(Harmony)

It's not every day that you fall in love with your best friend. I never saw myself doing the things that Jonah and I are doing together. It's challenging to not tell people that I love him, it's not fair! I sat in my bed thinking of how I wanted to tell Jonah about actually dating. The more I thought about it, the more selfish I felt for some reason.
~Flashback~
"Harmony!" Jonah ran up to me happy as ever. "What?" He smiles bigger than ever, "meet my girlfriend, Miranda" I smiled and introduced myself, on the outside I acted happy for him but on the inside I was dying.

Nobody really knew about what happened in my past. It was Jonah that saved me from it, he was always there. After my dad died, I became suicidal. I remember Jonah running to me, I have never seen him cry until that moment.

~Flashback~
I sat there in my room, holding the razor to my wrist. I never felt so scared in my life, I wanted to be with my dad. I looked at my wrist then sliced it open, it hurt so bad. The pain was different, not like any other pain. I laid on the floor letting the blood pour, I could hear my phone going off. My breathing felt like it was slowing down, "Harmony!!!! No!!!" Jonah ran to me. He picked me up and held on to me, "please don't die!! Please don't die!!!" He said as he dials 9-1-1.

He's always loved me, but why can't we date. That question remained in my mind, is there someone else? *Ding*

Jonah: Hey cutie!

Me:Hi Jonah

Jonah:What's a wrong babe?

Me:Why can't we date?.......

Jonah:it's a long story.

Me: But the night you texted me about how you love me and how you couldn't help the way you feel about me isn't.

Jonah: Babe, look it's not like that!

Me:Just tell me! DAMMIT JONAH!

He didn't text back, he's mad at me. I felt scared, I just wanted to cry. I called ally and Eliza over, but I remembered I couldn't tell them anything, so I had to make up an excuse. "So I have this friend..." they look at me and nod. "Her and her best friend who's a boy are friends with benefits, But she's wants to be more than that" they look at me then think for a second. Ally looked at me then sighed "look tell your friend that she needs to mention to him that she wants to be more than what they are" I nodded, but I knew that wasn't going to work. I sighed "she's tried but-" as I was about to say that Jonah walked in, "Harmony! We need to talk now!" My heart started to pound. Ally and Eliza both looked at me, "can I talk to harm for a second please" they nod then walked out closing the door behind them? "WHAT THE FUCK HARMONY!" He screams at me for the first time, "I DIDN'T TELL THEM IT WAS US!!" I yell back. He looked at me then sighs "I heard everything harm..." he looked at me then at the ground, "I have to tell you something." He looked at me then kissed my lips. "I've been keeping something from you, it's the reason can't date right now." My heart sank to the bottom of my stomach. "What is it?" He let out a heavy breath then sighed, "I started selling drugs...." I looked at him in shock. "Jonah, why?" He looked at the ground," I needed the money, after that, I got pulled into a gang. I wanted to keep you in the shadows about all of this, but it was hurting you." My eyes started to water. "If we started to date...I'm afraid you could get hurt" my heart started pounding fast "a gang?" I looked at him concerned. "Yea, if the other gangs knew about us dating they would try to kidnap or kill you babe! I almost lost you once, and I'm not going to lose you again." I started crying at the fact that we couldn't be together and that he cared so much about me. "I want to be with you still!" He looked at me "you'll only be in danger with me Harmony!" He sighs then pulls me into his lap, "babe if this is what you would like to do, you have to....." I look at him then put my forehead onto his "you have to join the gang to learn to fight and kill" I sighed but if this is what I have to do, just to be with him. I'm willing to do anything "I'll do anything to be able to be with you Jonah. I Love You" He starts to smile like a child "I love you too" I kiss his lips softly. "Hey harm-" Ally and Eliza walks in and stares at us "um did we interrupt?" I look at them then at Jonah "uh no, we were just talking about stuff" they start to laugh "sure talking is what you were doing!" Jonah stood up and smiled. "Bye babe" he said as he kisses my lips "I love you" I start to blush bright red "I love you too" He smiles then walks out "bye girls" they look at me and smile. " So you're the girl?" I nod as I smile big, we talked about for a while, but I didn't say anything about the gang or what Jonah told me. Later that night, I was laying in bed almost asleep until I heard my phone go off.
Jonah: Let's go lazy bones!

Me: Where?

Jonah:Training

Me:For what?

Jonah:For the Gang.

I managed to pull myself out of bed and put on shorts. I climb out of my window and down the drain pipe "Jonah, I'm tired" he laughs. "Let's go babe." He walks to his truck and gets in, I follow him slowly. I managed to jump in but halfway to where the hell we were going, I fell asleep. I must have been asleep for at least an hour because I felt well rested. "Wake up Harmony" I wake up to see a gigantic building, I follow him inside. There must have been a hundred people in there, they all stared me down. "Jonah, who are these people?" He smiles at me, "their my gang members." He leads me to this place that looked like a training gym. "Okay, this is where we will spend most of our time together. I'll train you for every situation, but there's something I didn't tell you about...." I look at him confused. "What?" He smiles then grabs a bag and opens it," you have to carry a gun everywhere you go harm" all I could do was stare at him in shock. Carrying a gun is dangerous, I've never hurt anyone a day in my life. If this is what I have to do to be with him, I'll do what it takes.

A/N
Wow it's been a while since I've updated , I've had a little bit of writers block. I'll try to update every week but if I don't I'm sorry, I'm getting ready for my senior year in high school. It becomes stressful, but anyways love you guys always!!!!!!!!💜💜💜