"Why can't you just love me back Y/N-ssi? I know that you know that I can treat you much more better than him. So why him?"

Seokjin whisper softly while stroking my hair as he hug me tightly in his arms.

"Sorry Jinnie, but did you says something?"

He didn't reply.

But,

I heard it all. Clearly.

And I know it all these time.

I know that my bestfriend love me not just a bestfriend, but more than that.

But, I can't.

'I'm sorry Seokjin. I'm really sorry that I can't love you back. You just deserve a much more better woman than me. I don't deserve you, Jinnie. I don't.'

"You deserve the best Jin. Someday. Someday you'll find the woman that you deserve. A woman that you love, a woman that can love you back."

I said as I smile looking up at him still in his embrace.

A lone tears rolled down his eyes.

"Hey! What's wrong?" I asked as I chuckle.

I know the answer but yeah. Lets just all say that I'm really a babo-biatch.

"You know what Jin. I really bet that you'll be a very great husband with a great wife and many great children. Just like you."

I stated the vision that I picture for my bestfriend's future.

"I really feel it." I added as I wiped the tears rolling down his handsome face.

"You know what Jinnie. You look beautiful! I could even mistaken you as a girl. A very sexy and hot one."

I boldly said and playfully wink at him that made him laugh during his tears.

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Well... Just kidding~ (Lol epic fail)

Dr. Kim Seokjin's POV

"Damn! You really are something you know!"

Maybe that's how I fell for you. Because you're really unique and incomparable.

I said smiling.

Her words echoed in my mind.

'I deserve the best cause I'm great, eh?'

No, I don't. Not if you'll know what truely I did..

We did to you.

Just to suffer this much.

I'm crying not because for my broken heart but for you, my love's broken one.

And it kills me just how great you suffered because of me.

Tsk!

Like hell I would feel that way toward her again!

After what he did to me?! She just deserved to suffer!

Especially him!

Because of him. I cannot be with my Y/N.

Because my sweet Y/N choose him over me!

And they just have to suffer badly!

They just have to..

I clenched my fist tightly. Nails digging into my palm flesh.

I glared at the woman who breaks my heart badly until now!

I'm getting sick of it!

"S-seokjin? What's w-wrong? Are you o-kay?"

I snapped out my thought as I hear her voice trembled with fright and worry.

I just gave her a smile.

A smile I practiced over and over when I'm in front of my own reflection in the mirror.

Trying the most genuine and handsome smile I could master.

With only one thing in mind.

'To make her fall in love for me.'

"Ah! I'm okay don't worry! I gotta go now Y/N-ssi since its already late."

I reasoned out as I stand up and head for the door.

I can't stand it anymore.

I don't want to break in front of her again.

I want to always be strong in front of her.

But,

What am I saying! Gosh!

I'm here to break her and her oh-so-lovely husband.

Keep that in mind Seokjin!

Don't fall in her trap again!

"Bye Jinnie! Take care. And thank you for listening. It made me feel somewhat great, like a heavy burden got taken off my heart and it's thanks to you."

She said with her smile so sweet, that I'll never got tired of watching.

No! Remember your mission Seokjin!

That's right! Fucking snap out of it.

It made you sick! It made you want to empty your stomach!

That's right!

You hate her...

I hate her but I love her. And thats the more reason why I hate her so much!

I quickly pushed that thought at the back of my mind and hide it at the deepest pit of emptiness in my heart.

I smile at her. Just as I practice, yes.

"I'm glad to hear that then. I'm always here for you. Don't hesitate to tell me if anything happen okay?"

I said.

"And remember what I said Mrs. Jung."

I warned before I turn my back to leave.

It always hurt to say your name with other's surname.

It always pain me everytime I call you Mrs. Jung.

It's just a painful reminder that you're not mine.

It was supposed to be Mrs. Kim!

Everytime I call you out that, there is always a lump building in my throath that choked me, but I choose to swallowed it down together with my feelings.

Just to go these far. Just to avenge our revenge on the both of you.

I stopped walking and look up at the starless night sky.

"How sad and empty." I whispered in the cold breeze with eyes shut close.

A memory of what I told Y/N about her baby flashed in my mind.

"Just one more Y/N-ssi. Just one more, and it's goodbye to your baby."

Lie.

Another lie.

But that's how my life is.

And that's how my life should go.

A lie.

I still remember her blank yet pained expression as I told her my one of the other many lies.

My mind said that I really love that expression of her and want to continue it.

But my heart scream that I hate it so much I just want to tell her everything.

But I can't let my heart decide for me again.

I choose to hear and do what my mind say.

And at that very moment, there is just one thing in my mind.

'I hate her so much to the point that I dispised her!'

'No you don't,' said my heart.

'Shut up! You're still choosing her even though she nearly totally destroy you. Are you damn?!' scream my mind.

'Yeah. I'm damn. Damn in love with her that I always choose to love and cherish her no matter what.' my heart cried.

'Even if it destroy you again?' questioned my angered mind.

'Yes. Even if it means to destroyed and kill me completely again and again.' my heart answered solemly.

My chest and mind hurt that I could barely stand and breath.

But I choose to continue what I start and completly shut my heart cries away.

I choose to continue and walk along the empty cold road.

Just like my soul, empty.

Don't  know where to go.

Don't know where to belong.

And dang! Here you go dear readers! Wieeeeee! So yeah. It's Eomma Jin!

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