My BEEloved

"You will love someone after the long wait...and lose someone you treasure." the tarot card reader says. Zac? Ram? Jeff?

Hi, I'm Ayana, a simple girl yearning to be loved as a woman by the man I longed for, oh' Zac, yet... friend zone stuck us. I wanted to get out from that loop; an SOS of an ardent suitor might be the answer, I thought. Jeff Montefalco an epitome of man, a woman would ever desire. I wish I could love him back, unleashing the hopes for Zac's love, but, what's holding me back?

Bee, you sound more than in love. And that's my best friend Ram, hmmm a jerky kind of BFF but believe it or not, he's my favorite person in the world, the universe rather. And 'thanks' for his big mouth, Jeff found out that I was making him my rebound. "Mad" is an understatement, imagine, all his life, he's being chased yet here he is chasing after me. I thought Jeff was gone, but what was he doing in my house? I swear I felt so guilty hearing him apologizing where in fact it should be me. Ayana, I am willing to wait, until you will let me in your heart, his exact words that melt my heart. That very moment I knew Jeff was the man I would love after the long wait, yet, Zac needed me, and I felt he needs me more than ever, besides it could be my chance to earn his attention...his love. Zac might be the one in the prediction, right? Jeff... I'm sorry.

Really Ayana? Adopting Zac? Wake up Ayana! He is just using you because he has nowhere to go. There's this man you deny of having and yet you choose someone who is not even half your worth? That was Ram, he is furious as a beast whacking me of the truth I refuse to swallow. In short, Ram is still a friend I can lean on whenever I needed him, Zac is living in my house with all expenses paid by who else but me. And Jeff, we're still friends and we get to meet each other once in a while which Zac doesn't approve.

You're still seeing that guy? I told you to stay away from him! Are you deaf or just a slut? That's Zac frantically yelling at me, wow slut? Strong word, the nerve! I ran for Ram but he wasn't there. I withRam hoping someone will comfort me, but that moment someone was perfectly timing. No questions, no blames, no words just broad shoulders waiting for me to cry on, Jeff. I won't give up on you Ayana...I will always be right here waiting for you... He mouthed into my ear. For the 'nth' time, I felt that warmth only Jeff could give.

Soon Ram knew what happened, he hugged me tight enough to make me feel his genuine concern and I felt the comfort that everything will be alright. If only I can take the pain in your heart, I'll take them all for you to be happy. You should've just fallen in love with me instead. Huh?! Ram said that. I can't understand it. What? I asked. Nah! We're friends, remember? And friends share both in sickness and in health. Friendship has no limits, my dear, still that was Ram saying in riddle and I can't give a damn getting through it seeing Zac making out with another woman. The next chapter was a limbo, I heard myself cursing him and throwing him out my house is the least verdict I can bestow. Guess I lost someone I 'treasure'. Arrgh! That male chauvinist pig!

Fast forward, Jeff and I gave love a chance, after a prank of losing him for UK, thanks again to my prank player BFF Ram who hinted me vividly I don't want to lose Jeff after all. I am full of love from Jeff who gave me nothing but happiness a woman should ever long for.

When things seem to be okay then trial comes along. It was Jeff, diagnosed of a liver cancer. If only he had a liver donor, it would be a great consolation. Losing faith is not an option but it is eating me. Thinking I might lose someone I love will devastate my whole being. I'm in the verge of questioning the One above what makes me deserve all this pain. Is this the prophecy of my card? I can't eat, I can't think well and it doesn't help Jeff at all. In this entire midst, I only have one person standing by my side, Ram.

One day, I was called, Jeff will be operated. Someone donated a liver. I was overjoyed and went to the chapel to thank Him for the chance He's giving Jeff. I saw Ram standing at the door we hugged each other, but this time I felt Ram's tears on, my shoulder. For quite a while I was puzzled but I did not mind at all, I thought he was just sharing the joy in my heart. Ayana, you deserve to be happy my dear, you will be happy at last, that was Ram with a tone of loneliness, was it?

Ram loves me...My best friend loves me...he loves me...And I lost him...He didn't survive the surgery. I lost my "BEEloved" best friend I treasure to be with the man I love after the long wait. Though the fortune teller warned me, life still surprised me.

Thought I'd end up with Zac, but he wasn't a match. Even got married. And for Jeff, I'm so thankful. Wish I could say, "Thank you" to Ram, cause he was an angel. Ram taught me love. Jeff taught me patience. And Zac taught me pain. And for that I say, thank you, next.