall in love with me!" I shouted back, almost out of breath from the chase and now trembling from the new attitude my best friend was showing.

His face stiffened, stepping back from me, but his gaze still remained firm and unaffected by my words. "Then just stay! You can hate me from falling in love with you but stay, please!"

He can't fall in love with me. The fact that I am dying soon will just leave him hurt. I couldn't believe it! My best friend just confessed that he's in love with me. He had decided to break our friendship... what should I do?

"Jungkook, let me go," I quivered, trying to ignore what he said.

"Stay."

"I need to go!"

"Then take me with you!"

"I need to go alone- I don't want any of you getting harmed because of me! This is my own fight! I have to-"

"NO!" Once again, he was back on caging me, but this time he had my wrists pinned on my sides as I grimaced with pain. "How many times do I have to tell you that New York is dangerous for you?! The thought of you going back there and marrying that guy makes me insane! Stay Shanshan! PLEASE!"

Jungkook's mind was filled with negative thoughts, worrying him that I would get married to someone else, but marrying Mark was not my main intention. I tried to resist his painful grip on my wrists, but he was too strong. "Jungkook, you're thinking so much! Let me go-"

The next thing he did, terrified me. He slammed his lips on mine, shutting me up and forcing me into a kiss!

My breathing came to a stop, opening my eyes wide while my body froze from head to toe. I pulled away, but he caught my lips and pressed his mouth deeper into mine. I tried to scream and free myself, but it just made me feel hopeless and weaker. I was hardly breathing while he sucked my muffled screams until my body became numb. When he noticed that I could no longer fight against him, he attacked my neck, leaving trails of kisses on my skin. He released my hands and pulled the back of my neck to kiss me back on my lips while wrapping his other hand around my waist.

My weak arms dropped heavily on my sides. My body began to burn as hot tears flowed down my face and cold sweat drenched my clothes. I was breathless. I panted through my tears and began to cry.

"Jungkook... this is not him anymore. This is not him!"

^^ JUNGKOOK ^^

It felt so wrong, but I had to do it. "What else should I do to make you mine and stay?"

I knew she made it clear that we couldn't have feelings for each other, but day by day, I couldn't stop falling for her. It was her to blame! Her alluring smile, her warm but strong personality swayed me. Every day she occupied my mind. She was the only place of comfort I had. And many times, when interviewers asked me to describe my ideal woman, she was the first to appear in my mind.

At first, I didn't know about it, but when that Mark Torres from New York came, I realized how I felt towards her. I couldn't let go of her. Fearing that she wouldn't be able to come back and be taken by someone before I could show her how I felt, I became selfish, and here I am, forcing my feelings on her.

"Why?!... Why can't you love me back?"

I softened the kiss, eventually pausing and pulling away from her when I heard her sobbing. She broke into a loud cry after her lips were freed, hitting me on the chest then hugging herself while looking at me.

Fear and hatred. Her eyes were filled with them, stabbing my heart directly with pain and big regret.

I immediately stepped away with a terrified face. "What did I just do?"

"WHYYYYYY?!" She pushed me away further from her. "Why do you have to do this?!"

Oh, God! I threw my hands on my head and pulled my hair in frustration and anger... anger towards myself.

"I- I don't want to lose you... I just want you by my side!" I loudly said because she was crying loud enough for Mark's men to find us, but I didn't care anymore.

She covered her face with her palms and cried nonstop, making me pity her and hate myself. I just stood there, afraid and ashamed to touch her and comfort her. I began to tear up, realizing what I did, and cursed myself for being stupid.

"Shanshan," I cried, my voice already hoarse from shouting. "I'm sorry! I didn't mean to do it that way! Please! I'm so sorry."

She dropped to the ground and cried on her knees. She couldn't respond as she was uncontrollably choking and crying. She must be shocked and terrified.

Suddenly, I heard cars coming. I looked around and saw Mark's men running towards us with their guns pointed at me. "Don't go near her, or else we will shoot!"

"Jungkook... let her go." My mind spoke to me in a sad yet gentle way, but my heavy heart tried to stop me from moving my arms. "It's time to give up."

More tears rolled on my cheeks as I looked down on Shanshan. I fought the urge to fight back and bitterly lifted my arms in surrender, walking four-step backward from her and letting two men help her on her feet. Her hair swayed from the wind as she stood up, revealing her red face and swollen eyes. I swallowed in pain, unable to utter a word while speaking to her through my eyes.

"I'm sorry, please forgive me."

Nothing was heard but our sobs and the gushing of the river under the bridge. I followed my teary eyes on Shanshan as they dragged her to the limousine where Mark was waiting while the rest retreated slowly with their guns still pointed at me. My heart beat with pain while I watched the door close beside her. She didn't give me a last glance.

"Shanshan," I called, my voice turning into a squeak. I wanted to run and hug her. I ought to tell her my last goodbye, but my feet couldn't move, planting my body on the ground.

The cars started to turn and leave, leaving me alone in the lonely place while I watched with bitterness.

I dropped to the ground and began to weep. I felt broken, my body feeling fragile from the painful emotions exploding from my chest.

"Lee Shanshan! Lee Shanshan! Don't leave me! Don't leave, please!" I began to throw a tantrum, the same moment happening as the first time she left during middle school. Twelve years ago, when I heard that Ji Hyo and her family already left, I cried so much, regretting not talking to her when she came to see me for the last time. It was the same reaction I was feeling today.

I cried like that for like an hour until Min Ho found me with his car and immediately ran towards me.

Even after seeing me like this and the car being ruined with bullet shots, he still asked, also not wanting to believe that she already left, "Where-where is... where is she?"

I sniffed and looked at him in pain. "She's gone hyung... they took her away," I cried. "They took her away!"

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